Never an Ever After

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AFTERGLOW-TAYLOR SWIFT

CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX

ELLORA

Ronan drives me back in Nashville just what he promised. While Cloud drove Demi back to her house. I felt relieved that Demi and I isn’t in the same car back here in Nashville, I don’t know how to look at her straight in the eyes and lie to her about what happened in Ronan’s house.

I will tell her, eventually. But not now. I don’t know how to explain things myself and how did that happen. I can’t even explain it to myself, how am I supposed to make her understand that as well?

I called Papa too before going home by using Demi’s phone and told him that my phone went missing after assuring him that everything is fine and I am having a good time at the vacation that Demi’s parent organized for the both of us.

He’s in the seminary, so it’s a relieved that I will not face him when I get home.

I have so many lies that I’ve been keeping for the people I loved. But I think, it’s okay to lie to them than to tell them the painful truth and they will hurt as well.

Ronan cut off his black charger engine in front of my house and hop off to open the door on my side. We didn’t talk about what happened, and I am glad he didn’t press or rubbed it in my face. I didn’t regret what happened, surprisingly. And he still has the same effect on me.

One reason on why I gave him our desire is because I thought if maybe I tried and taste the Devil for one time, this hormone and pleasure I felt whenever he’s around will subside. But I am wrong, because every time I looked at him, I am once again back in his bed underneath him. That is why I avoid eye contact with him for now.

I hop off his car and he hold my hands leading me inside our house, he opened the door as if he is living here.

“Stay here.” He said and make me sit down on our couch as he circled every corner of our house.

If he’s being this paranoid about everything, then I am sure I am in danger.

“There’s no one here.” He said and gave me a phone. “Here. All the contacts you can call if needed are there on that phone. My number is there, Cloud, Demi and your Father." He pointed at me while I listened to him carefully. "And this number, belongs to Mario. He is my right-hand man. And you can trust him to make you safe when I'm not around. This is Angus, he is also my man and you can trust him too. "

I nods “Am I still in danger?”

He sighed and put his hands on my knee and the electric jolt by the contact made me flinch. “You are. But as I told you, no one will f*****g touch you. Okay?”

I nod “Why do I feel that I am in more danger being with you?”

He clenched his fist and cupped my face tightly it will be bruised. He’s mad. His sudden emotions whiplash is giving me headache all the time.

“Trust me, you are safer with me.”

I sighed and he let go of my face “Yeah, okay.” I told him uninterested.

He stood up and kissed the top of my head “You know the drill, Snow white. You can't leave without telling me where you're going. You can't move alone. This is not a game, Ellora. This is your life we are talking about, and I will not allow anything bad to happen to you."

I swallowed hard "Is my Dad under your protection too?”

“Is he important to you?”

I nod “Off course he is.”

“Then he is too.” He said softly and I sighed in relief knowing that Papa is safe under Ronan’s protection. I don't want to be dependent on Ronan either. But I know of no one else who is more powerful than the Butler’s. And if the Butler’s are chasing revenge on Papa, I know they’ll come back. And Ronan is the only one I have to rely on to guaranteed Papa’s safety.

“Thank you.”

“Just do what I say, Snow white.” I looked in his eyes and I can see that he is genuinely worried about me.

I nod “I will.”

He cupped my face and kissed me, just a peck in my lips and I didn’t stop him. I have to be smart, I had to make Ronan placed in the palm of my hands, especially now that I knew he wanted me. I have to use this opportunity to make sure that he won't leave Papa and me in our fight with the Butler's. I can’t do this alone.

After Ronan left me, I took a shower thoroughly. While Ronan and I were having s*x, I had no other thoughts but the pleasure and desire at that moment only. But when we went back to the reality of our lives, I felt like I am so dirty. Because the hidden purpose has already perceived the desire, I feel for him. It feels like I am using my body and my soul in exchange for the protection that Ronan offers me and Papa.

And I feel like I had no other choice or is it just my excuse for my behavior?

I did everything I could to forget everything that happened for the past few days by planting some Dahlia in my garden again. And I am glad, I did. Because I didn’t realize I am tired and exhausted after that long day.

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RONAN

Once I left Ellora on their house, I didn’t leave my bedroom window just watching her every move. If I had the choice, I wouldn’t leave her alone in their house, but I thought maybe she needs space.

And she did.

All the time I have been watching her all, she looks like a f*****g robot in auto-pilot. There’s no emotion in her face while doing the things she usually does in the comfort of her home.

She’s blanked and spaced out and all I wanted to do is get her out of her own thoughts.

But she needs space.

From me.

I ordered Angus to set his eyes on Ellora all night, because I needed to sleep.

It has been so long since I closed my eyes and let myself drift.

If my body won’t collapse any second now, I myself will watch her until she falls asleep, but I can feel myself collapsing.

As soon as I saw Angus’ car parked outside Ellora’s home, it is my cue to rest and sleep. I sighed and my phone ring by an unknown number, but I know too well who the hell is this.

I answered and gave him a dark chuckle on the other line.

“You find this funny, Hawthorne?” it’s Rob. Just what I thought.

“It took you a f*****g while to call.”

“You f*****g messed up with my brother!”

I chuckle low “And I will gladly do it again of given the chance.”

“f**k you, I will f*****g kill your b***h in front of you and it won’t be pretty. It will be so messed up that it will be engraved in your f*****g sick mind!” he threatened. By the mention of Ellora’s and his plan for her make me mad like a f*****g beast and ready to kill.

I grit “f*****g try me, Robert.”

“I won’t just try, I will f*****g do it.”

“Do you know how many guns are pointed at you right now?” I opened the tv set up inside my room, it has all the angle of the whereabouts of the Butler’s.

“Fuck.” I heard him muttered in his breath as he saw the red light of the sniper directly on his forehead.

I chuckled “You see, always so sloppy when it comes to planning aren’t we?”

“I will kill you.”

“Is that a threat? Should I be scared when in fact you are the one who have the sniper on the forehead right now.” I laughed manically as I watched him being frantic in his brother’s hospital room. “Leave this city. I don’t want to see even the small of footstep of your family in my city. This is your last chance, Rob. Be smart.”

“f**k—” I didn’t let him finished as I drop the call and sighed.

Dad entered the room without knocking and instantly looked at the cctv set I have with the Butler’s.

He sighed “You did that to James?”

I nod “Yeah.”

“How far you know about them?”

“Just how far you know about them too.” I shrug.

He tapped my shoulder “You have to do that, right?”

I nod “Dad, I am not guilty that I did that to him. He f*****g deserved that.”

“Next time let me know beforehand.”

I nod just to end the discussion “Sure.”

“Take a rest, you look exhausted.”

“Yup.”

He leaves the room and I have to check on Ellora again on her window and she’s now sleeping peacefully and Angus is still on his position.

I texted her goodnight before I placed the oxygen masked in me. and let myself rest for the meantime.