Never an Ever After

Thunder roars and Lust

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CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR

ELLORA

I was thankful and was able to end the day with pure embarrassment after the facade that Ronan showed them outside the cafeteria. When I returned immediately, Demi asked how that happened, I have no other choice but to tell her the truth, since Ronan took me to the hospital, at least. I also don't know how I can lie to Demi after Ronan shouted that we just kissed. I still don't know what there is this year have that is not in previous years and now he has chosen to pay attention to me after so many years avoiding me. I still can't believe what Demi tells me that Ronan likes me. Because he can be cruel and soft at the same time. And what he did earlier, I also don't know how to give an explanation to James in case he asked.

I’m just hoping he doesn’t hear that.

I know he will use that kiss against me. I just didn’t know that he will use it instantly.

And because I didn’t drive here, and Demi still has the last two classes. I decided to just walk. I need this to be able to think about my next plans for the next years to come.

I was a bit far from the school grounds and was about to enter the road where both sides were full of forest. It’s a bit rainy, but I am always ready and have my umbrella with me. Even though I don’t need to use an umbrella anymore, but I just recovered from my illness. And the last thing I want is for Papa to worry about me again. I love Rain, the sounds, the air, the dark clouds. I don’t know how weather started to become my favorite. I just love the Rain. That’s it.

I am walking silently as I looked around me and catching the raindrops in the palm of my hand, for a moment I forgot the chaos I had at school, the havoc I had with the family, and the wreckage I had planned for my life.

Maybe you think I'm just deepening my problems when I shouldn't. I wished it was that simple. But as daughter of a very noble man, the reverend of this place. I can't hardly breath. I feel like my every move is being watched and judged. Watched, just waiting for me to do something wrong. I couldn’t breathe, and even I could just imagine my chests filling up with water as if I was almost drowning in a deep and dark sea.

I am happy but lonely at the same time.

I am not like this when I am younger. I used to be so happy. I used to see the beautiful things this world can offer.

I don’t know when this feeling started. I just felt it.

That is why I choose ballet, even though I know Papa will get mad at me. ballet is the only thing I have that made me so happy. I have to choose to myself after this, because I might die not giving myself the chance to be free and be myself. Don’t get me wrong, I love Papa with all my heart. If I could just choose him over and over again, I would do it forever. But the more he pushes me away from doing the things I love, the more it pulled me. It is within me. It is inside of me, whether I want to or not.

The heaviness on my chest came back just by thinking about it, when a loud horn beep at the back of me, and I turn around to see its Ronan’s sports car.

Not now, please. I beg on my mind.

I walked away from his car and he starts to drive too when he blocked his car in front of me.

I gasped and halt.

He lowers his window in the driver seat and looks at me and around me.

“Get in.”

“I am fine.” I shrug and will start to walk again when I saw him hop off his car and strides towards me, once again I am frozen in place. Unable to move or run away from him.

“What are you doing—” I didn’t get to finished what I am asking him when in one swoop of his big strong arms. He carried me, my bottom is in his face and my face is in his bottom. All I can see is my world being turn upside down.

“Bring me down.” I struggle to no avail, when I feel my back on his car sit. He closed the door and walk on his side. When he hops in, he locked all the doors as if knowing what I am thinking.

He starts driving as the rain outside pour heavily.

“How can you changed into someone like you are right now, I have known you for what it feels like forever before you-“ I shut my mouth before I made him remember what happened to him eight years ago.

“Before what? Before I went missing?” he shrugs and I was the one who almost flinched to see him and heard him talk about that night as if nothing happened.

“Yeah. You used to be happy and—”

He instantly stopped the car and snap his head towards me “Get out.”

“What?” I looked at outside and my umbrella is left on the road when he forces me to get inside his car. The rain is heavy, and so is the fog that surrounds that forest and the road.

“I said get out!” he growls.

“Fine! I didn't want to ride in your car, you insisted. Asshole! ”I got out of his car and slammed the door shut, hoping to break his car glass.

He sped off so fast and left me in the middle of the road, now I am wet. My uniform is so wet from the rain, but I don’t care, I am too f*****g mad to care.

You see, I don't really like to swear and have bad wishes or thoughts with someone. I wasn't raised that way. But Ronan always gets the ugliest part of me, he always brings out my bad behaviors just because of his existence lately.

I start walking when another car stops in front of me, someone open the car window for me, and I see him wearing the same uniform as mine and he’s a he.

“You need a ride?”

I shake my head “No, I’m fine.” But I am not fine, the rain is cold and I started shivering.

“Come on, I swear I will take you home.” He sighed and smiled as he saw I am being hesitant to get in someone’s car. Stranger for that matter.

He showed his ID to me, “I am Jacob Nicholson, I am a senior at your school.”

I sighed and give in as I hop inside the comfort of his car. I saw him smiling at me.

Like what he just sees is an absurd thing to do.

“Where should I drive you?”

"There, in the next village." I answered him.

“At the church town?”

I nod “Yes, please.”

He starts to drive and even open the heater. He seems nice and good.

“How come I didn’t see you at NU if you are the same year as me?”

"My parents just moved here to Nashville. And I just transferred to NU. Originally, we were from New York."

The sudden mention of New York stirs my emotion. I smiled “What living in New York feels like?”

"Great, always busy. Almost everyone never runs out of things to do in a day." he smiled and sighed at his memory in New York "If I had to choose, I will stay in New York forever."

“Then why didn’t you choose it?” like it was a simple thing to do.

"New York doesn't offer an opportunity for my parents." He smiled sadly. “After so many years of them trying in the place, there luck isn’t there anymore.”

"But you're different, aren't you? Your parents aren't lucky in New York, it's them. Not you. You know, maybe you're the lucky one in New York."

His smiled grew bigger “That’s a relief.”

I chuckle “It is.”

The car suddenly stopped and I have to see what happen.

Off course, Ronan f*****g Hawthorne happens.

His car is blocked on the road, and he’s outside his car leaning with his hands on his pocket, looking directly at me then Jacob inside his car.

“Who is that?” Jacob asked “Maybe he need some help with his tires.” He’s going to open his door when I stopped him.

“No. don’t open the door no matter what happened.” I see the rage and fury on his eyes. Whatever it is, I know it isn’t good.

“You know him?”

“Yes. He’s bad news.”

Ronan starts to stride on my side and I have to pushed the lock for him not to open it.

Panic rises through me.

“Hey, you okay? Who is he?”

Ronan is now standing just outside the side of my window. Looking at me.

“Is there any way you can drive out of here?” I asked him desperately.

“I’ll try.” When Jacob started to drive, Ronan suddenly punched my window. Jacob and I screamed, his window got cracked.

“What the f**k—”

“Open the f*****g door, Ellora!” Ronan shouts outside.

“I—I need to get out in here, so that you will not be affected. Thank you so much, Jacob. "

He stopped me “Wait, are you in danger?”

I can’t even answer him because I don’t know if I really am in danger with Ronan.

“No.”

I open the door and Ronan instantly hold my hands, shoving me out of the car.

“What do you want!” I shout at him, because the rain is too heavy and loud.

He shoved me inside his car. And lock the doors, this f*****g pyscho.

I see Jacob gets out of his car and walk towards Ronan, they both talked for a while, Jacob runs to his car after Ronan punched him on his face.

I got out of the driver's side of his car and slapped Ronan away from Jacob's car.

I almost gasped at the contact of my palm on his face, but he didn’t hold no emotions at all.

“What do you want?”

He grabbed my arm and turned me towards the hood of his sports car and pressed my face on the hood.

I am scared, his mad.

I know what he can possibly do. He can kill me here and buried me in the woods and no one will ever find my body.

The rain hitting both of us.

"I didn't know you had that side, Snow white."

“What are you saying?!”

He slapped my ass cheeks so hard, I winced. Oh yeah, I forgot that I am wearing my school uniform and I am shoved on my face on his low hood. Basically, I stumbled in front of him while one of his hands held my hands from behind. And I am helpless. Compare to his body built on mine, I am end game.

“You dare riding in some random guys car.” He growls on my ear as I felt his hard manhood pressed on my bottom. Oh god. I am breathing hard.

“You f*****g left me in the middle of the rain, you idiot.” I don’t know why I need to explain everything to him, but it feels like I need to.

Slap.

Slap.

Slap.

Now, I am crying. My ass is numb. And I can’t afford him holding my ass aimlessly.

The thunder roars along with my sobs, and I hope another car or someone helped me again.

He confronted me with him and backed me on his car, not without him holding my neck to keep me in place like he held me earlier at school. He squeezed my face so hard to make me looked at him.

I know I am sobbing really hard. I don’t deserve this kind of treatment. And I don’t even know what he’s doing to me.

“Do that again, Ellora. I f*****g dare you to do that again.”

I shake my head. Crying.

He looked me up and down, and his gaze stay at my now see-through white blouse. I see that my maroon lace bar is once again expose for him to see. I can see his eyes gets hot and fired up.

He wants me.

He wants my body.

It’s just it, me and my body.

I know he’s not capable to be attached to someone.

He feels nothing but lust to me.

A toy he can throw when he’s finished.

And I won’t let him do that to me.

“Get I the car.” He released me, and I don’t need to be told twice. I hop inside his car.

When in front of my house, I run without looking back at him. He’s a monster, an animal among us wearing a fake mask to hide his madness.

As soon as I went up my bedroom, I looked at his window and it is still tinted.

I can mad at him forever. I can make him pay for whatever he’s doing to me.

I no longer feel anything for him anymore, for all I know my friend who went missing that night is already dead.