Never an Ever After

Ave Maria

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BETTER-ZAYN

CHAPTER FOURTY-TWO

RONAN

After Ellora’s performance, the festivities begin.

I don’t even know why I did what I did. But as I am watching her singing like a divine angel on that stage, all my insanity left me.

It feels like she’s f*****g pulling me in front of her.

Every word she mutters, every note she hits. I got pulled and pulled and I can’t do anything but to kiss her.

I love her.

This is the first time I will admit it to myself.

That girl, is the woman I love and die for.

She texted me some time after saying:

“Wy did you just did that? What the f**k, Ronan? If anyone asked just said that it was just part of the play.”

I almost laughed when I read that, it feels like I can f*****g hear her voice when she said that but I forgot I am in the middle of a vintage party with my friends, and the last thing I want is for James to find out what is Ellora to me.

James put his arm around me while holding the wine in one of his hands. "Man, what happened to you and Ellora on the program? You looked like a lovesick puppy when you stared at her." Is that what I looked like? A lovesick puppy?

“It’s just part of the program, Man. It was staged.” I stick to Ellora’s story.

“How come?”

“Isn’t it assign of unity? A very convincing front for the people of Pennsylvania, having the Reverend’s daughter and the Governor’s son dating?”

He nods “Yep. Don’t know how politics goes. But how about B?” he is always a f*****g nutmeat.

“I don’t care. Business is business. Politics is politics.” I shrug.

“Hey, lover boy.” Speaking of her, here comes Queen B wearing a very daring dress that everyone drools on the sight of her. That what she is, a great distraction.

She put her hands all around me “What is that about? Are you cheating on me?”

I put a cigarette on my lips and took a blow “It’s staged.”

She sighed “That’s what I thought.”

I looked at her bulging t**s inside her dress and hold her hands guiding her inside the comfort room, she giggles “A little eager, baby.”

Inside the restroom, I clench my fist on her hair and f**k her from behind, Moaning and screaming my name, but as I looked at her pale skin I moaned someone else’s name as Bianca’s driving me.

She stopped moving and snapped her head on me “What the f**k did you just call me?”

She slapped me. Hard. My blood boils and I wanted to snap her neck right here and leave her lifeless body in here. “You f*****g heard me.”

Tears starts to build in her eyes “You f*****g called me Ellora, you f*****g moaned her name!”

I put my hands on her neck, making it tight and I know she can’t breathe anymore. “Say one more word to anyone else or even her, I’ll f*****g kill you.” I shove her out of my face as I washed my hands, she’s crying on the corner while looking at me furiously. “We’re done her, B. Thank you for the great f**k you gave me.”

I left her not wanting to hear what she’s about to say, I know she won’t tell anyone what she just figured out. She’s scared. She loves her f*****g life. And she knows what I can do with it.

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ELLORA

The morning came, the class is open again.

Just how much I wanted to lay still on my bed and take a rest for a day, I can’t. I am too way behind my class.

I opened my locker to see so many used condoms and painted with red.

A sign of a virginity’s taken.

I know it is me and Ronan took my virginity.

It has been a while since this joke and bully placed a used condom in my locker again, I know it triggered them the kissed that Ronan pulled last night.

But today, I had enough. They are accusing me that I just lost my virginity to Ronan Hawthorne, Not bothering to wear gloves anymore, I throw away the trash that is inside my locker while my tears continue to drip. All whispers and laughter were gone in the sudden burst of my emotions. I am tired. I had enough. I am exhausted and peace deprived since Ronan Hawthorne set his attention to me.

But the way he kissed me last night makes me wake up all evening. I just keep on thinking how I feel when his lips are on mine, and how I will let him. It’s more feels like a push and pull.

The more he pushed, the more I pull. The more I pull, the more he pushes.

I went to my class, once again the class I have with Ronan. I just wanted to skip this class, but where will I go?

I sat down on my usual sit, because there is no use of avoiding him. He will come through eventually. He sat down and unintentionally, I jumped.

He looks at me in full of concern “What happened?”

I didn’t answer him, instead I just rolled my eyes on him and set my focus on the class, or should I say, I tried.

The clocks seem to slow down whenever I wanted it to be fast. I want to get out of here, out of anyone’s ayes, out of Ronan’s attention.

The class bell rings, and I hurried out. But suddenly Ronan pulled me where I didn’t know. A comfort room, when we enter, I am breathless at the speed of his walk, I can't reach him if I can't keep up with him.

“Everyone gets out!” he shouts that made all the boys gets out instantly inside the comfort room.

He looks at me “f*****g speak. What happened to you?”

“Ronan?” I took a weak breath “I’m tired.”

“You will get your f*****g rest if you tell me what the f**k happened to you.”

“Please.” I sighed in defeat.

Suddenly Ronan left in front of me and opened a cubicle with a man who was scared while hiding, he pulled the man out in front of us, he was holding the collar of his uniform.

“Tell me what you know.” He asked the scared man.

"There are-- There are those who put used condoms in Ellora's locker again but this time there is blood." He answered as I saw that he was shaking.

I took Ronan’s hands to remove his grip form the man’s collar “Let him go.”

And he did.” Get out.”

The man run instantly. Leaving the scene.

He looks at me with rage as his fist clenched shut, he will make all those pranked me pay. I don’t know if I should be glad or scared.

“f**k that. Do you trust me?” he asked.

I shook my head instantly “I’m not. “ I breathe.

“You f*****g will eventually.” He sounds so confident and mad when he left me inside the comfort room.

But I don’t think I will ever trust him.

All the bad vibes I experienced this morning, washed away when James greeted me on the way to the cafeteria.

“Hey, are you okay? I heard what happened this morning.”

I nod and smiled at him sweetly “Yeah, I get used to it.”

“I’m sorry if Ronan’s being an ass towards you.”

“You think he’s the one doing that kind to me?” I asked curiously, because I know Ronan will only have the power to do that. I know it before, but I just went ahead of it. Never trust him.

"Who do you think it is?" he said, guilt on his face is evident.

“I don’t know when he talked to me earlier it feels like he’s mad at whoever did that to me or something.” I don’t know why I am defending Ronan’s expense.

He shrug “Either way, you deserved that. I know you better that the rest of them.”

I smiled at him, knowing that he didn’t believe all the rumors surrounding about me. ” Thank you.”

“Always, Lori. Always.” He cupped my face and kissed the top of my head and all else float and I feel I am floating from the space.

“Want to watch movie with me this weekend?”

“Is that a date?” I pressed and I know I am blushing.

He nods “Yeah, it is.”

“I guess I want to.”

He smiled, flashing his perfectly white teeth at me “See you.”

I nods as he turn and walked away from me.

Just one look, one touch and one moment with James washed all my fears, frustration and tears away.