Rory doesn't want to sleep with us this night and I am still confused why. He just told me that he wanted to sleep with mum because they're going to call and talk to my sisters. Seriously, me and Rory can do it in our room, too.
But I told mum that when Rory is asleep, just call me and I'll carry him back to our room.
I don't want to sleep alone with Lucas.
I am sitting now on the floor in the movie room with canned beers next to me. I turn on the television and played some movie. I guess I need some beer to get me to sleep quicker so that I won't think of things especially Lucas.
I am mad at myself because even though I am mad at Lucas, I still have other feelings for him. I am afraid to acknowledge it to myself. I want to tell Rory everything. But I don't know how. I want to tell him
