Secrets

/ C H A P T E R / 12 /

Amber White

I feel my heart sinking, deep. My chest is hurting and it's getting hard to breath. A hot teardrop escaped my eyes as I shouted

"WHY"

They both turned to me Lucy is smirking and Ace face tensed. I ran as fast as my legs can run. Hot tears flowing non-stop. I don't know what to do. Just when I thought maybe my life is getting better, just when I thought I will be happy again, just when I thought I don't have to be alone again.

I knew I shouldn't have done that but I thought maybe, just maybe. I should have known, no I knew it was coming. But why is that I didn't want to believe this.

Somehow I ended in a park, I looked around to find a couple playing with there child. They seem so happy together, laughing, having fun. Why can't my life be like this? Why can't I and my partners be like this? Why.

I hear someone shouting my name so I run again. I need something to calm me down, to let my anger out. I want to beat the s**t out of Ace but I can't.

No, not that you can't.It's because you don't want to.

 Ace Williams       

"WHY" I hear someone shout. I see who it was, Amber. no.

I see a tear rolling down her beautiful cheeks. Before I could say anything she ran away. I followed her, f**k she is fast. I see she was standing in a park looking at a couple and their child. I can see her face she is sad, her eyes are red tears still flowing, I can't see anything they are ....................................... Empty.

It's breaking me to see her like this. If it wasn't for that b***h, my kitten wouldn't have been like this. f**k I got tricked.

"Amber" I shouted for her but she ran again. No please kitten come back.

After some running, I still can't find her where did you go. I also can't go to her house I don't know where it is and I can't get my people involved to find her house. She is hiding something and I am afraid if someone finds her she will be in trouble. My phone rings and I pick it up in hope that it might be Amber.

"Ace the girl she is here you need to co...." before he could complete I hung up.

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It's been f*****g 2 hours and I still can't find her. She is not picking any of my calls or replying to any of my messages. Maybe I should leave her for a while to calm down then maybe she will talk to me.

I decided to go to the club. As I entered I can hear the cheers, it's louder than anytime before. I see Denis Jogging towards me.

"Ace you got to see this," he said and pulls me in front of the fighting ring.

I see the girl who calls herself, Red is beating someone in the ring.

"what's there to see for," I asked him.

"She is in the ring for two and a half hours. She has already beaten our best player and I mean all of them" he said.

"All of them. You do know how many we have don't you" I said amused and he nods.

"Boy I don't know who made her angry but I guess he is already dead. I will never be on her bad side and that's for sure" he said smirking.

"Is there no one who has guts to fight me ha" Red yelled in the ring but no one comes in front? Her voice is somewhat familiar but different.

"You bunch of cowards" with that she left the ring.

"Let's go," I said to Denis.

"ohh hell no. She is angry right now I don't want to get beaten" he said putting his hands in the air.

I stepped out of the club and couldn't see her. Maybe Next time.

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I wake up on the couch which is in my club. I must have fallen asleep when I was here. I looked at my phone and find it's midnight. I opened the lock to see if Kitten has answered. NOPE. nothing. I think I should go home.

As I am driving I see Amber's car parked in front of a club. This is also one of my clubs. What is she doing here in the middle of the night? Well, I know to drink. I entered the club and scanned the area. There she is.

Sitting near the bar. I ordered everyone to get out and in minutes the club is empty, leaving me and Amber alone. I walked to her and sit next to her. There are at least 38 shorts in front of her. How was she able to drink this much.

"Who are you," she said. she is completely drunk, like hella drunk.

"It doesn't matter. What are you doing here at this time? It's midnight." I questioned her

"OH it's midnight" she smiled not a true one it is a sad one "you know what's today," she said and I nodded no.

"It's my birthday and looks at me I am all alone as always but it doesn't matter. It's always like this I have been alone since I was a child" she smiled at me but it's an empty smile. I do not like it, I want to see her smile again.

"You know not long ago I thought that I might not be alone anymore but it seems like I was wrong. They did tell me not to think from here" she pointed to her chest "But from here" she pointed to her head "but I didn't listen and look. I ended up using my heart" She smirked.

"They tell me to think with my head, not the thing in my chest They got there hands on my neck this time" she sang the song 'this feeling'

She keeps talking leaving no space for me to talk

"he was right that I will always be alone, but why do I have to be like this? why do I have to be perfect in everything? why do I have to be alone? why can't just be loved? why can't anyone show that they love me? why can't I have a happy family? why can't I have a mother? Why can't I be happy " she laughed dryly.

"But I know why" she again smiled at me "because of who I am"

I want to hug her tell, tell her that it's okay and that she is not alone but I don't know my body is frozen. Just who are you and what have you been through.

"WHY" she screamed and throws all the glasses in front of her by on hand. She pulled out the money and throws is it and walk outside.

I followed her and tried to hold her hand but slapped it away. She wiggled and then collapse but before she hit the ground I held her in my arms.

OH, kitten just who are you and why are you like this. I want to know will you tell me soon.

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