Her

Chapter Four ~ I Hate Him~

****Amelia's Pov****

  Kayla offered to take me home but i refused and tell her to go on to her Mom's Bakery she called her a while  ago and ask her to come give her a hand in packaging. She always package  treats meant for  her VIP clients herself and i admired that.

  I got home after a long walk with a pounding headache due to my broken nose and all i want was to just hit the bed and sleep. i met my mom in the living room flipping through channels on the television and she was surprised to see me and she looked so worried when she saw my plastered nose.

  ''What happen to you my dear'' She examined my nose and i winced from her touch.

    ''It's nothing to worry about Mom'' I replied dropping my backpack and walking to the kitchen.

       '' What did you mean by it's nothing to worry about'' She replied. ''You came home with a broken nose and you think i won't worry?.''

  '' Yes you don't have to worry am going to go to bed now?'' I replied heading upstairs but she held my hands to stop me.

  '' Hey young lady you can't just walk away from me while am talking to you'' She shouted. ''Are you getting into fight now?.

  ''What if i am?, what do you care?'' I yelled back frustrated at the fact that she is adding to my migraine.

 ''What!!!, you think i don't care what my daughter do?'' She said with her voice shaking.

   ''Yes you don't. i am not your precious lover who you can't get over and be a better mother for your daughter'' I yelled.

  ''Don't say a word against your father Amy'' she replied protectively and i got more mad.

    '' I will because he is a despicable man that doesn't care about you nor the child he never knows, he is never going to come back to you and the sooner you accept that the better my life will be'' I yelled at the top of my voice and she slapped me hard across my face and pain shoot across my head.

  ''You don't know anything about your father so keep your mouth shut and stop spewing nonsense'' She matches my tone of anger.

  ''You know Mom you're just being an hypocrite right now'' I said with tears falling freely down my face. ''You know the truth but you just want to ignore it and nurse this useless hope in your heart, yes i don't know anything about him but i do know that he abandoned us and never wants to give me a chance at life'' I sniff. maybe he is right you shouldn't have given me this life  when you knew can't even teach me how to live it properly.

  She stretch her hand to touch ''Baby it's not what you think''.

   I flinched away from her '' Yes it is because if you have been a better parents what happened to me wouldn't have'' I storm out of the house and she keeps screaming for me to listen to her and come back but i kept walking until i got to Kayla's Mom bakery, the both of them were shock to see the state i was in but they didn't ask any question and just hugged me tight.

   After an hour of crying my  eyes out i sat down on a chair and Kay brought me a glass of water. I gulped down half of the content and thank her.

  ''What happened to you i thought you were going to get some rest at home'' She asked eyeing me with worry.

 '' I got into an argument with Mom and things got pretty intense'' I replied swallowing the tears that threatened to fall.

  '' She hit you?, despite seeing the state you're in?''She asked her nose flaring from anger.

    '' I went pretty far with my words too Kay'' I defend her.

     ''She should have considered the state you're in and just let you be'' She complained.

   '' Just let it be can i stay at yours tonight?'' I asked.

    ''Do you even need to ask you crazy girl'' She said and turn to her mom who is busy with packaging. '' Mom can i take Amy home so she can rest up?.

  '' Of course run her a hot bath, make sure she eats something and use her drugs''She ordered.

    ''Okay Mom'' She replied. we left in her car and she made me a nice cup of tea and run me a bath that was so soothing for my aching body what will i have done without her.

  I got out of the bath, dried up, put on the pyjama she left for me and hit the bed.

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    I woke up the next day feeling a little better and Kay was no where to be found so i went downstairs after brushing my teeth and there she was flipping pancakes in the kitchen.

  '' Something smells good here miss chef'' I teased and she looked back to greet me.

    ''How are you feeling Ams?'' She asked giving me a thorough eye scan and i just smiled.

     '' Stop acting like am dying it's just a broken nose it won't kill me'' I said and she glared.

        '' Oh really thanks for the information that wasn't necessarily needed ma'am'' She mocked. ''You should have seen yourself in the mirror you look terrible''.

    ''Thanks for the soothing words dear best friend it means a lot'' I joked.

     ''Don't mention am always here for you now have your breakfast so you could take your drugs on time'' She ordered and serve me some pancakes and orange juice. i was halfway done with my food when i stop and call out her name.

 'Kayla'' I called and she turn off the stove and took a seat beside me.

   ''Yes Amy do you need anything?'' She asked.

     '' Thank you for taking care of me'' I said and she just hugged me seeing am on the verge of tears.

  ''There is no need for you to thank me Amy am just carrying out my duty as your friend and you should know you're like a sister to me'' She replied and i let the tears fall free from my eyes.

  ''Kayla how am i suppose to help my mother forget about him?'' I sniffed and she let me go and held my hands. '' How am i suppose to make her understand he is never going to come back?, How am i suppose to have a normal teenage girl life that doesn't include coming home to a drunk mother?.

  '' Stop crying now Ams i know you're strong enough to scale through this and am here with you'' She said with tears in her eyes too.

  ''She is a lost cause Kay, she don't even see her own child sufferings right under her nose all she does is miss him so much'' I continue crying and she was crying with me now.

  '' Just believe everything will be fine Ams  you will get through this you're halfway there'' She soothes.

  I am so hurt by the fact that my mother refuse to let go of the past and raise me well, am so hurt that am not enough for her, am so hurt that she can't even give me a quarter of the love she have for him, i deserve it or don't i?.

  They were both so much in love or maybe the feelings is only on her part, according to a few of my mom's friend that i have met they always envy her relationship because they were so happy and in love. Am i so unwanted that he was willing to make his love suffer?, Did he even have an ounce of love for her?, I need answers and am going to get them sooner or later.

  I felt bad for my outburst when i knew she already have a broken heart but what am i suppose to do when she is ruining her entire life over someone that's never coming back, i don't even know how they met or separated i just know he flee when i was conceived and because of him i lost my right to live a decent teenage life and i hate him so damn much.