Is Love A Mistake ?

Chapter 1

Dillys’ POV

I walk down the bustling road of NewYork surrounding by the cacophony of car horns , people going about their daily routine, each lost in their own world without giving the world a second glare .

I had my headphones on enjoying the reality of life in music. A gruff voice cut through my melody “ hey young lady! You gotta watch it when crossing the road next time.

A sigh of relief left my mouth the moment l entered Walmart. I hated to be in the world, it reminds of my past which l hate so much . l wish l could forget about my past. It keeps haunting me.

I walked through the sliding glass of Walmart, l felt a sense of relief washed over me. The store was quite and only a handful of people were there.

It’s spring and schools will be re opening soon. It’s my first year in college and l kinda feel nervous. This the moment l need mama by my side but she’s nowhere to be found.

I spent less than an hour in Walmart. “OMG! I’m so sorry.” I accidentally bumped unto someone. “ Sorry for yourself !” I froze the moment l head the voice , why does this voice sounds familiar?

My heart began to pound faster, andrenaline began to rush through my body. Everything around me seems to be in a daze. He lifted my chin up to meet his gaze. That piercing green brought shivers down my spine.

“ Xi-ang Sh-u” I called out his name to be sure if l wasn’t daydreaming.

“Scared huh ?” A smirk appeared on his face when he saw that look on my face.

I pushed him and run out of the shop. I run as far as my legs could take me. Tears of pains, bitterness, anger betrayal kept flowing through my eyes like running water.

I could not stop running because l was scared. The fearful nightmare which l feared has come to reality. “ Oh God ! what should l do ?”. At this moment it was if all the burdens of the world has been placed on my shoulders.

I locked the door the moment l got in. I live in a small cottage with a leaking a roof. Life has not easy to me as a teenager striving to live on their own.

Life has stolen my teenage life from me. I don’t even get the opportunity to enjoy the beautiful memories of teenage.

“All this is my fault. I hate myself for becoming who l am today.” It’s been a while since l went down on my knees to God . I list my faith few years ago.

Have you ever being in a situation where it feels you like you are alone and there is no one to lean on and no sign of God.

“ Dillys you have to bring yourself together, you know that the battle is not over” l pulled my broken pieces together.

“Bang! Bang! “ my body stiffened and beads of sweat started to form on my forehead. I wasn’t expecting any visitor because l don’t have any friends.

I slightly opened the curtains and l found out it was the delivery guy. A sigh of relief washed over me. I opened the door to take my order .

“ Who still lives in a cottage in this 21st century ?” He said with disgust in his voice.

“ Your parents must be really broke huh?”

I would have punched that s**t out his face but l realize that this is not the time for this . I keep telling myself “ Dillys, keep it cool.

I quickly took the pizza and threw the money on his face. I have got a lot on my plate that is why l let it slide away.

My whole body stopped functioning the moment l opened the pizza. My eyes was filled with horror . I took out the note and read.

“ You can run but can’t hide “

I began to shake all of a sudden. My hands began to tremble with a cold shivers running down my spine.

“ It’s impossible he doesn’t have to find me. Noooo! What should l do ? Oh My God! “

I couldn’t understand what is going on. I needed time to process what is happening.

“My education, my career, my future. No way ! I must fight for myself, l can do this.”

“Dillys you can do this . You have done it before and you can do it again.” I kept ringing these words in my heart to comfort myself.

“ At this moment if you do not come through for me God, l will be finished! I am finished! Oh !” I lay on the floor with tears gushing out from my eyes.

“ What did l do to deserve all this ? What is my mistake? Is it because l’m a black? did l make a mistake for coming into this world? It was not my fault. If time could have gone back l would have begged my parents not to bring me into this world.”

“ funny, right ?” I let out a small laugh. Mama’s smile kept appearing in my head. I have missed her so much . I don’t even if she is at rest or not. The thought of Mama brought another tears to my eyes.

“People may face upside down in lives but that does not mean that it’s over. Strive hard and achieve your dreams and remember this : even the call the plate in which they eat inside dirty .

That’s how humans are . I may not be with you always but remember that wherever you go the love mama have for you is bigger than anything in this world. Don’t forget who you are, what you are made up for and where you came from.”