TRAPPED IN A DARK ROMANCE

Chapter 3: For The Better And The Worse

I was so glad that the wedding was planned, because as I told you, I really loved John, and now that I knew that even sexually he was fulfilling me, I was all for him, and him alone.

A week before the wedding, I received a message that did not make a good impression on me at all. John had gone to work and I had stayed home as usual.

After I finished taking care of the house, I sat down for a moment to manipulate my phone, and I find a message in absence: "hello sister-in-law".

I had an idea of who it should be and precisely because of that I preferred not to answer the message. Except that a few minutes later, this number called me.

Curious, I picked up the phone anyway and it was the person I thought it was, Charles, John's little brother

- Hello, hello sister-in-law, it's me, Charles, I found your number on social medias.

- Ah, Charles, how are you?

- I'm fine, but I wrote to you earlier and you haven't answered since.

- Oh really? It's just that since I've been working I haven't been near the phone, it's only because it was a call that I first stopped what I was doing to answer because I thought it might be important

- Oh, okay, I understand. But otherwise, how are you?

- Oh, I'm fine, I'm keeping busy

- And my brother, is he here?

- No, he went to work of course

- Oh yes, that's right. So I can come by and keep you company and chat a bit, what do you think?

- Oh, I'd love to, but I have to go out at any moment and I won't be back until late.

- Well, okay. It will be for another day then.

- No worries.

- Ok, so I hope you have a great day, and especially take good care of yourself, the sexiest sister-in-law.

- haha, thanks.

Do you realize that? He had gone so far as to look me up on social media to get my number.

A part of me was telling me that he probably wants to reassure himself of the kind of person the woman his brother is about to marry is and so for that he had to look me up on social networks to know a little more about me, my life etc...

But even so, it wasn't enough for me to stop doubting him. More than that, he wanted to come and stay alone with me at home to chat, which was not clear.

I knew that in general, men are very jealous of what is theirs and they don't want to see anyone too close, even their friends or family members.

So Charles, John's little brother, out of respect for the fact that I was his brother's property, didn't he have to keep his distance? I wasn't too keen on this story of a brother-in-law who was too close to his sister-in-law, it seemed suspicious to me; but little by little, time would end up proving me right.

The big day approached finally, we were on the eve of our marriage, and John had made me sit to speak, he had the very serious mine.

- Honey.

- Yes baby, I'm listening.

- You know, tomorrow is a big day for us, we are going to say yes for life.

- Yes John, I can't wait for that moment to come; I can't wait to be in front of the mayor tomorrow and tell everyone that I am yours for the rest of my life.

- I can't wait for that moment either, but before that we have to have a serious talk.

- What's wrong, honey? You're scaring me already.

-I went to a priest yesterday to confess that I sinned by sleeping with you before the wedding. He congratulated me for confessing my sin and told me not to do it again, and therefore to wait until we were married, which we have since done. What he also told me was that we shouldalways be honest with GOD, and not try to hide anything from him, we should always be clear and without lies before him, in order to have a good relationship with him; so all this also made me think about us two

- What do you mean?

- Honey, we are about to take a very important step, we are going to be bound for life. So if we are going to be bound for the rest of our lives, I would like it to be without any secrets or secrecy. So here we are on the eve of our wedding; tell me without fear the truth, is there anything about you that I don't know? Have you ever cheated on me? Do you have a secret for me?

I was completely embarrassed by his question, I could not although I wanted to, confess to him that during all the period when he did not touch me, I slept with another to satisfy my s****l desires, he would not have forgiven me, I preferred to keep that to myself, I did not want to kill our marriage even before it had begun.

- I want you to know that you can tell me anything, no matter what it is; I'm ready to hear anything, as long as the truth comes out of your mouth and there are no secrets between us.

Although he said he was ready to hear everything, I doubted it, and I didn't want to take the risk. What I wanted to tell him instead was that I suspected his brother had eyes for me.

But you can imagine the chaos it would have caused, on the eve of the wedding, to tell John that her own little brother was fixated on me, and without any proof to back up my statements, I would have created unnecessary problems, so I preferred not to talk about that either.

As you know, saying that I had no secrets to tell him would have been just as suspicious, because it would have been like saying that I was perfect, which was impossible, so I absolutely had to tell him something, so that he wouldn't think that I was lying to him.

I then brought up our situation when we were still students.

- Yes, there is something I didn't tell you about, and it goes back a long way.

- I'm listening.

- When we were still in university; I was dating another boy at the same time as you.

He made a sigh that expressed a "I kind of expected it", then he asked me

-John: And how long did you continue to date him?

-ME: To answer your question in a general way, you're the only one I've been with since we got out of college together. And it's been three years now since we got out.

-John: Are you telling me the truth?

-ME: I swear on our love, and even on my life.

-John: If you say so, I believe you. Is that all? Is there nothing else?

-ME: No, nothing else.

- Okay, as far as I'm concerned, I'm like an open book in your hands, you know everything about me, I'm not hiding anything from you. But since it is necessary to tell all the truths in all the details, I just have to confess to you that I have a secretary who makes advances to me, but reassure you, I am yours, my heart and my body belong only to you.

- So I have nothing to fear?

- Absolutely nothing. If you want, you should even visit me at the office from time to time to mark your territory, so she'll know where she stands now.

- I'd be happy to do that!

I felt bad about lying to her, but I couldn't tell her the truth, on the eve of our wedding it would have ruined everything, and I didn't want that.

The next day was our wedding day, it was like a dream for me that was finally coming true, I was going to be the wife of the man I loved, it was the happiest day of my life, and neither my sisters-in-law who didn't love me, nor my suspicious brother-in-law, were going to spoil my joy that day.

We met in front of the mayor that day, and in front of everyone, in front of GOD and in front of men, we said yes for eternity, for sunshine and rain, for better or worse.

After the ceremony, Charles, my husband's little brother, came and told me:

- Welcome, you are now the wife of the family.

I had preferred to ignore and not to answer this derogatory anecdote, because I did not intend to let anything spoil my joy that day.

The wedding night was incredible, finally we could make love without John feeling guilty, it was a real liberation.

The whole first week of our marriage, we spent most of our time making love, yes, neither of us went out of the house, we spent our time enjoying this delicious fruit that is s*x, this fruit that we had deprived ourselves all this time.

Everything was fine, even if somewhere deep inside me, now that I could make love with John without any problems, and that he satisfied me, I regretted not having waited with him, and therefore having cheated on him during the time he abstained.

But that was behind me now, and I was determined to erase that past from my life, and to be the best possible wife for John.

The detail that I unfortunately forgot is that a past or a secret that you don't confess is like a bomb that you haven't defused; sooner or later it ends up exploding, so sooner or later this past ends up catching up with you, because there is no secret that shall not be revealed.

A month after my wedding, I received a call that I really didn't expect, it was Christian, you

remember, the one I was cheating on John with. I picked up the phone and he said to me in a sarcastic tone:

- I see you got married, well, this is a surprise...

- Yes, I'm married now

- Well I can't wait to find out what a married woman tastes like in bed. When are you coming home? I'm back.

- Get it out of your head Christian; it won't happen again.

- I see things have changed, he's making love to you now?

- Better than you anyway.

- That's right, I believe you... anyway, OK, it's as you like. But the day you feel like having a good time again, you know where and how to find me.

- Don't even think about it.

And I had hung up on him; I was determined to be an exemplary woman from now on, I had to be the best wife and wife there was for John my husband, this good and kind man who had always sincerely loved me and who continued to do so with all his heart and with all his being.

Ah who would have told me that true love could be real? It was so good, it was so beautiful, I just wanted it to never end.

But when you live with a lie, it always ends up ruining your life at some point, and that's what happened to me...

To be continued...