Cry of a broken soul

Chapter 2

I wiped my damped lips beginning to feel nauseous as this has been the third time today I vomited. I flushed down the tissue as I went to my room to lay down as I continued to write on a new story I have been working on.

"Chloe, Chloe come downstairs your uncle is here," my mom called downstairs as I managed to get out of bed.

I struggled to walk down the stairs as I forced a smile once I met eyes with my uncle and his family.

"Chloe, you are now a big girl what's next marriage," my uncle said as my dad let out a sarcastic laugh making everyone laugh.

"How old are you now my dear," my uncle asked as I managed to answer him hoping no one is cautious of my behavior.

"Seventeen sir," I answered subconsciously as I avoided to stay nauseous.

"Wow seventeen, you really are big, hope you haven't loose your virginity you know most girls tend to loose theirs when they turn sixteen," my uncle's wife said out of the blue as my dad let out a laugh.

"I know my daughter Helen, she can't do such thing, she barely leave the house except when she's going to school, going on an errand or going to work, she is always occupied," my dad said catching me off guard making me feel a slight guilt inside.

"Yeah I know I trust her, Chloe's a good girl," my aunt said as she took a sip from her glass of orange juice.

"Chloe, what's wrong you are acting ........... different," my mom said as she was the only one who kept watching my body movement.

"N-nothing mom, I'm j-just tired that's all," I managed to say as I pretend to stretch my arms as a sign of tiredness. Truth be told, I was really tired.

"Why don't you let her go back to her room Kristine, she must have had a long day yesterday or maybe she's in her time if the month," my uncle said to my mom making her let out an eye roll.

"As if she's the only one who use to menstruate, I also menstruate but I don't get this tired, so as Helen, I don't see any point of her going to her room," my mom said as she begins to eye me suspiciously.

"Speak for yourself Kristine, I usually have to take pills so I won't die during my time of the month," Helen said indirectly taking my side. This feels weird, so weird that they had to bring this topic, mostly infront of my dad, I usually feel very uncomfortable when stuffs like this is said about me infront of my dad, it just feels weird.

"Maybe she's tired dear, she must have had a long day, you may go to your room," my dad supported as I stood up to leave, bowing before I left. How disappointed my dad will feel if he ever founds out that I lied to him about keeping my virginity, but who's going to tell him, probably not me, not in a million years, I thought as I rushed to the restroom to go throw up again leaving them with a hint of confusion but more of suspicion for my mom.

"Don't cut yourself dear", my mom said as she put the diced onion into the frying pan. I began to feel nauseous again as I rushed to the sink to throw up, as my mom kept having conclusions on her suspicion inside her head.

"That's it, we are going to the hospital," my mom said as she turned off the gas cooker as she dried her hands ready to go up to collect her car keys.

"Mom, mom nothing is wrong with me, I am fi-"

"You better keep those mouth shut young lady," you better hope it's not what I am thinking or you will be in big trouble.

"Mom listen I'm o-"

"DON'T PISS ME OFF, we are going to see the doctor and that's finally," my mom said as she rushed to her room to get her car keys. Oh Lord please let it not be what I'm thinking.

"A pregnancy test is what you want right," the doctor said as he hands my mom a test strip making me slightly quiver in fear.

"Second floor to your right, there's a restroom there," the doctor said as he kept in going through files that were stacked on his desk.

"You heard him, take this and hurry up I don't have time to waste," my mom said handing me the test strip as I timidly made my way to the door.

I stared in horror as two coloured lines were visibly shown on the test strip.

"No no no this can't be possible, we used protection and all, impossible, how could this be," I said as tears streamed down my face.

How I'm I going to start, I'm not ready for this, I'm not ready to be a mother. That night was a mistake, a very big mistake that I'm about to regret, I thought to myself as I brought out a test strip that I brought with me incase this ever happens.

I pry my head from the door as I kept looking for a little girl that will pee on the strip stick. I couldn't risk it, I couldn't risk being the laughing stock in both my school and my neighborhood, how disappointed my dad will feel if he ever finds out about this.

Finally upon taking notice of a little girl, a sign of relief painted my face as I whispered for the girl to hear ushering her to come closer.

Big aunty is in trouble and you are the only one that can help her.

I'm the only one, the little girl asked innocently making me feel a little guilty for using her as bait but the urge to get out of this mess had a higher proximity.

"Yes and all you have to do is to pee on this colourful stick right here", I said as I brought the girl inside the restroom, closing the door behind me.

"Okay I will do it," the little girl said she pulled down her shorts ready to pee on the strip test as I smiled in relief. My smile grew even louder as only one visible colour could be shown on the stick.

"Thank you," I said as I took the girl outside as I shut the door behind me, I couldn't help it, I was desperate. I broke the other test strip as I hid it behind the toilet in one of the cubicles.

"What took you so," my mom said as she dragged the test strip from my hands.

"Sorry I kind of ....... lost my way," I said as I thought of what to say.

"Give it to me," the doctor said as he ushered my mom to hand over the test strip as she immediately obliged.

"Congratulations Chloe Smith, you are ........ not pregnant," the doctor said making my mom let out a sigh of relief I never knew she was holding.

"You better thank your stars Chloe, I would have sent you packing," my mom said as she looked at me in a threatening way.

"I told you I wasn't, trying believing me for once," I said as I indirectly scolded my mom.

"Don't you dare sass my, I will be in the car, thank you doctor," my mom said as she stood up to leave.

"Umm so about that test, it was kind of maybe f-"

"Fake," the doctor said catching me off guard as he completed my sentence

"How did you-"

"We have had several case like this," the doctor said again cutting me off from my sentence

"I would love to apply for an IAB," I said straightforwardly

"How old are you," the doctor asked in the same tone as mine

"Seventeen," I answered as I bite the wall of my inside cheeks trying to calm down my anxiety.

"You seem too young for an abortion, people your age doesn't have an upper hand in this," the doctor said as I scrunched my face in confusion.

"What do you mean," I asked as confusion laced my voice.

"What I'm saying is that ......... it's a fifty fifty chance you get to survive this abortion," the doctor said as my heart sank.

"I want to do this, do you think I can bear that shame of being called the girl that couldn't keep her legs closed, how do you think my parents would react, how do you think my dad would react, I'm my parents only child, how do you think they would react if their only child got pregnant at the age of seventeen. Please sir, just do this for me, I beg of you, I can't risk the chance to suffer that emotional, physical and financial trauma early parent are being thrown at at a very young age so I beg of you ........ please, help me," I said as I threw away my pride as tears streamed down my face.

"It's not that I don't want to help you, it's just the fact of you loosing your life, like I said before, it's a fifty fifty chance you would survive this," the doctor said as I lost all hopes, how could he say this, there are many girls my age that have had IAB before and they have survived it, why is it going to be different for me.

"Look the only way I can help is, I would advice you to discuss this with the guy that got you pregnant, ask him if his willing to keep the child of which I doubt he will," the doctor said as I stared at him with a little hint of anger.

"How are you sure about that," I asked

"Like I said before, we have had lots of cases like this," the doctor said as he rested his back on his swivel chair making me scoff in annoyance.

"Good day," I said as I stormed out of his office, how could he say that about Cole, he doesn't know him, but he is right, I really need to discuss this with Cole, I thought to myself as I hasten up my speed due to the honking of my mom's car.

"What is it," Aiden said as I didn't take notice that he was watching me from afar catching me off guard.

"What do you mean," I said as I gained my composure.

"Something's bothering you, what is it," he said as he folded his arms waiting for an explanation

"It's nothing okay, I just had a long day that's all," I said silently praying that he will drop this topic.

"Chloe," Aiden said giving that look, the look that always meant that I'm hiding something.

"You're my best friend and I know when you are lying, what's wrong," he said as kept persuading me to tell him what happened.

"I'm pregnant," I said as I struggled to hide my tears

"Oh," Aiden said as those words hit him hard, how could it be, he thought out loudly before his face scrunch up in pure distaste and scowl, how scary he was at that moment but I can't blame him, I would have done the same thing

"What the f**k did he do to yo-"

"Would you quiet down a little, literally everyone can hear you!," I whispered yell at his sudden outburst.

"How did this happen, what happened to no s*x before marriage, have you tried taking IAB," Aiden bombarded me with questions leaving me with little to know time to answer.

"Even I don't know, all I could remember was taking some alcohol then that's all," I said as I try remember all that happened that night with little details coming into blur. That's what I thought till I remembered smoking some pipe that Cole handed me, making shake my head in agony as I regretted ever following Cole that day

"That douche bag actually had the balls to drug you," Aiden said as rage laced his voice

"He did but it was at my own will, I was drunk and I f****d up, I f****d up real bad !," I said as I let those tears fall making him hug me in a comforting manner.

"The doctor said that it's a fifty fifty chance that I could survive the IAB, I don't want to be a mother now, I'm not ready for this!!," I shouted but loud enough for him to hear making him shocked by my sudden outburst.

"You have to discuss this with that moron, it's not something you can decide on your own, you gotta let him know besides, he's the father of the child," Aiden said with pure disgust.

"You are right I should probably let him know," I said as I planned on what to tell Cole once we meet.

"Hey love," Cole said as he backed hug me before placing a kiss on my neck before gradually going down to my chest, I would have given in to him if not that I already had something going on in my life.

"Cole, Cole please stop this," I said as I resist the urge to kiss him.

"What is it, I'm I not being romantic enough for you," he said as he moved further as he slammed his lips on my neck again making me jolt backwards as I was not willing to let time repeat itself, can't afford to make more mistakes.

"I'm pregnant," I said catching him off guard as I hold my breath anxiously waiting for him to respond as I saw him let out a laugh.

"You are kidding right," he said hoping he could find any trace of humor on my face but my face was plain as a white sheet.

"Then why are you telling me this, why don't you go ask all the guys you slept with because we used protection," Cole said as he rested his arm on the rail of the park that we usually meet when we have something important to say as he stared at the beautiful view of the lake before him.

"What are you saying Cole, you are the only guy I have slept with," I said with slight hurt being visible in my voice.

"No I'm not, now listen you can't just go sleep with some other guy and come meet me to take responsibility for another guy's actions so it's either you go for an IAB or you train that thing yourself," Cole said as he pointed to my tommy before walking out on me.

"Cole no no you can't do this to me, please no I beg of you, the doctor said it's a fifty fifty chance I might get to survive if I did an abortion," I said throwing away my pride as I knelt down before him.

"So, how's that my business, you know what, it's over !, don't ever come near me, don't even bother calling me and next time I see you cross path with me again, I swear I won't be funny," Cole said as he pushed passed me and walked away making me fall out of the sudden pressure.

"Cole please come back, Cole please don't do this to me I beg of you," I cried as the rain cried with me, the doctor was right , he will never take responsibility for his action