TRAPPED IN A DARK ROMANCE

Chapter 8: "I want a child"

When we got home, I took care of John of course, I fed him, we watched a little TV, and then we went to the bedroom.

The day had mentally exhausted me, so the thing I wanted the most was to fall asleep and wake up only the next day with clearer thoughts because as they often say, the night brings advice.

Except that John was not sleepy, he wanted us to make love, he started to touch me sensually as he knew how, he was my husband, I did not want to say no to him, so I let him do it.

He continued and we were there kissing while leaning and caressing each other, then suddenly before starting the hostilities, he stopped, looked me in the eyes and said:

- I think it's time to make a child...

At that time I didn't feel like it yet, I liked my quiet little life, and it was a bit sudden for me because strangely enough during the day Christian also asked me what we were waiting for to make a child.

I couldn't even hide my reaction, I just got out of the way.

- No John, I'm not ready

- But it's going to be almost a year since we got married, and we've been together for years before that; if you're not ready yet, when will you be? At the end of the world?

- Please understand just like that, I'm not ready, I don't want to.

- Ah, so it's that you don't want to!

- No, that's not what I meant, I just misspoke. I mean, honey, having a baby is not something you can just improvise, it's something you have to plan for, and you have to put in place a certain number of resources for that.

- And can you name something that's missing here that makes it impossible for us to welcome a child?

-ME: Look John I'm just not ready, understand that, or do you want to force me? Go ahead, do as you wish.

- I want a child and look how you react. Then I'll say I have a wife too? Ridiculous.

With these words he got up and started to get dressed, it was almost 11 pm.

- Wait, are you getting dressed now? Where do you think you're going?

- Because now I need your approval to go out? The lady who doesn't want a child can sleep in peace, but I'm going to get some fresh air.

- Or rather, since I refused, you're already going out to have a child, aren't you? In any case know that as you go out, if you go to make a child there I do not know how and with whom, that this child also remains outside. Because these stories of making a child outside and bringing them home, I'm not up for it.

- Let's make our own child here inside.

- John, is it blackmail already?

- Pfft. Look, I'm going out. Don't wait for me.

And he had gone and left me, to go I don't know where, and with I don't know who. It was strange, I was the one who had cheated on him during the day, but in the evening I still allowed myself to be jealous, so much so that I even said to myself:

"What's the point of staying there and wondering where he's going? I just have to follow him and I'll know.

So I quickly put on a pair of pants and a sweater with a slippers, and by the time he opened thevgate, got out with the car and closed the gate, I was already near the door to follow him as soonbas he was about to start the car.

As soon as he started the car, I got out and stopped the first motorcycle I saw. This driver was a Muslim and obviously, from the way he spoke, he was not a Cameroonian.

- Good evening, just follow this gentleman who is going by car, for the money we pay once we arrive at our destination.

- Is he your husband or what?

- Yes, why?

-Did you have a fight or not? Your husband goes out in the middle of the night, and you decide to follow him, you don't have to argue. If you follow him, and then you go and discover something that will give you a stroke, what are you going to do?

- Damn, but what do I care! Just do what I'm going to pay you for and that's it! If I need marital advice I know where I'll go to ask, and it won't be to you. Look at how you're losing me even more time, the car's just pulling away, we'll lose sight of him.

- it's okay, Auntie, don't get upset, you just have to get in, we're only going to see your husband's second office today.

That driver and I, that's how we met, I think I would have given him a good slap that night if he had lost me for one more second.

Afterwards, however, he and I ended up becoming good partners, he did me a lot of favors.So we started the tailing, it's as if this driver was experienced in this field, he managed to keep a certain distance from John's car so that John didn't suspect that he was being followed.

We had driven a good moment then that is it, John had stopped; we also at a distance we had stopped. He had just parked in front of a snack bar.

As for me, I had only gotten off the bike without even caring about the driver, so much so that I was curious to know who John was going to meet there, I wanted to catch him red-handed.

A little aside, friends, in reality all this was just hiding the fact that I wanted to ease my

conscience, yes we women often do that.

Because I had cheated on him again, I was now hoping that what my girlfriend Nathalia had told me could be true; that who knows, maybe John is not the angel I think he is.

I was hoping to catch him with another woman too, so that knowing he was cheating on me too,bI wouldn't feel guilty or embarrassed about cheating on him.

Anyway, I was in such a hurry that I hadn't even paid the driver, and he too had let me go. So I approached the snack bar, and when I tried to enter, the guard stopped me.

- I'm sorry, madam, you can't just walk in here, you're wearing slippers!

- Listen sir, please, I have to go in, my husband is inside and...

- And nothing at all; even if it was your great-grandfather who died in 1850 who was in there, you don't come in here in slippers.

He was adamant, I had to use another, more radical way.

- Well, listen, sir, here's some money, and if I'm caught in it, you've never seen me, but I absolutely must get in, please.

His face lit up at the sight of the money bill, he was even suddenly very friendly.

- Okay, but please be very discreet, I advise you to walk on the edges of the room, if you walk in the center you can be noticed, so walk against the wall, at the ends of the room.

- Okay, thank you.

- But it's nothing, thank you instead, come on, come in, come in.

I went in and did as he said, I walked to the edges of the room and even stayed there. I watched from a distance and looked around the room.

I didn't even tell you that on top of that I also wore a scarf and dark glasses, haha.

I was watching and there it was, I had seen John, he was sitting alone sipping a drink, then a few minutes later guess who had come to meet him, Charles his little brother.

I was beginning to fear that he had come to tell John that he had seen me that day under the circumstances you know.

I was watching them from afar and they didn't seem to be talking about anything untoward, they were laughing while drinking, so John wasn't out to meet a woman, it was who he was with that worried me.

Anyway, I couldn't stay there watching them all evening, so after a while I decided to leave, except that at that moment someone else had come to join John and his brother Charles.

It was a young woman, clear, beautiful, tall, dressed in a tight red dress, in short a beautiful woman too as you can imagine.

She had come and kissed Charles on the mouth, he even pressed her buttocks too, in short if she was there for Charles, I had no use for it.

So I went out to leave and I found the driver from earlier, he was parked there in front of the snack bar. That's when I remembered that I had forgotten all about him when I got off the bike

- Oh, please excuse me, I was in such a hurry that I forgot about you, I'm really sorry. How many is that?

-Get on first, let's go home Auntie, then we'll calculate the price

- Okay, and I'm sorry again for wasting your time like this.

- Oh Auntie, there's no problem for me. And if I stayed here, it's also because I want to know how it went. So, did you catch your husband's second office?

- haha, you're really curious. No, my husband doesn't have a second office after all, so it's okay.

- Ah, okay auntie, but you have to take my number, next time you want to do an express tailing mission, you just have to call me

- haha, okay, I get it. By the way, what's your name?

-Oumarou.

Oumarou, he was going to be my personal driver, I took his number and we split up. I went home to bed and just prayed that Charles wouldn't say anything to his older brother, although deep down, something told me that he wouldn't say anything.

However, this possibility was also frightening, because if he didn't say anything to John, it would surely be to keep a means of blackmailing me, and in that case, who knows what he would ask me in exchange for his silence.

Finally it was as if anyway, whether he spoke or not, I was already in trouble; I had fallen asleep thinking about it and when I woke up in the morning, John was still not back, even though he had to go to work.

I tried to call him but he wouldn't answer my calls. I couldn't call Charles to ask him where John was, otherwise he would have known that I saw them.

And besides, with what he knew about me, I avoided him at all costs.

So I had no choice but to stay quiet and wait. But at 8 o'clock, 9 o'clock, 10 o'clock, he was still not back.

So I decided to go to his office to see if he was there by any chance...