Never an Ever After

Burn in hell

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TO THE BONE-PAMUNGKAS

CHAPTER FOURTY

ELLORA

Papa is gone again tonight and Demi invited me to join her again at Saint Mary's telling me that there will be a good fight tonight. He told Papa that I would sleep over with them tonight because his parents were not there and because Papa, likes her and trusted her as my fried, he agreed. If only does he know where Demi would take me.

Demi let me once again wear what I wanted and comfortable to wear, in exchange of coming with her. So, I only wear a tight jean and a black long knitted button up long sleeve and a white nike shoes.

"I don't think this is a good idea for me to go back to Saint Mary's again after what happened last time." I told her while she was driving there.

“Why? I am sure people forget about that. Don’t be silly.” She chuckles.

“When Ronan see me there again—” I sighed.

“Ronan is not our business, we are there for the fight and the blood and the excitement.”

I cringed “I don’t like violence either.”

She sighed “Okay, just watch this fight for now and judge it after.”

“He doesn’t want me in his territory.” I whispered.

“Who is he? “Demi still catches that.

“Ronan.”

"Ronan won't notice you now, because he's the one to fight in the caged ring. And we better make sure we're in a hidden place.”

So, he’s still fighting for his life. For all I know, Ronan is undefeated and indestructible in Saint Mary’s, but we are still not sure. Because I remember when he went bloody to my room. I wonder if that's also where he got stabbed that night. And why does he still do it over and over again even though his life is in danger. And for all I know, James is doing the same stuff at Saint Mary’s too.

When we arrived at Saint Mary's, it was still the same routine as when I first came here. But now it's storming and the thunder roars have added to the fear I feel in this dark place.

But Demi didn't let go of my shaking hands.

“Relax. He won’t see you here.”

We stood in a fairly crowded place and when I saw who was in the caged ring, a gasped escape my lips as my visions swirl.

I expected that Ronan will be inside the caged ring tonight, but I didn’t expect that he will be fighting James inside.

My body trembles as I see how Ronan smiled wickedly, I see this smile when he kills the man from the ballet studio in downtown, I see this smile when he kissed me savagely at the party, I see this smile when he strides into Jacob’s car.

Is it because I said that James invited me to the prom? He shows that he is cool and calmed when I know he’s in there out for blood.

"I know you're worried for James. But don't be, they're both good inside the ring. Both ruthless and indestructible." Demi told me, as if that would help ease my nerves because I saw how Ronan was, and that makes me scared even more.

“Did you know that James and Ronan will be the one to fight tonight?”

“Off course, that’s why I brought you here.” She smirks.

“Why would you even have brought me here, Demi.” I saw that she knows that I am not pleased.

“Oh—” She looks at the ring as the fight starts and back at me “I thought you might want to see James fight tonight.”

I massage my temple and took a deep breath “I don’t want to.”

The fight starts, and Demi was right. They both don't want to beat each other. They both protect their ego. That is why they are ready to fight, even to the point of death. What kind of friends are they?

Everyone has their own bets, cheering and going crazy along every punch of Ronan and James made.

I feel there is a set of eyes staring at me, so I find it hard immediately.

And I see Cloud on the far end of the ring, I know he’s not looking at Demi. He is looking straight at me as he smirks wickedly when he saw that I already saw him.

My body rigid. He knows something isn’t right and I know that too.

I divert back my attention to Ronan and James, James is fighting for his pride and ego while Ronan is fighting for James’ blood. This is a big trap for James because once Ronan kills him in the ring, it is justifiable and James will also disappear like a bubble like the previous ones who died in this fight. They are all dead without a trace and without a finger pointing whoever killed them inside this ring. And no one will try to tell the tale because they treat this place as a sacred holy grail that no one else will know but the people who just saw it.

My breathing becomes fast, I have to do something.

James fell into the ring and I saw Ronan pull out a knife, the one he used to kill the man in downtown. Yes, you can use any kind of equipment in order to win as long as it's not a gun. He's going to kill James.

When I saw that he was going to stab James in the chest, everything goes in slow motion. I also saw the fear on James' face when he saw that his friend was ready to kill him just to win.

“Ronan!!!!!!” I shout at the top of my lungs.

And everyone stayed quiet as I kept my focus on Ronan and his knife.

Ronan stopped and looks at me. He tilts his head as he finds it amusing that I am here to witness his wickedness and madness.

I plead with my eyes, hoping that he still has mercy on his fiber and bones.

I don’t care if once again, I gained some attention. All I wanted to do is save the lifeless form of James inside the ring.

He smirks darkly as pounce on James again and I screamed at the top of my lungs covering my eyes, as the people shouts in victory.

I sob “Oh my god! Oh my god!” He f*****g killed James in front of me.

Demi is shaking me, but I can’t hear what she’s telling. Then I feel him again, I removed the hands covering my eyes as tears continued to flow, I saw him making his way towards me and I didn’t even dare to look at James at the ring and hurt myself again and again at the image of him lifeless and tortured myself because I know I can’t do anything.

I looked at Ronan with all anger pouring inside me, whilst I am crying.

I am beyond mad at him.

I wanted him dead too.

He brushed his hands on my hands and I shiver, “f*****g mine.” He growls and I looked at him, sending him million daggers, I wanted to kill him. He just smirks and walks away from me.

I bow my head still sobbing “He’s dead, help him. Help him.” I keep on telling Demi beside me.”

She shakes me and when I can’t calm myself down she slapped me, I looked at her and she has this guilt written all over her face "Ellora, listen to me. Ronan didn't kill him. Look at him. Look at him." Demi says again and again and find my courage to actually look at James inside the ring.

And she’s right, James isn’t dead and someone is treating him placing an iced pack on his eyes.

“He’s not.” I sobbed again in relief and I felt all my limbs got soft and Demi hugs me.

“I’m sorry I brought you here.” She cries “I’m sorry.”

I promised myself that if I was given the chance to kill Ronan Hawthorne, I would kill him myself. It's either I live or he lives. And I chose that it will be me who will live, even if I burn in hell.