Trusting
1309 Words
I went downstairs to see my hungover brothers. Nox wasn't really much of a drinker. He just enjoyed the parties, my brothers on the other hand were apparently very wild. They'd always go on about how much fun they had and the crazy s**t they pulled.
Axton wasn't awake yet, but he was always sleeping until noon, he was what we like to call 'Nocternal' or 'Owl' is my favourite. Axel and Alex were passed out on the pool table. Now I see why Nox was able to spend so much time in my room without getting Alex rattled up.
Nox was in the corner playing darts, as soon as he saw me, he made quiet gestures. He knew I wanted to wake my brothers up, but he knew they'd kill me.
"ATTENTION!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. Nox shook his head at me, he was clearly annoyed at me, but I had something important to say.
"What the f**k AJ, what are you doing?" Alex gave me a dirty look, I'll pay for this later, but it'll be worth it, I hope.
"I want to speak to the three of you about something serious and personal." I told them.
"Well, go ahead." Axel looked at me, also giving me a frown.
"Let me wake Axton then and I'll get right on it." As I turn around I see Axton coming down the stairs.
"No need, your screaming did the job." He says holding his head as he stumbles to the sofa.
"Right, I need you all to sit down, and pay attention because this is serious for me!" I told them.
"Get to the point before I lock you in your room." Alex told me smuggly.
"Right, I want to come to the next party, but I am willing to talk terms. I want to show you all that I am mature and a grown up, and I want you all to know that I can be responsible. I feel like sometimes I'm just brushed off to the side and forgotten about. Ever since mum and dad died, I've felt irrelevant and not a proper member of this family. I want that to change, I want you guys to see me, all of you. See who I really am. I don't want to feel unincluded anymore. Do any of your friends even know who I am? Because my friends didn't even realise that you three were my brothers! And even they've been to your parties, in OUR house. It's only Nox that knows me."
Axton stood up and gave me a hug. "I'm sorry you have felt this way for all these years, sis. "
"Yeah, me too." Axel gave me a cute smile.
"I'm sorry AJ, I just don't think you're ready, and as for feeling like you're not included or a part of this family, that's ridiculous." Alex looked at me and said, not really understanding my point.
"Alex, It's how I feel. It's how you specifically have made me feel. This is my house too, yet, you don't let me come to parties and you don't let me have friends over and you hardly let me go out and have a social life and YOU are the only person that has an issue with all of these things. You act like you're ashamed of me, I'm supposed to just be banished to my room so people don't even know of me." I looked at him pleadingly.
"Alex, she's right. She can't continue to live like this, it isn't right and it isn't fair. She's our little sister yes, but she's not little anymore. Let her go, man, let her grow up." Axel told him.
"I'll earn it, I'll show you I am ready to be trusted to be safe when I leave the house, to be trusted at the parties, to be trusted at everything, I won't embarrass you."
"AJ, I'm not embarrassed or ashamed of you, things go on at these parties and I'm just not confident you can handle it like the rest of us. You're not one of us, you can't understand." He tried to explain, but his explanation was s**t and I was getting angry.
"Do you mean because I'm not a boy?" I looked at him furiously, feeling the rage burning inside of me.
"No, I didn't mean like that. It doesn't matter." he said in a slight huff.
"Listen, please just talk and think it over, I'll give you time. If you say no you say no, but all I ask is that you at least think on it for a day or two. Just think about it. Like I said, I'll prove myself. Just give me a task, or something." I turned around and headed for my room, I was so frustrated I wanted to cry, not because I was sad, just because I... Well, I don't really know why.
I waited in my room for maybe half an hour before I heard a knock on the door. I eagerly rushed to the door, only to find Nox.
"Can I come in?" He asked me politely. I opened the door wide so he could come in.
"I thought that was very mature. Not what I expected at all. He sounded proud downstairs." Nox made conversation.
"Who sounded proud? Alex? Nooo." I asked in disbelief.
"Honestly AJ, it did sound like he was coming round to it. You weren't childish, although I sensed you held yourself back."
"You sensed correctly, I'm trying, okay? I heard you loud and clear, and I'm willing to work on my flaws."
All of a sudden, Nox crashed into my body, smacking his lips into mine unexpectedly, I was taken aback.
"You don't have any flaws." He parted the kiss for a second while he spoke and continued kissing me. My body felt limp and I wanted to collapse at his kiss, but I didn't. I kissed him back trying to keep up with him.
I broke the kiss, shocked. I don't know why he keeps doing this. Why did he keep sneaking into my room to kiss me, or to tell me things.
"Nox, you can't keep doing this, sneaking to my room and kissing me, talking to me. Alex will kill you, and I don't want to sneak around my brothers. If you want me to be your girlfriend ask, but I'm not okay with this." I told him, regrettably. I did enjoy the thrill of him just appearing, but it had began to get weird.
Nox didn't say a word and just left, just walked out. I collapsed on my bed, praying that I hadn't upset him.
"AJ!!"
"AJ!!"
I heard my brothers shout from downstairs. I left my room and walked downstairs.
"What's wrong?" I asked them, worriedly.
"So, Alex thought it would be a good idea if we sent Nox upstairs to try and test you and well, we are satisfied that you're ready to come to parties." Axton said. I was fuming, and excited, but I hid it by being angry.
"Oh, I'm so relieved." I say, taking a deep breath.
"Awh, thank you guys." I walk around my brothers individually hugging them.
"I need to do a few things, but I'll be down for tea, thank you guys so much." I gave them a happy smile before I turned to go upstairs, giving Nox the most disgusted look I'd ever given.
I felt slightly betrayed, was this all just a ploy? Had Alex sent Nox to pretend he liked me? Why wouldn't he tell me it was a test if he liked me? I wanted answers, but I was too angry to speak to him now, I needed time to cool off and be calm and smart about it.
No time for raging now.
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