Never an Ever After

Power

SONG FOR THIS CHAPTER:

REWRITE THE STARS-JAMES ARTHUR AND ANNE MARIE

CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN

RONAN

Having to see Ellora in the middle of her Dahlia garden is the best thing for me. No matter what that woman does to me, it always fascinates me. Everything she does is important to me; all her actions and movements are magic that stirring inside of me.

When she admits that when I went missing eight years ago, her admittance is full of emotions. I can see she became lonely and hopeful, when she says that she never loses her faith that somehow, I will come home, I wonder if her prayers make me safe after all.

I hold something inside Ellora, no matter what it is she finds me important for her, at first, I thought she didn’t even bother to look inside of me and find some goodness in me, but I was wrong.

Because now no matter what else I do bad to her, she is still looking for the former Ronan who became her friend. She still tries to take care of someone like me who did nothing but abuse her undying kindness. My Ellora is nothing but pure kindness and beautifulness. If the word Heaven is a person, Ellora represents that word. And just by thinking about her, makes me more in deep towards her.

It is true that I will get her all the Dahlia in the world, and by looking at me without even blinking I know she knows that I can and I will. She sees and witness what I can do in this world, and it’s only less than half of what she knew I could do.

The moment we have in her garden and in my garden is something big for me. In that moment I feel, she is slowly opening himself up for me. The way she looks at me, the way her body reacts to mine. I knew I was gaining a place in her life. And to her surprise, even if she doesn't give me a place in her life, I will still force myself to the spot where I should be in her life. Just me and no one else.

But Mom cut us off in time I needed an escape in the situation.

I know that Ellora will soon be able to reveal one of my secrets. Just by looking at me, analyzing me in a way she can only does.

And for a second, I am glad, Mom intervened.

As soon as I entered the house, I could feel the shifting of Mom and Dad's emotions when they saw me. They were both quiet and there was something in the reaction of their faces that said that whatever we were talking about today was not good. Suddenly, I just want to go back to the place where I left Ellora. Where she is everything around me becomes background.

“Sit down, Son.” Papa said.

As soon as I sat down, Mom started to cry.

What is happening?

“What happened?”

Dad looks at me, can’t even start to talk why Mom is here crying in front of us.

“What?” I pressed.

"I can't believe you hid this from me for so long?" Mom said, As I looked at Dad to see what Mom meant, He sighed and shook his head. His emotions telling me that he is sorry.

It became a thing for me. Ever since I lost emotion, I have studied every emotion that a person displays. Until I became an expert at reading the emotions of the people I meet. But with Ellora, I felt anxious because until now I still can’t read some of the emotions she shows.

“I’m sorry, My love.” Dad apologizes.

"Won't you explain to me what it is?" I asked them being irritable.

Dad sighed as he looks at me then back to Mom “Your mother figured out about the Saint Mary’s.”

My body froze and all I can do is look at Mom, I don’t want her to know about what I am doing in the Saint Mary’s.

“Why are you doing that, Ronan? It’s pure evil and violence.” She cried. Then I saw it again on her eyes that I see eight years ago. Guilt and Pity.

I took a deep breath "The Saint Mary's will be my legacy, Mom. And I want to keep it that way."

“Oh, God.” She sobs “You can be like your Dad, Ronan. Not your—”

“Uncle Albert.” I finished for her.

Mom always blames Uncle Albert when everything in our family went down, and Dad always gets the recognition.

One thing everyone and Mom didn’t know that Dad won’t be in his place right now, if it’s not for Uncle Albert.

Dad is the front, Uncle is the back.

Dad is the light, Uncle is the dark.

They both works together perfectly.

As for me, I don’t need a f*****g partner in everything I do and will do.

I can handle both worlds on my own.

I trained myself to the two worlds I am going to live and reign with.

Mom sighed “I don’t want to blame him, trust me.”

"I approached Uncle Albert for Saint Mary’s, Mom. He didn't offer that to me. He really wanted me to be in Dad’s lane. But I insist that I want to act in the two worlds they have." There's no point in lying to Mom anymore. I know that she will also know what I do, sooner or later.

"What's missing, Ronan? Money? Power?" Mom becomes desperate to convince me to stop Saint Mary’s. But no one can ever stop me from this.

“There’s nothing missing, Mom. Trust me.”

“Then why are you doing this? It can get you killed?”

“I needed the Saint Mary’s to keep my sanity, Mom.” I answered her getting pissed.

“What?” Mom and Dad said in unison.

I sighed “Eight years ago, I know I got the trauma from what happened. And when I start the Saint Mary’s I can feel that I am getting my released, I am gaining what was lost in me eight years ago.”

I looked at the, sheer horror and guilt is on their both faces. “Power. That’s what went missing.”

Mom sobs and Dad hugged her, I feel that once again we are back in the year I came home.

“Why didn’t you tell us, Son? We can get you the help you need.” Dad suggests.

“You can help me, just by continuing to protect and support the Saint Mary’s, Dad. And Mom just trust me with this.”

“Oh God. I can’t.” she stood up crying as she leaves me and Dad on the living room.

“Who even told her about the Saint Mary’s?”

Dad took a deep breath “Someone send her a video of him fighting in the caged ring. And I have no other choice but to explain to her the truth.” Dad explained.

I sighed “Yeah, you did the right thing.”

“Your uncle will come in a few days, I hope your Mom will be okay by then.”

I nod “Let’s just hope.”

Once again, I needed to see her again.