Chapter 13The last time I had been alone with Kyer was the day I went to the Health Center to get a check-up. The day after I stopped taking the blue pill. Since then, I had dreamed of him every night, and as the dreams became more intense, I found myself pulling away from him in real life. I couldn’t look at him for too long without feeling as though I were going to drown in the blue depths of his eyes. I couldn’t touch him without recalling where he had touched me in my dreams. My whole body ached for him.
I loved him, I did. And the more I dreamed of him while asleep, the more I tried to avoid him when awake. I wanted to be next to him every moment and yet couldn’t stand to be too close to him, for fear of what I might say or do.
Usually Brin served as a buffer between us. Even when s
