I had a seat in the office. Carolyn was finishing up her session with Cal, then I would be called in. I had spoken to her twice already. Once to do a basic get to know you. Then a real session. My leg bounced from the nervous energy I was exuding. I wanted nothing more than to make this work. I was grateful that Cal, while she would be in her rights to, didnt remind me at every turn of how I messed up. She had stated it and then left it at that, though I could sometimes see in her face or eyes that she held deep-rooted fears. I knew she had her own demons to work through, so I never pushed to find out what they were. I figured when she was ready, she would tell me. For now, I would be as supportive as possible. Her requests were not unreasonable. Therapy and for me to let go of my obsessio
