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Chapter twelve - Pain and disappointment

Ben's POV:

Cassie finally told me the truth. I won't lie that it hurts me. I don't understand why Ashley is cheating on me. Now, it feels like my whole relationship was a lie. I tried to be nice to her. Maybe that was my mistake. This girl did the wrong thing. I won't get my revenge. I will break up with her. Now I know why Cassie was feeling bad. In her place, I would've done the same. That's why I'm not mad at her. She is a good girl, and I would love to have her as my friend. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I got played. My parents told me not to think about this much. Mom said girls like Ashley are not worth it. Well, maybe she is right. It's not a lie that Cassie said the same. I have to focus on myself and forget about her. From now on, she is history. That means I don't want to see her or talk to her. That's what she gets for doing this to me. My girlfriend made me feel like an i***t. The worst thing is that the boys knew and didn't tell me anything. Probably they were part of this. I can ask, but I won't do it. I had enough problems. Getting more is the last thing I want to do. I need to talk with Cassie about this. I know she will listen to me and tell me what to do. Honestly, she is the only person I feel comfortable talking about that. I don't know if Cassie had a boyfriend, but she understands my problems. I think much about this. Life goes on, and I should move on. The thing is that it's hard. I thought we could never break up. The worst thing was that I was ready to go to the same university as her. People were telling me I was blind. I should've listened back then. Now it's too late. I got played with and used. I hope that my next girlfriend won't be like Ashley. I want to have a perfect relationship.

Today is the day I will talk with Ashley. I want to know if all of this is true. Well, I know it is. All I want is to hear it from her. Also, to understand why she did all of this. I didn't do anything to her. Maybe I deserved it. I guess I wasn't a good boyfriend. Honestly, I don't know what girls what from boys. As I have said, I don't want a relationship based on physical touch. From time to time, it's ok for me. The thing is that I don't want to do it all the time.

I woke up and went to get ready for school. I don't even want to go, but I have no choice. When I was ready, I grabbed my things and walked out. Food is the last thing I want to think about right now. Soon, I was in front of the school. I saw Ashley with two of her girls and a couple of my friends. Maybe I need to find new ones. I walked in and noticed Cassie standing by her locker. She is the only person with who I want to talk.

- Hey.

- Oh, hi. How are you?

- I have been worse.

- I'm sorry.

- It's not your fault.

- True, but I know it hurts.

- Are you free today?

- Yes, I am. We can go out if you want.

- How about a movie in bed? I don't want to show up.

- Ben, sitting in your room won't help you. Go outside and have fun.

- It's not that easy.

- Yes, it is. I can show you.

- What?

- After the movie, we'll go out.

- Look, can it be another day?

- Nope. Let's go to class now.

Both with Cassie walked to class together. I saw how Ashley looked at her. I still haven't talked with my girlfriend. Maybe I will do it during the lunch break. Everyone will be in the cafeteria. That way, we can talk in peace inside. Soon the teacher came, and she started the lesson.

During the lunch break, I told Cassie to go and eat. Ashley will come soon, and I will wait for her. As I expected, she was with a couple of her girls. Well, she has to leave them. Ashley was about to go to eat, but I grabbed her hand and dragged her into an empty classroom. It will be better if we are not in the hall. Someone might walk in.

- What was that?

- We need to talk.

- For what?

- It's game over.

- I don't understand.

- Ashley, I know you are cheating on me.

- What? This b*tch. I will kill her.

- Who do you mean?

- Cassie. I know she told you.

- What? Cassie knew about this.

- Don't be innocent. I know this girl did it.

- She didn't tell me anything. One day I saw you making out with James in the boys' locker room. Why did you do this? I trusted you. Now I feel like an i***t.

- Look, I don't know what you mean.

- Really? You cheated on me. Now I wonder for long you have been doing it.

- Does it matter?

- Yes, it does. Tell me why you did it. I gave you everything.

- No, you didn't. I am a girl who has needs. Since you won't satisfy me, I will find someone else to do it.

- Then why didn't you break up with me?

- Are you joking? You bought me so many things. There is no way I will break up with you. After all, you were doing everything I said. That's a good boyfriend.

- You are disgusting in so many ways.

- So what?

- You want to know. I am breaking up with you.

- You can't do that. You need me.

- No, I don't. I don't need anyone, especially you.

- So now what? You will date Cassie.

- What I do is not your business anymore. - I said and left

I went to the cafeteria to eat my lunch. Cassie was there with Chelsea. Both of them were talking about something. I sat down and opened my social media accounts. I changed the taken to single and deleted all my pictures with Ashley. That's why you shouldn't post anything with your girlfriend. Luckily, my photos weren't much. When I was ready, I started eating. Soon, I felt eyes on me and looked up to see the girls.

- What?

- Nothing. - Chelsea said

- Cassie, tell me.

- Are you ok?

- Yes, why?

- We saw you deleting everything.

- That way is better.

- At least you are moving on. - Chelsea said

- I'm trying my best.

After school, I took Cassie home. It might look like I have moved on, but I didn't. The thing is that I don't want to talk with anyone else about it. Both of us went into my room and started with our homework. It's not like I can concentrate. I excused myself and walked into the bathroom. When I came back, my homework got written.

- Thanks.

- For what?

- You know what.

- It hurts. Doesn't it?

- Yes, but I don't know why. As I see it, Ashley doesn't care.

- That's because she never loved you.

- I guess I deserve it.

- That's not true. Nothing of this is your fault. Please, don't blame yourself.

- I was the blind one.

- But she is the bad one. Hey, keep your head up. If not for yourself, do it for me. I care about you.

- Thanks. I needed to hear it.

- Do you want a hug?

- I won't deny one. - I said, and Cassie gave me one

Can someone tell me why this feels so good? It's like a magical pill. Soon, Cassie made me put my head on her lap. She started playing with my hair and talking. Mom was doing the same thing when I was upset. Once when I was little, I lost a dog. It wasn't mine, but it followed me everywhere. Then the owner came to take him. I stayed only a week with him, but we quickly became friends. That was the only dog I had. I have always wanted one but never told anyone. I thought my parents wouldn't want to spend money on it. Now I am old for this.

- Can I tell you something?

- What?

- Mom used to do the same thing. I quickly fell asleep.

- Parents always do this with their kids. I was sitting on dad's lap while he was hugging me. It was the best feeling ever.

- We can try it.

- True, but you are not my dad. It won't be the same.

- Maybe, but I am your friend.

- Really?

- If you want to.

- I would love it.

- Great.

- What should we do now?

- You promised me a movie in bed. Later we can go out.

- Ok, you will pick it.

- Thanks.

Cassie and I watched our movie peacefully. She had rested her head on my shoulder. I will gladly hug her, but we are not that close. I mean, we became official friends like ten minutes ago. Also, I had a breakup. Right now, I don't want to be around girls. Well, Cassie is an exception. After all, she has been nice to me. Soon, she fell asleep. It looks like we'll go out later.

After about an hour, my parents came home. Mom came to check on me. She does this all the time. I am fine, but she cares a lot. Well, I'm happy about it. She looked at me with a little smirk. I know what it looks like, but it's not what she thinks.

- Won't you come inside?

- I don't want to disturb anyone.

- It's ok. She is only a friend.

- Are you sure?

- Yes, I am. Right now, I don't need another relationship.

- I saw that you had changed your social media status.

- It's game over.

- I'm sorry, honey. Maybe that way is better.

- We'll see. For now, I want to stay away from girls.

- What about your friend?

- She is an exception.

- I wonder why. - mom said, chuckling

- Please, don't say anything.

- I won't.

Cassie and I decided to have dinner with my parents. Technically, I convinced her. I warned mom not to ask many questions. Luckily, there was no need for that. Cassie told us everything she wanted to share. Now I know many things about her. Later, we walked around. I promised to take her home. She denied it at first, but I used my charm on her. Well, I told her I wanted us to spend some time together. I didn't mention Ashley. I didn't want to talk about her. This girl is history.

- Hello. Ben.

- What?

- You zoned out.

- I'm sorry. I was thinking about something.

- She is not worth it.

- I know. It will take me some time to get used to this.

- Breakups are not that easy.

- I had to understand it the hard way.

- Everything will be fine. I promise you.

- Thanks.

Cassie and I kept walking around. I wanted to grab her hand, but whenever I did it, it was burning. I don't know what is going on. She promised to tell me everything. It's better if I don't ask. We walked around some places. I need to clear my head from the thoughts. Otherwise, I won't free myself.

- Are you ok?

- Yes, I'm fine. Did you like dinner?

- It was good. Your mom cooks delicious.

- She is not a professional chef, but I like her meals.

- Every mom cooks the best according to her kids.

- True. I have tried to cook as well, but it wasn't successful.

- You have time to learn.

- Maybe you can teach me.

- I will teach you, but something else.

- Like what?

- It's the last thing I need to tell you.

- What is it?

- When the time comes, I will tell you.

- How long do I have to wait?

- First, you need to heal from the breakup. Later, I will answer all your questions.

- What is stopping you now?

- I don't know if you will believe me.

- Why?

- Because it's not something that people can accept the first time.

- Now you got me interested.

- Soon, you will understand everything. Be patient.

- Ok, ok. I won't ask anything about that.

- If you are tired, we can go home.

- Thanks, but I want to walk a bit more.

- No problem. Let's go.

I took Cassie to a place where I used to go with Ashley. Maybe if I bring a different girl here, things will get better. I don't know if it's a good idea, but I don't have what to lose. Soon, we arrived, and Cassie looked around. It's like a small garden with a park. I picked up a flower and gave it to her.

- Thank you. It's a pretty flower.

- Which is your favorite?

- I don't know. I like dark-colored flowers.

- Why?

- I don't know. People always pick light-colored because these are happy colors. I want to appreciate all of them.

- Ok, I will remember this.

- You don't have to do it.

- When was the last time someone gave you a flower?

- I think it was when I was eight. I was in a school play, and granny gave me a small bouquet from her garden.

- What about a boy?

- I don't understand.

- A boy has never given you anything.

- I know what you mean, but I have never had a boyfriend.

- Maybe that was your mistake.

- I don't think so. Having a boyfriend is not everything.

- I agree. Sadly, I had to learn it the hard way.

- It's ok. If you don't think about this, you will be fine.

- It's not easy, but I will try.

- That's what you have to do.

- I will.

- Will you move on from her?

- I hope so. I want to do it, but it will take me some time.

- I'm sure you will be fine.

- We'll see. Let's go now. I will send you home.

- Thanks.

I took Cassie home. We talked for a while at her front door. I wish I could stay longer. Maybe I can go out with her tomorrow. I think I am using Cassie to forget about Ashley, which is wrong. I have to leave her alone. Honestly, it's good to spend time with her, but I shouldn't be using her. I have to focus on myself. I should ask the boys how long they have known about this. Mostly I have to talk with James. I can't understand why he did this to me. I thought we were friends. I guess this didn't mean anything to him. People were right that I was too nice to them. I hope that from now on, I won't have so many problems. I want to have a peaceful life.