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Girls Weekend

My c**t was throbbing, yearning to be touched, I could feel the build up starting while my husband thrusted in and out of me from behind. Please, please I screamed in my head, this time please! No, no, no, I felt the disappointment and frustration take over as he came, collapsing onto me, pulling out as he rolled over onto his back. He slapped me gently on my ass, “that was great babe, you should just learn to get out of your head” he grunted. I got out of bed wrapping my gown around me. “I’m going to jump in the shower. He is right of course, we’ve been married for 8 over years, with a beautiful son and still I can’t seem to relax enough to find release. 

I met Damian at work. I was in sales at an ad agency, my first big job that I was lucky enough to land with just a high school degree, thanks to the fact that I could speak German and Dutch, one blessing from traveling around so much as a kid. Damian says he fell in love with me the moment he stepped into the office and laid eyes on me, it was the reason he took the Managerial position they offered him. I had just gotten out of a relationship with my high school sweetheart, we’d been dating since I was 16,  he was my first kiss but thankfully I found out what a cheating bastard he was before I gave him my virginity. A few weeks after Damian started working he started speaking to me at an office party and we just started hanging out, 3 months later he proposed and life just kind of ran its course from there. Engaged for a year, we moved in together and I gave myself to him, I was married by the time I was 21, by 23 I was a mom to the sweetest little boy, Leonard. I had worked my way up to project management when I found out I was pregnant, but I wanted to be there for my little Leo so I quit my job to be a full time mom. Damian then got a job offer in Switzerland when Leonard was 6 months old, where we have now been living for almost 5 years now. 

Showered and dressed I went into the kitchen to start breakfast. “I was thinking of finally taking that girls weekend with Jen this weekend, would that be ok or do you have to go into the office this weekend?” I asked Damian as I handed him his coffee. “No I don’t, you girls should do it, you deserve a break” he sweetly responded, kissing me on the cheek as he swiped a slice of bacon from the pan. “I have an early meeting today, so I have to run, but I’ll be home early to make up for that. See you later, give Leonard a kiss for me” he said as he chugged his coffee, grabbed his briefcase and rushed out, the door banging behind him in his haste. “Mommmmmyyyy” urgh guess it’s time to get Leo ready for Kindergarten.

The week raced by and before I knew it Jess and I were driving up to Davos for our girls weekend at the Hard Rock Hotel. “I’m so excited we finally get to do this! I love Jay and May, but I was in some serious need of some girl time!” Jess exclaimed. Jay is Jess’s husband and May, their 1 year old daughter. “My mom said she would watch the kids tomorrow evening so our guys can have a guys night.” Jess said as we parked the car, we had reached our destination. Spa here we come! 

After we checked in Jess and I spent the afternoon relaxing at the indoor pool, swimming and getting pretty tipsy on cocktails. We finally decided to get ready and have dinner. We laughed endlessly letting go of all the day to day tension of everyday life as mothers and wives, finally just getting the chance to be carefree woman for the weekend. I don’t know if it was the copious amounts of cocktails, the dinner or just the fun of being out with my best friend not having to worry about anything but myself for once, but there was this constant buzz around me since we had finished our main course, that made me feel giddy and excited. We finally made our way to our room, me holding Jess up as she stumbled. “I don’t understand how you never ever never gets drunk” she slurred. She was right, I’d never been drunk in my life, I got tipsy but because I hated not being in control of myself, I would automatically slow down when I got buzzed then it wouldn’t be too long before the effects wore down and I could drink a bit more again. “I guess I know how to pace myself” I laughed “well miss pace herself, I will make it my mission to get you sloshed my fwiend!” “That’s what you’ve been saying for years Jess” I giggled opening the door to our room. She stumbled to the bathroom to get ready for bed “i will succeed eventually, I’ms just working up my alcohol resistanence till then” I shook my head grabbing my bag to get out my pjs. Jess came out the bathroom flopping face down on her bed and was snoring lightly before she even hit the mattress. I chuckled as I got myself ready for bed, sliding in and falling into the best sleep I can ever remember having, surrounded by that warm, promising buzz. 

At 10:30 Jess groaned, “my f*****g head! What the hell were in those cocktails!?” “Alcohol” I replied laughing, as I placed a cup of coffee on the bedside table for her. “No f*****g kidding!” She groaned squinting at me “thanks for the coffee Jazz, what time is it?” She asked looking at me already dressed in comfortable tights and a loose T-shirt. “30 minutes till our booked spa treatments starts.” Jess jumped up, falling back on her ass while grabbing her head. “s**t! Jazz why didn’t you wake me!” “We have time, take it easy and freshen up” I shrugged sitting on the sofa in our room. Jess made her way to get ready as I pulled out my book to keep myself occupied. “Is that one of you trashy books again?” Jess asked as she made her way out of the bathroom, she was pale but already looked much better. “Don’t knock it till you’ve read one. Ready?” I stood up making my way to the door. “Let’s do this!” She replied 

Five hours later, we were floating back to our room. “That was the best damn massage I’ve ever had in my life!” Jess exclaimed, fully rejuvenated. “That was one hell of a spa day for sure! I’ve never felt so "glowwy" before!” I giggled while a yawn escaped at the same time! “What do you say to a well deserved nap before dinner and tonight we hit the little club to dance our booties off? “Sounds like a plan!” After a great nap and a light dinner that we decided to enjoy in our room. We started getting ready to go out. “I hope you brought something sexy to wear Jazz, tonight we turn heads and let our hair down!” “I didn’t actually pack anything special, you know I’m not really one for dressing up” I replied pulling out my skinny jeans, a top and heels. “Well at least you brought heels!” She laughed. “Here put this top on, it will look great with your rack” I caught the top Jess threw at me looking at it skeptically. It was a sheer green top, with a wrap around affect causing the front to open slightly down the middle. I wasn’t going to argue with Jess tonight so I put it on. “My god I wish I had your cleavage! That top was made for you!” Jess exclaimed excitedly. Hair down, mascara , eyeliner and gloss applied. We grabbed our clutches and made our way to the club.

We had been dancing for two hours and my feet needed a break. I left Jess and made my way to the bar to sit down and get a drink. While waiting for my martini that buzzing feeling wrapped its way around me again, I closed my eyes and was hit by the most refreshing scent of morning dew. Drawn by the scent I turned in my chair only to be met by the most divine man I had ever seen in my entire life! Dark hair with soft curls that I just wanted to run my fingers through, beautiful tanned skinned, with sparkling green eyes, cheekbones and a jaw that could only have been carved by God himself! Tall and oh those arms, my lips parted as my eyes made there way across his beautiful muscular arms, heat rising between my legs, my cheeks felt like they were on fire, no my entire body was screaming with heat! “Shots!” Jess screamed next to me, snapping me out of my very inappropriate lustful daze! I spun in my seat filled with guilt. What the hell is wrong with me! I grabbed the shot and tossed it back signalling the bartender to keep them coming.

Storm

Why did I agree to this weekend I groaned inwardly while my imbecile friends were getting ready for a night out, making stakes on who was going to get lucky first tonight. “What do you think, you gonna get that stick out your ass tonight for a change Storm?” Dan asked nudging me as he grabbed a handful of condoms from the box he had brought along. I rolled my eyes. “When will the two of you grow up?” I yawned “when we meet our mates I guess!” Dan and Max shrugged elbowing each other. Dan and max, my best friends and also my Beta and Gamma. I’m the Alpha of Black Moon pack, 32 and still mate less! I was beginning to accept the fact that I would never find my mate, but I seriously prayed to the Goddess that these two dimwits would find there’s soon! “Come on Storm, it’s the first time you’ve been out in five years, lighten up a bit and just try to have a bit of fun!” Max said while punching me on the shoulder. “Yeah dude, you promised you wouldn't be such a tight ass this weekend, we all need this weekend to unwind” Dan added “yeah, yeah” I mumbled getting up to grab my wallet. They were right, the past 5 years had been non stop battles since I took over as Alpha, cleaning up and dealing with the s**t mess my father left for me. He wasn’t a good businessman, he wasn’t a reasonable Alpha. He thought because our pack was strong he could do what he wanted with no regard for consequences, so he had made many enemies and almost run our pack bankrupt, finally killing himself when he realised he couldn’t dig his way out of the financial mess he made and leaving me to deal with it all! I had been traveling trying to find my mate, unaware of the s**t back at our pack. Fortunately my mother had made me go to business school. She was killed by rogues while I was away, but I finished, for her. Then travelled. My studies and travels were what save my pack in the end. During my travels I had invested in various small businesses and as luck would have it most of them thrived! Thank the Goddess! It helped to dig my pack out of the hole my father had dug, and I had made amends with many he had gotten on the wrong side of. But we had 3 battles over the years against packs around our territory, sleazy Alphas my father had business dealings with that were not too happy with how I planned to run my pack. We came out victorious and absorbed the packs into ours, increasing our land, and giving me more pack members to take care of, leaving me no time to find the mate I had previously been traveling the world in search of.

We had gotten to the Hotel in Davos late yesterday, I hadn’t really wanted to go, but it was Max’s birthday and after everything my friends deserved the break. As much as they were dumb asses, they were also my pillars. With me through everything, helping me claw our pack out of disgrace and deal with it all. When we were checking in my wolf perked up, and a feeling of excitement wrapped its way around me. Maybe the change in scenery was just what I needed, but I really wasn’t in the mood to go clubbing trying to keep overly desperate human woman from drooling all over me. But, Max’s birthday, so here we go. 

Thirty minutes in and my wolf seemed restless and I was still surrounded by that buzz, for some reason anything seemed possible tonight and I decided I would enjoy the night with my friends, getting up to get drinks from the bar. Making my way to the bar the sweetest scent made its way to me. Marshmallows? Drawn toward the scent that just so happened to be in the direction of the bar I was heading to, when I saw her. Sitting at the bar, her long dark hair falling down to her voluptuous round ass in the most beautiful soft locks I’d ever seen, she turned and my eyes travelled up her tiny waist, catching the sparkle of a belly ring glistening through the sheer top she wore. My eyes continued traveling up while I was frozen where I stood, her top opened and I scanned my way up her beautiful soft tanned skin, to the curves of her cleavage, that seemed to be rising and falling heavily, I stopped at her neck imagining running my tongue up her smooth skin to her lips, those beautiful full lips that softly parted inviting me to taste her, a low hungry growl rumbled low in my throat. Finally my eyes met her beautiful honey eyes that seemed to be lost in a daze and my wolf howled in delight, MINE! Someone appeared at her side and with a blush Rising in her cheeks she spun around throwing back a shot that was on the bar, signalling the bartender for more and nervously starting to play with a ring on her finger... no, no, oh moon goddess how can this be. My wolf howled in pain as I spun around and raced back to my suite. 

Why, how! It’s hard enough that my mate seems to be human but married!! What the actual f**k! What am I going to do? How can I claim her, make her mine when she has already given her heart to someone? Legally bound herself to someone other than me! A painful growl ripped through me as I punched a hole in the wall. Max and Dan entered the suite with questioning worried looks on their faces. “Storm, dude what’s up” Dan asked while Max beckoned me to calm down. “I found her” I mumbled “what?” They both asked confused. “I found her, I found her! I found my mate and she’s perfect! He skin, her curves, her hair, those eyes! I found my f*****g mate who smells like marshmallows and she’s human. My mate is f*****g here, human and f*****g married!!!!” I roared. Max and Dan both looked at me stunned. “Fuck...” they both whispered. “Yeah, f**k. f**k, f**k I’m f****d! Pack your things, we’re going home. I can’t be here, I can’t be this close to her and not have her, not touch her, I won’t be able to stay away. We have to leave! NOW!” “Y ye yeah!” “S sure” Max and Dan stuttered out, rushing to throw their things together. I went to get the car while they handled check out and payment for the damaged room. My wolf all the while howling in distress in my head while my heart ached.  Why was this happening to me. Why this, after all the s**t I had to deal with that my father left behind. Why? Oh moon goddess what am I supposed to do? Those were my thoughts as I raced to get away, away from my mate, back to my pack, back home. Home to my cold, empty, lonely bed. Without my mate, but with the pain of knowing she would be in bed with someone else! We reached the pack border and I stopped the car, jumping out and shifting into my wolf to run the rest of the way. I need to run, run till I forgot, run till this pain stopped, run to stop the ache!  

Jasmine 

“Jazz, are you ok?” Jess yelled, after I threw back my fourth shot. “I, I,  I don’t feel so great. I’m going up to the room” I mumbled. Getting up, feeling the alcohol swirl in my head, a stopped to steady myself then made my way out the small club in a daze, heading to our room. I was about to open the door when I swear I heard a howl. It tugged at my heart sending a shiver down my spine and I had to get away. I kicked off my heels, turned and ran outside. I ran not knowing why my heart ached, trying to get away from the pain. My head throbbing, vision blurred. Tripping over a log I fell on my face, scraping my knee and I burst into tears. Was it the guilt of what I felt, yearned for, the way I blatantly eye f****d that guy in the club. Or was it the feeling of loneliness that suddenly seemed to multiply beyond what I could handle. How can I be so selfish. I have a husband who loves me, does everything for me, who supports me and is an amazing father to the most amazing little boy that he blessed me with. How could I lust after someone else, someone I don't even know! How can I not appreciate the life my husband has worked so hard to give us. There isn’t anything more that I should want. So why do I yearn for more! I angrily rubbed away my tears, stood up and limped my way back to the hotel. It took me 45 minutes to make my way back, I hadn’t realised I had run that far. I got to the room and took a shower. As I came out the bathroom Jess came into the room. Frantically running to me and throwing her arms around me. “Where the f**k were you! I was so worried! What happened? Are you okay?” She bombarded me with questions while stepping back to look at me. “I’m so sorry Jess, I wasn’t thinking, The club was... hot and stuffy, I just needed some fresh so I went for a walk” I lied “god Jazz! You scared me half to death! Damian would never forgive me if I let anything happen to you!” “I’m so sorry Jess, I should have said something.” I sighed. “ it’s fine, let’s get some rest, I loved the break but I am also looking forward to getting back to Jay and May tomorrow. I missed them so much” jess rambled making her way to the bathroom.  I threw myself on the bed guilt overtaking me. What was wrong with me, I should be as happy as Jess to go home, lord knows I miss Leo and can’t wait to smother him in cuddles, but the thought of Damian left me feeling numb. I spent the night staring at the ceiling tortured with guilt and loneliness, the heavy emptiness aching in my heart and I swear it felt like a howl of pain was echoing in my mind, mirroring the one I thought I had heard. The memory making my heart ache even more, as tears silently flowed as if they would never stop. 

The next morning it took every ounce of energy I had to smile and try to mirror Jess’s excitement at going home. All I could do was think about my son. My little Leo was waiting for me. When Jess dropped me off, Leonard ran out the door, “Mommy! Mommy! I missed you sooo much!” He yelled racing to me and jumping up into my arms. “Hello big boy, mommy missed you so much too. What do you say to popcorn, movies and cuddles on the sofa?” I asked “Sounds great! How was your weekend” came Damians voice as he made his way to me, kissing me on the cheek. “Great thanks” I smiled at him, avoiding his eyes. I quickly put all my focus on Leo burying the yanking at my heart. Damian grabbed my bags and we made our way into the house for our movie evening.