(Elara’s POV)
Morning arrived too early.
The bell’s toll rang through Ravenswood like a warning, rattling me out of the shallowest of sleeps. My dreams had been a chaos of shadows, whispers, and—of course—Lucien Blackwood’s eyes. That unblinking gaze had burrowed into me so deeply that even waking hadn’t shaken it.
I dragged myself out of bed, ignoring Mara’s cheerful humming as she laced her boots. She was far too awake for someone who had been up late whispering with friends about forbidden stairwells and boys with sharp smiles.
“You look like death,” she chirped when I groaned.
“Thanks,” I muttered, pulling on my uniform. The fabric felt too stiff, the collar too tight. I cinched the tie loosely around my neck, giving myself room to breathe.
But the truth was, the room felt too small, my skin too hot. The memory of last night clung to me like a second layer—his shoulder brushing mine, the silence that had felt like a noose tightening around my lungs.
He’s closer than you think, the diary had written.
I shoved the thought away. Today was about classes. History first, then Literature. Simple. Normal.
I should’ve known better.
Professor Whitlock’s History class smelled faintly of parchment and mildew, the kind of scent that reminded you of forgotten tombs. The room was tall, with windows that didn’t quite let in enough light, and shelves lined with relics—dusty skulls, broken swords, maps that looked stolen from a pirate’s chest.
I slid into my seat in the third row, close enough to pay attention, far enough to stay invisible. Or so I thought.
Because two minutes later, the door opened.
Lucien walked in.
No one breathed. I swear, the entire room tilted toward him as he crossed the threshold, the way planets bend toward gravity. His coat flared slightly as he moved, black against the pale light, and for one irrational second I thought he might look right at me.
He didn’t.
Of course he didn’t. He didn’t even acknowledge the whispers curling behind hands or the way every girl in the room tracked him like he was prey they wanted to be devoured by. He simply walked, smooth and deliberate, until he chose a seat.
The one beside me.
I stiffened. My brain screamed at me to act normal, but every muscle in my body betrayed me. My hand clenched around my quill. My pulse pounded loud enough that I prayed he couldn’t hear it.
Professor Whitlock cleared his throat, oblivious to the silent panic attack unraveling beside me. “Today,” he began, “we discuss the Battle of Duskmoor…”
Blah, blah, blah. I couldn’t hear a word. All I heard was the scrape of Lucien’s chair against the stone floor, the rustle of his sleeve as he rested an arm on the desk.
I kept my eyes fixed on the parchment in front of me, but I felt him. The heat, the weight, the stillness. He wasn’t like the other boys who fidgeted, doodled, whispered. He was a statue. Except statues didn’t radiate danger like smoke.
Finally, against all better judgment, my gaze slid sideways.
He was already looking at me.
I nearly choked on my own breath. His eyes were impossibly dark, framed by lashes that would’ve been unfair on anyone else. His mouth—sharp, unsmiling—twitched like he’d caught me staring.
“Problem?” he asked.
The voice. Low. Rough-edged. Beautiful in the way broken glass was beautiful—dangerous, cutting.
I swallowed hard. My sarcasm, ever my flimsy armor, scrambled to the surface. “No,” I said evenly, though my throat felt dry. “Unless glaring counts as a problem.”
A flicker of something crossed his face. Amusement? Interest? It was gone too fast.
“Good,” he murmured. His gaze dropped briefly to my desk, to the parchment covered in half-legible notes. “You might need your focus.”
My brows knitted. “Excuse me?”
But he didn’t elaborate. He turned away as Professor Whitlock droned on about strategies and betrayals, leaving me seething. What the hell was that supposed to mean?
By the time class ended, I was torn between relief and frustration. Relief because the weight of his presence lifted when he stood. Frustration because… well, he hadn’t looked at me again. Not once.
As students filed out, I gathered my books with more force than necessary. Mara appeared in the doorway, waving.
“Coming?” she called.
“Yeah, give me a sec.”
When I bent to scoop up a fallen quill, a shadow fell across the desk.
I froze. Slowly, I straightened—and there he was, closer than ever, towering just slightly, eyes locked on mine with unnerving precision.
Lucien.
The room had emptied, leaving only us and the dust motes swirling in the pale light. My stomach flipped, nerves tangling with something else I refused to name.
His voice was quiet, meant only for me. “You shouldn’t wander at night.”
I blinked, my heart stuttering. “What?”
His expression didn’t change, but his gaze sharpened, cutting straight through me. “The halls. Past curfew.”
My blood ran cold. He had seen me.
“How do you—” I began, but he cut me off with the faintest tilt of his head.
“Be careful,” he said, as though it were both a warning and a command. And then he walked away, leaving me rooted to the floor, a storm raging in my chest.
That night, the diary didn’t wait for me to open it.
When I returned to the dorm, I found it already on my pillow, splayed open as though someone—or something—had been reading it. Mara was gone, thankfully, off gossiping or sneaking sugar biscuits from the kitchens.
My hands shook as I picked it up. Ink had already bled across the page in frantic strokes:
He speaks. He warns. But he is not your savior.
I slammed it shut, my breath shuddering out of me. My fingers dug into the leather cover as though I could strangle the truth out of it.
Not my savior.
Then what was he?
Because no matter how much I told myself to stay away, to bury myself in studies and sarcasm and pretend he didn’t exist… I couldn’t shake the sound of his voice. The way his warning had coiled around my spine like a secret vow.
And, God help me, I wanted to hear it again.