Diamond

Chapter 6

Michelle's P.O.V

PAIN!

Pain is all that I am feeling. It shoots up from my head and spreads throughout the rest of my body. My body is so stiff that when I try to lift a finger or even move my head it starts to hurt. It feels like my body is weighed down by bricks. I can't open my eyes, I have been trying but it is just a struggle as the rest of my body.

I don't know where I am, I don't remember anything. What I know is that there are people around me walking and talking in soft voices. I can't hear what they are saying, their voices are just muffling sounds.

I go back to sleep but I don't want to sleep I want to open my eyes and see where I am. Uggg, why can't I remember the last thing I did, it's not like I lost my memory but whenever I try to remember how or where I was, I get a headache then the pain goes all over my body again. Sleep pulls me in and just like that I am out.

I wake up but I still can't open my eyes. I am trying to but it is hard. I can hear people around me and this time I can clearly hear what they are saying. There is also a beeping sound going on and the smell of what I could best describe as a hospital. I'm not sure if I am making any sense, it just smells like medicine or pills. But why would I be doing in a hospital?

"Doctor, how is my daughter?"

Wait that voice, I know that voice. It belongs to my mother. There is so much concern in her voice.

"She is okay, there weren't any injuries besides the one on her head. There was no swelling in her brain but she did lose a lot of blood before she arrived at her hospital and even when we were operating on her... Therefore I have put her on some medication that will help her body produce more blood. It will take much energy for the body and she needs to rest so she will wake up later on in the week..."

I heard the voice of another woman whom I'm assuming is the doctor which confirms that I am in the hospital. I have a head injury which explains these horrible headaches and throbbing, meaning that I was in some sort of accident. Someone interrupted the doctor before she could continue.

"So she is out of danger?" a voice that belonged to my dad spoke.

My parents were both here that would explain why I feel someone holding my hand and caressing it gently, it was my mom.

"Yes she is out of danger and so is the baby, it's heart rate is steady and there was no impact to her stomach that would harm the baby," the doctor says and the gentle caress on my hand stops.

"Baby? Wh - what baby?" my mom stutters.

"Your daughter is pregnant," after the doctor said that there was silence.

"Before we do any operation we take a blood test to see if she is pregnant and the results came back as positive,"

"Oh, uhm... that's good," my mom says with a whisper. "Do you know how far along she is?"

"She is six weeks pregnant,"

"Uhh thank you doctor, can we please have a moment to ourselves?" my mom asks.

"Of course, if you need anything please press this button and the nurse will come immediately. I will come back later to check on them,"

I hear footsteps and a door opening and closing, then it was back to silence. At that moment I was glad that I couldn't open my eyes because I did not want to see the looks on my parents' faces. I am sure that it was looks of shock and disappointment.

This is not how I wanted my parents to find out about the baby. I was going to talk to Adrian first so that he would change his mind and then we were going to tell both of our parents together when I also had a plan on what I was going to do.

The gentle caress returned on my hand, I was happy that my mom wasn't angry at me but I am sure it was because I was laying on a hospital bed recovering. I heard a loud grown from my dad and some footsteps that sounded like he was pacing around the room.

"At least she is safe... it could have been worse or she wouldn't even be laying here now, she could have..." my mom doesn't finish her sentence.

"Yes but she is pregnant. At this time in her life she decides to become pregnant,"

"There is never a right time to be pregnant,"

"There is, it's when you are done with school and you are working to support yourself and your child, or after you are married,"

"I know that it is not ideal but can we just be happy that she is okay and focus on her recovery,"

"I thought you said that you talked to her about... stuff like this?" my dad voice starts to get deeper meaning that he is beginning to get angry.

"I did..."

"Well you didn't talk to her about everything because she is pregnant!!"

"We talked about everything even about this, and yes she is pregnant and now is not the right time but we cannot go back... and we won't take any option other than helping our daughter and OUR granddaughter,"

There was silence again. I hate that my parents are arguing because of me. I hear footsteps and a door opening and closing, I think that it was my dad that left the room. My mom kisses the back of my hand and softly touches my cheek.

"Get well soon my Mishi," she says in a soft voice.

I feel myself slipping into deep sleep, thanks to these stupid medications.

I have been sleeping for a long time now, the headaches are still there but at least my body is no longer in pain. It even feels lighter and I squeeze my hand whenever I feel my mom holding it. She was so happy when I first squeezed her hand, she gave me kisses all over my face. When she told my dad about it he also wanted to hold my hand, so he held my hand and asked me to squeeze his hand and when I did he also kissed my face but only my forehead.

The doctor came and did an examination on me, and gave my parents the feedback. She says that with me responding it's a good thing as I am conscious and aware of whatever is going on around me. She says that soon I will open my eyes.

My eyes are still so heavy to open, every day I am trying but I am making little progress. I don't think that this makes sense but I am tired of laying down on a bed and sleeping all the time. It's not like I have a choice when sleep comes, it comes.

'It's so bright in here!!!' I scream in my head after successfully opening my eyes. Who in this hospital decided that it was a good idea to have such light curtains in the room!

I slowly bring my hands to my eyes and gently soothe my eyelids, then again open my eyes, at least this time I adjusted to the light. I look around the room that I was in and I already knew that I was in a hospital and the room looked so elegant. Probably one of the private hospitals that my parents have shares in.

There are balloons of different colors around the room, some teddy bears that are different in sizes, some 'get well soon' cards, variety of flowers, and even some baskets filled with fruits and some sweet treats. There was no one else in the room, I was alone with my thoughts.

My hands went to my stomach I felt like hugging my baby at that moment, to kiss it and hold it close to my chest. There is no way that I am giving up this baby he/she is my light, my little fighter. He/She is so strong to survive the accident and still be fine even after me going through so much. I just hope my parents would not suggest the same thing as Adrian did.

I wonder if he even came to see me, but then I didn't hear his voice. I didn't hear anyone else's voice aside my parents.

I just sit there staring in space thinking about my life and how it will be from now on. I gently rub my stomach thinking about the life that is growing inside of me. I decided at that moment if Adrian is not going to change his mind then I am going to raise my angel on my own. To hell with him and his stupid thinking, we have been busy having s*x so what did he think was going to happen?

As I was in my thoughts I feel a smooth touch on my cheek snapping me back to reality. I looked over to who it was and it was my mom with tears in her hears.

"My baby, you're awake," she says then kisses me all over my face.

I was trying to say something but the way she was holding my cheeks was making it hard to speak, she hugged me tightly although she was squeezing a little hard I didn't complain I just let her have her moment.

She finally broke the hug and sat next to me on the hospital bed. Before she could say anything, someone entered the room and it was my dad. When he saw that I was awake, he too came and gave me a warm bear hug but he was gentle as to not hurt me. We broke the hug and he gave me a kiss on my forehead.

"I'll call the doctor," my mom says as she is about to stand up.

"No it's fine I will call her, I saw when I came in the hospital so i know where she is, I'll be back," my dad says then leaves the room.

"How are you feeling?" mom asks while tucking some hairs behind my ear.

"I feel sore all over my body and my head hurts a little," I tell her. " How long have I been here?"

"It's been a week,"

"What? A week?" I ask her very shocked with a gruff voice and she nods her head.

How has it been a week? It feels like it's only been three days or even two but definitely not seven full days. All that time that I felt myself being pulled into sleep and me thinking that I was only sleeping for a few hours was probably me sleeping for a whole day. That would explain why my throat feels so dry.

I make a hand gesture of a drink to my mom and she gets the hint and starts pouring some water for me. When she gives me the glass I start drinking the water fast but she tells me to slow down only after I almost choked.

Once I'm hydrated I lean back on my bed and look at my mom. She holds my hand and looks down at my stomach. That's when I remembered that the doctor told them about my pregnancy.

Ugg what happened to doctor-patient confidentiality. I know that they are my parents but still she should have waited for me to wake up first. We're both quiet for a minute with her still looking at my stomach.

"So you're pregnant," she says to me but it didn't sound like a question. I nod my head when she looks at me.

"When did you find out?" she asks.

"Yesterday," I say without thinking, the look on her face makes me remember that I have been here for a week.

"I mean on Friday... I wasn't feeling well for some time so I went to the doctor that's when we found out that I was pregnant," I tell her.

"We? You were with Adrian when you found out?"

"Yes, I asked him to come with me,"

She was about to say something else but the door opened and my dad entered with the doctor behind her. My mom stood up from the bed so the doctor can check up on me.

The doctor checked the monitors and everything that she needed to do and told me and my parents that I was in a good state. The headache that I have will slowly go away if I continued taking my medication. She went on and talked about the baby saying that she will have some nurse come and take me to a room where I will take a ultrasound to check on the baby.

After she said that she left me alone with my parents. Although I heard them talking about my pregnancy, I still couldn't stop the way my heart was beating so much. I couldn't even look at them in the eyes I was just staring at my hands but I could feel their eyes on me. Finally my mom broke the silence.

"So are you hungry?" she asks me as she makes her way to me.

"Yes," I say in a soft whisper.

She holds my chin and lifts up my head so that I could look at her. She has a small smile on her face, my eyes went to my dad who is showing no emotion all at, then I looked back at my mom.

"Who is the father?" my dad asks with a stern voice.

"Adrian," I say with my voice still in a whisper.

"Does he know?" he continues.

"Yes he knows, he was with me when I found out,"

"Honey, what are you planning on doing now going forward?" mom asks in a much gentle voice.

"I want to keep the baby," I say to them both.

"How..." dad was about to say something but then mom interrupted him.

"It's fine if you want to keep the baby and if you also want to finish with school, we understand your decision," she says.

"Thank you," I say to her.

"The rest we will talk about when you get home, okay?" she says and I just nod.

A nurse comes in with a wheelchair, mom helps me climb off the bed and helps me sit in it. The nurse wheels me out of the room and my mom walks beside me. We get in some room that has a bed and an ultrasound machine, it was when I was laying on the bed I noticed that dad didn't come with us. That made my heart break because he was disappointed me.

The same doctor started with everything and then we got to see the baby, well the grey dot on the screen. I'm not sure if it's just my imagination or what but I'm sure that what I'm seeing is slightly bigger than the last time. I think my tiny little grey dot is growing, I smiled to myself.

The doctor started explaining some things but I couldn't hear her I just kept staring at the screen. I'm going to be a mom. Eight months is a long time to wait, I want to hold my baby right now and just give it kisses. I got finished and went back to sitting on the wheelchair. My mom was holding something in her hands and she was smiling while looking at it.

"Mom, what is it?" I wanted to know why she was all smiles with tears building in her eyes.

I swear this woman is so emotional she cries at everything and right now I wasn't sure if they were happy tears or not. She gave me whatever she was holding and I saw that it was the ultrasound picture. Just seeing them made me emotional and started crying all over again. Now I see where I got being emotional from... or it could be the hormones.

I almost forgot about the hormones that I am going to go through. I hope my emotions will not be all over the place. While still looking at the picture I felt a kiss on my head, I looked up and saw it was my mom. I love this woman so much and I hope that I can be a mother like her to my child.

I'm wheeled back to the room I was staying in and my dad is not there. I try to hide how hurt I am but I know that mom sees it, she knows me so well I can't hide anything from her. She helps me to get back in bed and brings over the food that she brought with her. She gives me mine as she takes hers and we start eating in comfortable silence. Well she is eating but I am just stuffing my mouth. I AM STARVING. Mom just looks at me and says nothing but I know she is thinking of saying that I should be eating slower so that's what I start doing.

After finishing all the food that she came with I am so full I'm even starting to feel sleepy, she sees me and says that she will come back again later. I don't have the energy to reply so I just nod my head at her, she kisses my cheek then leaves. It wasn't long until I'm sleeping again but this time it was from a food coma.

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I hear humming in my sleep, when I open my eyes I see that it is my mom sitting on the chair next to my bed humming while she is looking at something on her tablet. I move my eyes around and see that dad was sitting on the couch that is in the room busy on his laptop and some papers, he looks so focused.

I don't move or make any sound that would make them notice that I was awake. I just look at them then close my eyes and think of how they raised me, spoiling me, showering me with love and affection, and always supporting whatever I did.

And that is exactly what I want for my child, to give him/her the best in life, to support them in everything. The baby is not here yet but I already know that I will do anything and everything for them to be happy and to feel loved always.

So if Adrian doesn't want this baby then it is the end of our relationship, he can go and find himself another girl who he can have s*x with. Hopefully he will learn to use a c****m correctly.

When I think about what he said to me and how he can even have the audacity to say such, my blood just boils in anger. And what is wrong with me, why do I keep thinking about him, now I'm starting to get mad at myself.

The monitor next to my bed started beeping loudly alerting everyone in the room. I opened my eyes and looked at it and saw that my heart rate was rising fast. My parents moved frantically around the room towards my bed, they were speaking but to me everything was in slow motion and all I could hear was the beeping.

Mom turned my head to look at her, she was telling me something but I couldn't hear her, until she gestures with her hand and mouth for me to take deep breaths to calm myself and that's what I did. They were working as I felt my heart beat go back to normal and I could start hearing everything around me again.

"Mishi, are you okay?" mom asks holding my hands in hers.

I nod my head still taking deep breaths; I heard the door open and the doctor came in followed by my dad. I didn't notice that he left the room. The doctor asked what happened and mom explained to her how everything was fine and I was asleep until the monitor started beeping like crazy and how she helped me calm down.

The doctor nodded in understanding and started checking the monitor, my vitals; she took my temperature and wrote something down on her pad.

"Michelle, can you tell me what were you thinking about or what you were dreaming about that made you panic?" the doctor asked me. I looked at my parents and I didn't want them to know the reason yet, so I lied.

"I had a nightmare... I only remember bits of it but I was in my car, driving, and another car hit mine... the car that I was in started to roll down a hill until it went in the water... I started panicking because I was struggling to get out and water started filling in the car... There was water everywhere and I couldn't hold my breath anymore then it was darkness... That's all I remember before waking up," I looked back at my parents and mom was on the verge of tears. I felt guilty lying about this.

"You are probably remembering the car accident, well some parts of it and that is what triggered your panic attack... I just gave you a sedative that will help your body calm down and it is not harmful towards the baby. With what just happened I am going to keep you here longer so that I can observe your progress. I suggest that for the upcoming days you stay away from anything that can cause you any stress," the doctor says the last part mostly to my parents.

She continued talking about my health and that of the baby, she checked on me once again then when she was satisfied she left saying that she will send a nurse with my food.

"How are you, Princess?" dad asks me while pushing my hair away from face.

"I feel a little bit weak and drowsy,"

"It's probably the sedative the doctor gave you. You should get some sleep after eating your food," mom says.

"But I just woke up and I'm tired of sleeping," I say to them.

The door opened and a nurse came in pushing a table with a tray of food that was covered. She helped me adjust the bed so that I was sitting, she pushed the table close to me and gave me my food. When I opened the cover I saw that it was rice, some veggies and a piece of meat, it was dry and brown and just unappetizing. After that she left saying that she will come back to get the tray once I was done eating.

"Eat your food then lay back on the bed and relax, I brought you your tablet so you can watch some movies on it," mom says placing my tablet next to me on the bed.

I start eating the food and it tasted worse than it actually looked. I forced it down my throat and when I was finally finished with it, mom handed me a bottle of juice. It tasted amazing and I drank half of it.

Dad pushed the tray away from my bed and mom helped me lie down. I wanted to watch something on my tablet but the sedative was really taking effect and I ended up sleeping, with me holding the tablet to my chest.