Me and My Alpha Mate

What Made Me Who I Am

While the boys and I were up at the tops I really couldn't be f****d going back to face my mother at the moment i'm still quite mad actually f**k that i'm really pissed off nothing can justify what she did nothing at all she lied to me to us her family and she knows better to come and look for me.

People have only seen me angry and have seen half of what i can do if someone crosses me , they seen what happen to Dean they saw what happen to Jackson but they saw how broken i was when i lost Krystal_Regin but i never showed my emotions when Maia died because i had to be strong for my brother, my family and my pack but they haven't seen the monster i can really turn into when i'm pushed to my limits and now that i can't handle my shifts it'll be easy to go off the rails and It's like i turn into someone beyond who i am it all begun after when my nana died that was also a year after my daughter i went into a rage of killing rouges that was my game, if there was any sightings of rouges i was the first one to the front line to fight, I was there for one thing and one thing only and that was to kill.

I became really ruthless my nana was the last straw just like my training my focus was driven by rage and driven to kill whoever or whatever stood in my way ,when my dad came back with Rico he trained me some more after a while i also became a highly skilled assassin just like them but i didn't travel like they did i went to near packs but that was it when they had a problem that's one of the reasons i didn't want this f*****g title but i've grown to love it and it's mine forever i've found something i'm good at apart from my ruthless monstrous temper.

When i was 2 years old i shifted the same as all of my brothers and soon that'll be Abel my nana used to call us the special ones but when it came to me i was her girl, after my daughter's death she was the one to pull me out of my darkest days where i wouldn't eat, I'll scream while i try to sleep i had my brothers in my room and they would have to force feed me, i spend endless hours in the shower or at Krystal's grave most of my days wishing that i could switch places with my child no matter how hard it is you can never seem to move on no matter how strong you are there's are always guilt and pain.

When nana died i wasn't around i was on a mission with my three brothers Trae, Lucas and Remus the others were busy and plus we got paid for what we did.

Flashback

I was in the middle of killing the last rouge, when suddenly i feel a tug within my heart the next thing i know my phone is ringing and I have missed 10 phone calls, 3 from Reginald, 1 from Emmett the rest from my dad and father telling me to ring them urgently.

After listening to the messages i clearly knew something was wrong , so i dialed my father's number.

" Hey!! Dad what's up" i say to him when he answers

"Where the hell have you been Amelia" he starts yelling at me

"Calm your farm old man before you give yourself a heart attack"

"Don't get smart Amelia you need to come home NOW" he commanded me

He never done that to me so now i knew this wasn't no joke.

" What happened"?! i asked him

"It's your nan, you and your brothers need to come home and come NOW" He growls this time that made me flinch.

"Just tell me already dad" praying that he would

"ahhh fine he sighs, Your nana has passed away baby girl i'm so sorry"He says between sobs

my heart stopped beating for i don't know how long but before i knew it i was back in the truck, I look towards my brothers they are completely shocked and aware of what dad has just said due to werewolf hearing sometimes an awesome thing sometimes the biggest f**k up ever. We were two hours west from the kingdom, I decided that i'll drive back home as we reach the door everyone is in utter shock my grandpa Jona is broken he just lost his wife his life and his mate I grabbed a hold of him and sobbed into his chest as he rubbed my back.

"I'm sorry grandpa i wasn't here" I sobbed more into him

" It's ok my darling, it was here time" He says nuzzle his face into my neck as he held me

" Go and see her Amelia" while he pulls me away.

As i appeared at the room door that laid my nan lifeless body my brothers came up and pulled me into them saying nothing but sweet loving words pack members bowing their heads in respect.

As i turn i see my auntie Cath

" Hey Baby girl, there is gonna be a time where bad things is near, there will be things that you and your brothers won't be able to understand such as sudden changes when there is no where for you to turn come to me your nana wanted me to show and teach you and the boys something that she should've years ago but you all aren't ready yet but you all will be powerful your aura already screams it. Remember what i said Amelia when your ready" as she says

She turns on her heels not bothering to hear what i had to say and that was the last time i seen my auntie.

i clear my head and walk in where my nan is and lay there with her breathing in her beautiful scent with sadness she hated me being sad so i would try and cheer myself up later that day i didn't leave her side i fell asleep next to her until i felt Regin pull me closer to him, as he puts me down i showered got dressed nan favorite color was red and black like me so of course my outfit was those colors after nan casket was lowered that's when things started to change.

Flash back end

Shaking my head i turned around to see Jackson and the boys turn to head back home, We have been up here for 5 hours just talking things thorough in my case just thinking my heart feels like it's been ripped out of my chest and stomped on a million times, I'm fuming i could tear and kill anyone at this point. I still sit at the edge of the cliff with my head set on my paws thinking about what the f**k just happen, why would she do something like this lies after lies, When they sensed that i wasn't lending them back they stopped. Every now and then i become stuck in my wolf form and i give way to Artemis to take control but this time i know i can't, as i stand Jackson comes up and nuzzles me I've notice that my fur on one side is turning silvery white and my fur on the other is still midnight black Pitch black like all Alpha's are.

as i recall the last words that my auntie spoke to me ringing in my ears i know Exactly where i need to go for answers my brothers and I do.