Wasn’t Jesse just like him? Isn’t that what they both were? Weren’t they both just pretending to be straight? Jesse waited for an answer, but Carlos said nothing.
"I swear, sometimes I don’t know about you, Carlos. Ma thinks you act funny already," added Jesse. Carlos felt defenseless, like when Facundo, his father, acted out violently with the family. Jesse knew he’d gone too far and dropped the subject, pretending to be into the Dragnet episode.
As much as he loved Jesse, Carlos would feel frustrated depending solely on Jesse and not having more options. He thought of women he knew trapped in loveless marriages, like Blanca, his mother, who withstood mental and physical abuse from his father. He wished he could see his mother. He missed her and asked, "Does anyone else…." he said, swa
