Chapter 1
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Rudra, her husband left the room and don't know where he goes!
If it's any other normal day, she would have call their driver or to his office to know his whereabouts.
But now, she don't care. In fact, from now on she will not care anymore.
She couldn't stand up from the floor because finally she lost her energy to fight for the relationship, for the marriage, specially for the person she always cared about.
She always thought this man, her husband Rudra only belongs to her. No matter how rudely he speaks to her, or to their daughter, she thought he at least care about them.
But today, he broke her all hope, all dream.
She saw the man walking out of the room like always. She always thought what she should do to bring a smile to her husband's face, what she should do so that he can say "well done, I am proud of you".
She always make sure that he always gets his black coffee , he can't function without homemade food, food that made by her, so she always make sure that he had his breakfast, his lunch and his dinner.
She knew how big businessman he is! So, she never did anything so that he feels ashamed because of her and for that she never accompanied him in any business party. Though she heard about him getting involved with other female business associates, but she knew no matter how much he despise her, he will never cheat on her. He may hate her like her dad did, but at least he didn't hit her, punish her for the thing she never did.
She was so engrossed with her thoughts that she forgot about her pregnancy, that she was hungry. She didn't want to have food but she knew she has to.
So with all her leftover energy she stood up and walked into the bathroom. She turned on the knob and hot shower hit her that made her wince. She sat on the floor and put her knees to her chest. She always does this whenever she feels tired, devastated, hurt by the words her husband threw at her. She always thought why he never sees her Pain, her love, her efforts?
Why he never asked her "how was your day?" why he never smiled at her like the way she do? why he never take her to date, why he never takes her to his chest and say some sweet words to her!
Why he never be her side whenever she feels pain, or she cries? But how will he? After all of these makes him frustrated, for him I am not his standard. Whatever I do, nothing made him satisfied.
She was lost in her thoughts suddenly a knock wake her up from her misery
"Mommy, kya Kar rahi ho? kholona, mujhe akele mein dar Lagta Hain" she heard her daughter's shaky voice. She forgot that only her and her daughter ruhani was there at home. So she hurriedly wipe her body with a towel and open the door.
She saw her daughter's teary face that made her pick her up "awww Mera baccha, dar laga aapko? Mera Shona, meri princess, mommy will soothe your pain" she kissed her head and her daughter put her face into the crook of her mother's neck.
She took her 5 years old daughter to bathroom and washed her face. When she was done she put her on the bed "mommy maat jao" " baccha main cream lane ja rahi hoo, aap Yaha bethiye"
She was about to take the moisturizer then her eyes fell on the picture. Her wedding picture.
Yes, only her, because he never considered this marriage.
She looked at the picture and realized her husband always looked handsome, specially his dimple. She still remembered when she saw him, he was the most handsome man she ever saw, she fell in love with him at the first sight.
She was shocked when his family came to her home for their marriage, after all he was an eligible businessman, Rudra Singhania, only heir of Singhania group of industries.
She never thought person like him will ever agree to marry her, even her parents were shocked.
When she talked to him personally, she realized he was not interested to know her personally at all. She was hurt when he was constantly watching his watch. Whenever she asked him any question, he just replied it in one or two words.
She knew he didn't want this marriage, and she wanted a partner who will love her and respect her, mostly he will treat her as person not as a weak gender.
So when she shared this with her mom that she didn't want to marry him, and the next thing her mom Priya slapped the hell out of her. She still remembered the scar stayed for a week on her left cheek. She still remember her words
Kya Kaha? aaj Jo bol diya, so bol diya, agli baar agar Maine tumhare mu SE aisi baate suni, toh main Apne hatho se tumhari gala daba dungi.
Agar tumhare dad ko pata Chala toh wo tumhare Saath Saath mujhe bhi maar dalenge, waise bhi, jabse mere Zindagi mein tum ayi ho, tabse leke aaj taak musibat hi musibaat layi ho. Thank God that your dad didn't bring any mistress.
Humari society mein middle class housewife ki koi value Nahi Hoti. No matter how much effort you give, you always have to make sure your in laws are happy with you.
Tumhe pata Hain, kitni mushkil se Maine apni Jaga banayi thi is ghaar mein, paar tumhari ane ke baad Saab khatam ho Gaya. Mere pati mujhe door ho Gaye, Gharwale mujhse puchne lage beta kaab dogi.
Kitne mannate Karne me baad mujhe beta milahe aur taab Jake mujhe Mera samman, mera pati, meri Jaga in this house got strong.
Aur kya Kaha Tumne? tum ye Shaadi Nahi Karna chahti! tum hote kaun ho is Shaadi ko mana Karne ke liye, ho kaun tum? kya aukad Hain tumhari?
She took me by my arms and made me look at the mirror. "Look at you, Kabhi aine mein apni shakal dekhi Hain? we were shocked ke itna accha ladke, itni acchi khandan ne rishta leke Aye hain! Apne aap ko Dekho, na Hain kapre pehenne Ka dhang, Moti, sawla rang. Haar angle se tum kisiki bhi layak Nahi ho.
Dusri taraf Rudra ko Dekho. Lagta Hain Kisi movie Ka hero, kitne mehnge kapre, kitni Bari gari, Kitna Sara paisa Hain un logo ke paas.Aur hamare paas kya Hain? Shukar manao ke Uske jaisa ladka tumhe Pasand Kiya warna tumhe koi murke bhi na dekhe, aur ye tumhe bhi pata Hain."
"Paar ma (sob) he (hiccup) he don't want to marry me, please ma " she hold my cheek with full force that hurt me so much "mujhe Kuch Nahi pata, ye Shaadi hogi chahe Jo kuch ho. Agar Woh raaji Nahi hote toh unke paas itna faltu time Nahi Hain ke Woh tum par kharch kare.
ye Shaadi hoke rahegi, chahe Jo kuch ho Jaye. Aur tum ye nibhaoge bhi, kyuki agar usne ye rishta Tora, ya phir tumhe Ghar se nikala toh murke bhi is Ghar ke taraf maat dekhne warna tume bhi pata Hain tumhare Saath kya Hoga, ayi BAAT samajh mein?"
From since then she tried her best to do whatever that makes her husband happy, but no matter what she do, even if she die for him he will never understand, or try to understand her feelings because for him she is a burden that his grandfather made him accept.
It was his grandfather's wish. He threat him to snatch away all his business if he don't marry me.
When he was alive he makes sure that no one mistreat me in his presence, but he didn't know what they did with me in his absence.
I was forced on my husband and that's why he loathed me. I even changed myself for him, my dress, my behavior and what not! I even lost weight for him so that he don’t feel ashamed of me.
When I gave birth to my daughter I was so happy but except me, no one was happy.
Meri ma ki bass Chale toh wo mujhe wahi pe hi maar de.
From that day I was dead for them, even I didn't try to have any connection with them. My husband was my only hope.
Mujhe laga ke ek na ekdin wo mujhe aur meri beti ko apnayenge.
Paar aj Jo hua, iske baad mujhe yakin ho gaya ke Kuch Nahi ho saakta. Iss duniya main aur meri beti hi Hain ek Dusre ke liye, aur koyi Nahi.
She knew one thing, that there is no hope left. Whatever happened with her and with her Ruhani, this will not happen with her next born.
She will not breathe in this toxic family.
It's time for new beginning, for good. Though that man walk out of this room but now she will walk of this toxic relationship, this house, specially from his life.
She took the photo and threw that in the dustbin. She took her clothes which she got as a gift from her grandfather in law and from her nanny.
She took some money that she got when she participated in a college competition.
She knew it was not a lot of money but it was her, her hard work. She put all her and ruhani's clothes, and some necessary things in a bag.
She turned back and saw her baby is sleeping peacefully. She shook her lightly which made her wake up " hey princess,mommy ke Saath ghumne jaogi? sirf ap aur mommy" "Kaha mommy?" "bohat door beta, jaha ap aur mommy Khushi Khushi rahenge, aap, mommy aur baby" "yaaaaa, hum ghumne jayenge, yaaaaaaaa."
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