Never an Ever After

Bad Man

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WITHOUT YOU-AJ RAFAEL

CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN

RONAN

Fortunately, I went to Ellora right away when Angus told me where she was, I want to make sure she doesn't meet James tonight.

I watch her while dancing inside the ballet studio, Mom has this secluded ballet studio here in the downtown part of Pennsylvania. Even though it was secluded, I could still see them inside the studio because of their floor to ceiling wall.

In here, I am free to watch her loose herself in her dance. I don’t need to hear the music she’s dancing to, just by watching her dance softly, and full of emotions is fine by me. Ever since Mom, took her as a scholar here in her ballet class, I grabbed the chance to watch her because I can no longer see her dancing in their house because her Dad forbade her. How selfish of him, to ask his only child to stop something that makes her happy? Every week, once or twice she's here in downtown to dance and practice. I also knew that she planned to leave here in Pennsylvania for New York, so I adapted all the plans to New York. Off course, I won’t let her disappear from my sight, I can’t afford that to happen.

But while I was watching her, when Mom left, she danced something new. And it's so f*****g perfect to her. For All the time I watched her, this is just the first time I saw her dance this piece. Even Mom didn't know about she can dance like this. I couldn’t even hear the music, she was dancing to but the way her expression and her movements collided, I felt darkened. The song and the piece itself are dark and vile. What is this? I am, once again mesmerized by Ellora Vivieka Sulivan for the millionth time of her existence.

Once she’s done, she’s exhausted but I see the way she smiled proudly on herself in the mirror. She locked the studio. And for the minutes passed that I’ve been waiting for her to come out inside the parking lot, she didn’t. seconds turns to minutes, that is when I decide to checked on her. And once again, fate has been good to me. because there she was with a filthy man groping her as a f*****g knife is on her f*****g neck. I had no other thought, I stride faster to the man who undertook the life of my loved one. In just one swoop, I beat him up mercisely. He could no longer stand and speak when I stabbed him. I don’t care if I killed him, it wasn’t my first kill. I have done this so many times before. And I wouldn’t hesitate to kill the person who took advantage of Ellora.

Once I’m done, I saw her looking at me like I am a monster under her bed, maybe I am.

She’s sacred. She’s scared for her life and to me.

But I wouldn’t do this to her, I wanted to say that the moment I saw her eyes find mine. The way her eyes shines in tears, he lips trembled and her body shakes.

She feared me. She was even more afraid of me than the person who almost tried to take her life. She looks at me like I am the f*****g monster right now, but I don’t care. It was better that she knew in advance what I could do for her. What I would do just for her.

But as she calmed down and hold my hands, it was worth it. The moment her soft tender hands held my calloused and hard hands. Just by her hand holding mine sends me in so much thoughts, so much I wanted to do with that hand. The thought of her pure and clean hands holding my bloodied hands says it all.

She was still sacred of me, even though she went home and she even said if she didn't know if she would be grateful that I saved her life at the expense of the life of a man who is useless in this world. That man's life is nothing in the life that Ellora has, because she is my f*****g whole world, my life, the air I breath. So, I won’t regret to kill again and again just for her.

It's so funny to think that it's easy for her that I'm the painted monster in her mind. But all human beings in this world she will have a hard time to search some goodness. But not me, she hasn't seen some goodness in me since what happened that night. It is very easy for her to look at me as someone who is wicked and vile. Maybe because she knows me well enough to see who I really am. Because I'm not going to clean myself up. I am no good. Never in lifetime that I will be good. I am always and forever a f*****g bad man.

I immediately watched her in her window as she removed all her clothing from earlier. I mean naked in all her glory. Some bloods are on her skin and it's so good on her. Red is perfect on her pale white skin. Her handful perky t**s is bouncing every time she moves. I pressed my hard on, it is painful watching her, this woman is going to be the death of me. She didn't clean her body anymore, maybe she's too tired and exhausted. She didn't even think to get dressed, she lay down on her bed and that's when I see her shoulder shaking. She's f*****g crying. She's scared and guilty for what happened.

I waited and waited until I am sure she’s already asleep.

I went down and climbed slowly to her window, I have been doing this for a long time. I just watched her sleep and listened to her every breath.

I get her phone on the top of her dresser, and when I already found what I am looking for, I read all the text. It was just a simple good morning and a good night from her, she didn't even heard from him back. My silly little Ellora still thinks this is love. No, my love. Love is between me and you and no one else.

After I made sure that James still hadn’t made a move on her, I sat down on her couch. And watched her sleep peacefully after all the chaos happened. That is right, she deserved all the calm and peace in this world can offer, I don't care if I’m the one who will get all her chaos, darkness, noise and havoc around her. I don't care if I suffer in this world, as long as I know that Ellora will stay safe, I'm okay. I have building my own empire because of her, to guarantee the life she deserves. Make sure her life is pure peace and happiness only. But every sacrifice has a price, and my price is her. Whether she doesn't want to or not.

She. Will. Be. Mine.