Ride or Die: The Alpha's Reckless Queen

Chapter 7: What Doesn't Scream

He didn't deny it. He just asked if I was going to scream.

He slid into the booth across from me, taking Nadia's abandoned seat like it belonged to him now, and folded his hands on the table with the deliberate calm of a man about to defuse something he'd rather not have to defuse in a public diner at lunchtime.

I noticed, absurdly, that his hands were steady. Mine weren't. I'd wrapped both of them around my own coffee mug just to have something to do with them, and even through the ceramic I could feel my pulse thudding hard enough to count.

"You could have picked somewhere more private for this," I said, mostly to fill the silence before it swallowed me whole.

"You could have waited for somewhere more private," he said, not unkindly. "But you cornered my pack's business in a diner booth in front of a witness, so here we are."

"Nadia's not a witness. She's my best friend."

"She's also terrified," he said, quiet. "Which tells me she already knew more than either of you have said out loud, and has been carrying it a long time without wanting to be the one to break it to you. I'd rather that weight land on me."

"Say it," I told him. "Whatever she was about to say. I want to hear you say it."

"Wolves," he said, and there was no hesitation in it at all, no softening, just the word laid flat on the table between us like a card he'd been holding for a very long time and had finally decided to play. "The Reapers aren't a motorcycle club that happens to keep to itself. We're a pack. I'm the Alpha. Every patch you've seen is a rank, not a decoration."

I stared at him. Some part of me had been braced for this — had been braced for something, ever since the tree line moved and the old man's eyes went animal over a rabbit — but hearing it said plainly, in a diner booth over abandoned coffee, still landed like a physical blow.

"Are you going to scream?" he asked again, and there was something almost gentle underneath the bluntness of it, like he genuinely didn't know which way this would go and had decided to ask rather than guess.

"No," I said, and surprised myself with how true it was. I wasn't afraid, not in the way I probably should have been. I was furious. "I'm not going to scream. I'm going to ask you why in the hell you let me move an insurance claim and half my life savings into a deal with a pack of werewolves without once mentioning the fact that you're a pack of werewolves."

Something shifted behind his eyes — not quite surprise, but adjacent to it, like he'd expected fear and gotten something else entirely and was recalibrating in real time.

"Would you have believed me," he said, "if I'd told you at the gate?"

"That's not the point."

"It's exactly the point." He leaned forward, and for the first time since I'd met him, there was something almost raw in his voice, some crack in the careful control he wore like a second skin. "You rode onto my land at one in the morning accusing my club of arson. If I'd told you the truth that night, you'd have written me off as either a liar or a lunatic. I needed you to trust the deal before I could ask you to trust the truth."

"That's a very convenient excuse for lying to me."

"It's not an excuse. It's a reason. There's a difference." He held my eyes, steady, unflinching, and something about the sheer weight of his attention made my anger stutter, just slightly, against my will. "I'm not going to apologize for protecting my pack's existence from someone I'd only just met. But I am telling you now. All of it. No more half-truths."

I sat with that for a long moment, turning it over, testing it for the lie I half expected to find underneath. I didn't find one. That, somehow, unsettled me more than if I had.

I thought about every horror movie I'd half-watched growing up, every campfire story about things that howled at the moon, and none of it matched the man sitting across from me with his steady hands and his careful, measured way of choosing every word like it cost him something to spend it. Whatever Ronan Vale was, he wasn't a monster out of a story. He was something stranger and more complicated than that — a man carrying the weight of an entire secret world on shoulders that, until an hour ago, I'd assumed belonged to an ordinary, if intimidating, biker.

"How many of you are there?" I asked, because it felt like the kind of practical question that might keep the rest of the fear at bay. "In the pack, I mean."

"Forty-three," he said. "Give or take. We've lost a few over the years. Gained fewer than we've lost."

Something in the way he said it — flat, final, carrying weight he didn't elaborate on — told me this wasn't a conversation for today, whatever the losses had cost him.

"Fine," I said finally. "I still want my garage rebuilt. Wolf or not. That part of the deal doesn't change."

"It changes a little," he said, and something in his tone made my stomach drop before he even finished the sentence. "The price just went up."

"Excuse me?"

"You know what we are now. That's not information I can let walk around unprotected, not with a rival pack already circling the fire that took your garage. I want you to stay on Reapers land while the rebuild happens. Not as a hostage. As someone under my protection, until this is resolved."

"That wasn't the deal."

"The deal changed the second you learned what we are," he said, and there was no apology in it, just a flat, immovable certainty that made me realize, for the first time, exactly how far out of my depth I'd swum. "For your safety. I won't budge on this, Rae."

"You don't get to just rewrite the terms because you feel like it."

"I'm not rewriting them because I feel like it. I'm rewriting them because a rival pack has already burned down one thing that belonged to you, and I'd rather not find out what they're willing to burn down next now that you know we exist." He leaned back, studying me with an expression I couldn't fully read, somewhere between exasperation and something gentler he didn't seem to want me to see. "You can be angry at me for the terms. I'd probably be angry too, in your position. But being angry doesn't make the danger less real."

I sat with that, turning the shape of it over in my head, hunting for the flaw in his logic and not quite finding one, which frustrated me almost as much as the demand itself.

"Fine," I said finally, the word tasting like defeat even though some part of me suspected it wasn't. "But I want to know everything. Every rule, every reason, every single thing you've been keeping from me. If I'm going to live on werewolf land, I'm not doing it blind."

"Agreed," he said, and something in the way he said it — quiet, almost relieved — told me this conversation had cost him more than his composed exterior wanted to admit.

We sat there a moment longer, the diner noise washing back in around us now that the worst of it had been said, and I found myself studying him the way I might study an engine I didn't yet understand — cataloguing the small tells, the places where the calm cracked just enough to show something underneath. He caught me looking and didn't look away, which unsettled me more than if he had.

"You're taking this better than I expected," he said finally.

"Give it time," I said. "I'm fairly sure the shock hasn't finished arriving yet. I'm just too stubborn to let it show."

Something that might have been the beginning of real warmth crossed his face, there and gone in an instant, like he wasn't sure yet whether he was allowed to enjoy this conversation as much as some part of him clearly did.