Those hadn’t been love affairs, it occurred to him, not the way his relationship with Rush was a love affair.
The thing was, how did Rush see it? In spite of his enthusiasm for whatever Tad wanted to try with him, he always seemed to hold a bit of himself back, as if anticipating the day when it was over.
Okay, it was nine months since he’d discovered Rush in the kitchen with a spoon and a bottle of Pepto Bismol, and yeah, maybe it was a smart thing, both of them accepting that at their age they weren’t ready to settle down, that eventually they’d go their separate ways, just as he and Andy and all his guys and gals had done, but it didn’t feel smart to Tad. It felt more like a self-fulfilling prophecy, and he didn’t like it one single bit.
In fact, he hated it.
And what was up with Ru
