Love Always Q

The Letter

Malia's POV:

I looked at the text and screamed as excitement ran through me, filling me with energy that I felt as if I hadn’t had in weeks. The second my scream left my lips I regretted it. Quan jumped out of bed and on to the floor in a protective stance in front of me. He quickly scanned the room for danger looking one way and then the other then at me. His eyes had turned the eerie color of blue that I hated but loved. He came to my side.

“What’s wrong?" I mentally cringed to myself.

"Nothing."

"Then why would you scream?" his voice a low growl.

"My cousin is moving down here" his eyes started glowing. It was right then I thought he would end my life. He had been suffering with migraines for months now and I wasn’t thinking about him or his head when the excitement ran through me to my vocal cords.

"You screamed because your cousin is moving down here." he narrowed his eyes at me. Yep, I was definitely going to be found somewhere 6 feet under. Perhaps by my dad. My dad would definitely be able avenge my death. I smiled sweetly at him. Hoping that he would take pity on my previous state. It seemed to be working because his eyes softened after looking down at my smiling lips. I nervously flicked my tongue over them.

"I was excited" I could tell he was getting more upset. He was pissed off. He scowled at her one more time before getting back in the bed and turning over.

Suddenly all the energy and excitement seemed like it drained from my body at once. I started to get dizzy and I realized I hadn't eaten, and I don't remember the last time I did eat. As if for confirmation my stomach growled loud and Quan turned over.

"When's the last time you ate?" I looked down.

"I don't know."

"What do you mean you don't know? Your Pregnant and to make it worse It’s nowhere close to a normal pregnancy. You have a werewolf, vampire, warlock, necromancer baby inside you...." he trailed off while giving me a side eye and then asked, "what are you craving right now?" I shrugged because at this point all I wanted to do was eat, but every time I attempted to, I threw up everything! I had bags under my eyes because I was probably becoming malnourished. He leaned his head to the side and watched me, studying me intently.

"What?" I snapped at him. Getting annoyed by the second.

"Hold on I think I know what to get you. Close your eyes." I eyed him suspiciously and reluctantly closed my eyes.

"Keep them closed but open your mouth I want you to try something." A few moments later a delicious smell danced around me I inhaled deeply.

"That smells so good what is it?"

"Shhh Just open your mouth and tell me how you like it" I did as he told me warm liquid was poured into my throat. It tasted heavenly and I swallowed before I opened my eyes and licked my lips Quan's face was right there as I opened my eyes, he was grinning like a school boy who just played a prank on someone. I frowned as he just stood there just grinning like a Cheshire cat.

"Get out of my face! I snapped." he just stood there. "What?" I yelled getting beyond annoyed.

"How did it taste?" without another word I said

"Like Heaven. What was it?" He smiled again and said

"Here. Drink the rest." He handed me a glass of red liquid that I took and drunk the rest. Then as I licked my lips, I saw his arm. There was a fresh scratch down it that looked to be healing up. I looked up at him. He was still grinning. My stomach started to churn.

"What was that?"

"My blood." He said laughing like it was the best joke in the world. I felt it coming back up and I gagged. He abruptly lowered his self so that we were eye to eye.

"Don't you dare throw it up. If this is what you have to do to keep the baby safe and strong then this is what you have to do. You look better already. Your no longer pale you have that glow back. Do you feel better?" I actually felt a lot better but that was beyond disgusting I just drank someone else’s blood. But I did feel better and he was right if this is what the baby needed then so be it.

"Yes." he started grinning in my face again and that pissed me off without thinking I gave a quick flick of the wrist that sent him flying into the wall. He got up and glared at me and I smirked to myself serves him right for getting humor out this situation.

Quans POV:

I was worried. I felt like my powers were taking control over me. Little things like wanting to take Malia. Technically it would be r**e because she wouldn’t allow me to touch her. Whenever she would reject me, it would hurt my pride and it would make something inside me want to teach her that she couldn't. Like the other day I tried to kiss her, and she forced me against the wall with a flick of a hand. At that moment I wanted to f**k her until she gave into me and promised not to disrespect me in that way ever again. A low growl tore through my lips before I could stop it. She blinked in surprise and her face was one of hurt and confusion. When I saw her face, those thoughts vanished immediately. Later that same day I almost killed a guy for looking at her. Malia literally had to use her powers to restrain me from moving, and keep, my fangs and claws from protruding. I don’t know how she did it. But I Didn’t turn. I remained in complete human form, when I asked her, she said she just thought about restraining me and it worked. If Malia didn’t have powers, there is no doubt in my mind that I would've turned in the middle of the mall. I really don't want to but, I have no other choice but to leave. I am becoming dangerous to both her and our child being exposed. If I ever was the cause of either of them being hurt, I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I feel so animalistic. I'm beginning to act on instinct instead of actually thinking about it. I picked up the phone and dialed the number that has been stuck in my head for the past couple of days. I love Malia with all my heart and I will do everything to keep them safe. Even if it means I have to miss the mouth dropping surprises of her pregnancy to do it. Ivan suggested I go to the monastery with him away from outside distractions, completely distance myself from the world. I need to learn how to control not only myself but my powers as well.

-"Hello?" A male’s voice answered the phone.

-"Hi. This is Quan."

-".." There was movement in the background before there was muttering and voices started to rise. My sensitive hearing came in handy "what do you mean who is Quan he's calling your phone ava. Take it and put it on speaker." I heard a female voice say f**k you before she came on the phone with "Hello"

-"Hi. Is this Avangeline?"

-"Yes. May I ask to whom I’m speaking with?"

-"It's Quan......Malia's fiancé"

-" Oh my god! Hi Quan, it's nice to finally talk to you. Is everything okay? Are Malia and the baby okay?"

-"Yes. Im calling to ask you a favor"

-"Of course, anything."

-"I need to go away for a few weeks and I need to make sure that Malia isn't alone and that she's okay. I know your supposed to be moving down here but I wasn’t sure when... I ummmm I was wondering if" she interrupted me before I could continue.

- "Oh! You want me to keep an eye on her?" she was interrupted by the males voice saying- "you don’t know if that’s what he was about to say just let him finish"

-"Yes, well sort of, I was wondering if you could stay with her just until I get back or vice versa. She's been acting kind of off lately and I wanted to make sure that somebody she trusts is around her, so she doesn’t .... I feel more comfortable leaving her with somebody close to her"

-"Of course! We just got off the phone with our contractor and everything is finished. We weren’t’ planning on moving until next week but I guess I can come down there early and we can spend some girl time together and catch up!" the guys voice was back - "You’re not going anywhere in your state what if somebody tries to attack you and her and there will be nobody there for either of you." Ava -" Shhhhh!!! He probably heard you. Hey Quan, we’ve decided that we both are going to come down."

-"Okay. Thanks, I have to call you back, Im trying to get everything together. I really appreciate this"

-" Alright. Are you leaving tonight?"

-"Yes. I can pay for your flights"

- “No, its okay."

-"Well I’ll talk to you later"

-"Later"

After getting off the phone with Ava, I quickly started to pack while Malia was sleep. I grabbed a pen and some paper and went on the couch and sat down. While I pondered how to say what I wanted to. I’ve never been one of those mushy, lovey dovey guys. So, this was pretty hard for me. I couldn’t just tell her because her hormones were out of whack and she wasn't thinking straight. If I told her she would probably hold me under her spells with her witchy magic. A growl rumbled lowly in my chest. I hated it when she physically controlled me. It made me feel little. I sat at my desk and began composing the letter to her. Making sure to leave out her dads’ name, for she was sure to kill the both of us if she ever found out this was his idea.

My Dearest Malia,

My love, I want to first thank you for coming into my life and completely turning it upside down in the most in the most insane, yet beautiful ways possible. When I met you, I never thought that we would ever be here. You have opened my eyes to so many things and so many ways. For that I will forever be grateful. I know that my son will be safe in your care. For you I will die a thousand deaths and take down even more armies. For so long as my soul roam this earth you shall be forever protected even if you feel like you are not.

Lately my powers have been consumed by emotions and animalistic instinct. When you turn me down for s*x, I have the over powering need to take you so hard, so that you never challenge me in that manner again. I would never be able to live with myself if I ever did anything to hurt you or betray your trust. I need for you to try to understand where I am coming from. I am losing control. My powers are being controlled by my emotions and my emotions alone at this point. We both know how dangerous that can be. Especially with me still not knowing the full extent of my power and capabilities.

Malia, I have to leave. I am so sorry for having to do this through a letter. I promise you my heart is breaking just writing this letter. Please do not cry Malia. I promise I will return to you safely! I need for you to keep going for our son. Please don’t give up on us now. Don’t lose hope. I do not know when I will be able to return. I promise you though, I will not miss our sons’ birth. I promise you I will be there by any means necessary. I couldn’t do this in person because your tears would’ve been my kryptonite. Plus, I knew if I tried you would’ve held me down with your powers. I hope that brought a smile to your face.

I am sorry for everything I will miss out on when it comes to the journey of you carrying our first son. Every kick I miss, every movement, every mood swing, the cravings, the glow. Oh, how I will miss you! Maybe not the mood swings and you flinging me across the room. My queen I can see you smile at that through this moment in time and it warms my heart to no end. I know it will be hard but please my queen, keep going not only for us but for our prince as well. I feel your pain already and it tears me apart. Think of the good moments and we have so many. Do this whenever you feel down, Please beautiful. Avangeline and her husband will be down soon and will be staying with you.

P.S. I have enclosed the amulet in the envelope. Wear it every day for me please. It will glow every time I think of you. I will see you soon Mon Coeur.

Love Always,

Q

To be continued...

This book is dedicated to Mike “YesIndeed” Reed, because it sounded like I didn’t want to put in any hard work LOL. Thank You MF! It was the motivation that I needed.