The Truth Hurts

upside down...

I was waiting for her impatiently, all the guests have gone except Adam and Riley, and I was avoiding Riley’s stares and talking to Adam as casually as I could.

“Bro, I’m gonna call it a night..” Adam said gesturing towards her and I knew what he meant

They were about to leave when Clar came into view and headed to our room. She looked exhausted, increasing my worries.

“Bro, what’s up with her.” I didn’t want this right now, I thought.

“It’s nothing…” I shrugged him off but his fiancée had other plans.

“Are you sure it’s nothing?” closing my eyes in desperation.

“Can you please drop it already.” Lost my temper, I all but shouted at her.

“What are you two talking about?” Adam asked confusedly

“I don’t wanna talk about anything, you both should better go.” I said ending that discussion and going into my room, I had other things in mind and they were more important than this..

I opened our room door and found her in the same dress, lying on the bed, her hair spreading in different directions and she was looking at the ceiling absent mindedly. I looked at her for a good 10 minutes, she wasn’t aware of my presence..

Am I looking at her for the first time, because it seemed so, something has changed in her but what was that…

I called her keeping my thoughts aside, “baby..” she kept looking at the ceiling, I tried again.. “Clar, I’m saying something..” sitting on the bed.

She moved her legs and put her foot on my chest, looking like a seductress, I was taken aback, never have I expected this boldness from her.

“Can we finish what we started earlier??”

“Baby, I…” who am I to refuse such an offer but still I had other things in my head..

“Do you want me or no??” cutting me off she asked again.

“Of course I do. What is wrong with you?”  in a second she got up and sat on my lap. Hissing in my ear that I talk too much.

She kissed my neck and I surrendered. In all honesty, for a second, I liked this bold Clara. Her lips and her hands were all over the place and I lost myself in her.

I couldn’t sleep that night. I kept thinking about her and her behavior, no one changes in a day. I really needed to figure out what’s running in her head. Holding her close to me, I whispered, “Sweetheart, what is up to you?” kissing her forehead, decided that I will talk to her first thing in the morning.

My alarm woke me up, breaking a dream in which I was running after Clara but she was out of my reach.. I sat up contemplating the dream I just had. I looked around for her but the bed was empty. She was standing in a corner wearing a black and pink track suit.

“Where to ??” I couldn’t help asking. Her newly found hobbies were giving me a headache.

“I’m going for a run.” She said nonchalantly.

“But why?” I sounded stupid to my own ears. I mean there is nothing wrong in being physically fit. Her sudden plans were my problem.

“Can’t I go for a run on my own. Seriously!! Do I need your permission??”  She got mad. I didn’t want that.

“Clar, this is not what I meant.”

“Then, what exactly do you mean?” She never had a temper.

“I think we need to talk.” There I said it.. 

“I don’t have time right now. I need to be there. I’m getting late.”

“Are you meeting someone? Is someone waiting for you?” I voiced my thoughts.

“I.. No, why do you think like that. I’m just going for a jog. I’m sick and tired of sitting at home, waiting for you and doing nothing. I’m just changing the ways I live. And I don’t think there is nothing wrong in that. You live your life and I live mine.” She said, leaving me frozen and walked off.

 My phone kept ringing but I ignored. I got ready in a daze, thinking about her words. Never knew that she was this affected from my work. She should have said, we would figure something out. I booked a boat for us, planned a romantic dinner….. send her a text

Be ready at 7:00.. love you

I couldn’t concentrate on my work thinking about her only. She looked hurt, why didn’t I notice anything before. I promised myself that I will right everything between us. She is the only one I have. I can’t afford to lose her. My work is important to me but she is equally important and she needed to know that. Whatever misunderstandings have come our way, I will fight them and I will get her back.

Her reply came and it broke me

I am busy, SORRY

I called her and she picked up on the forth ring. “Clar, may I know what are you busy with, today?” controlling my anger as much as I could.

“I’m going to see my mum.” She said after a pause.

As much as I wanted to stay clear head, she was making me doubt her actions.

 “You didn’t tell me.” Disappointment was clear in my tone.

“I feel bad but I had no idea that you were planning this.”

“Can you go some other time. I really want this dinner. I want us to spend some time together.” I almost pleaded.

“I am sorry. I really need to go. I made plans with her and she must be waiting for me, I can’t cancel now.”

“It’s okay. We will do this some other day. You go and enjoy your time with her. Be safe.” I fought my anger.

It is not her fault that I planned a dinner all of a sudden.

“Thanks. Sorry again.”

“It’s okay sweetheart. Love you.”

I got busy with work. and after the work decided to meet Adam.

………………………………………………

“look who came out of hibernation..!!” I entered the club and was welcomed by loud music and Adam’s sarcastic ways.  He was wearing denim jeans and a T-shirt. While I was still in my suit pants, just like my dressing I also feel out of place.  

“When are you going to behave decently.” I asked and we both shook hands. He took me to a vip corner. Sitting I asked him about his business to start a normal conversation but he had something else in mind.

“Did you two have a fight?” he said as I sat there.

“who?” I played innocent

“You and Clara. I know there is something wrong with you two.” He ordered us drinks.

“There is nothing wrong with us.” I said, opening my front buttons and placed my phone on the table, I was hoping for a call or message from her but it was not there. This feeling that she was going away, was so strong, it was getting impossible for me to fight it..

“Yeah right.. nothing is wrong and you came here because you were missing me.” He knew it. Of course he would.

“Stop behaving like an i***t and tell me what is bothering you.”

“I don’t know what is exactly bothering me.” Placing both my hands on my forehead in exasperation.

“Come on Man! Just tell me already.” Patting my back he said again.

“It’s Clara. She is behaving so odd these days. One minute she is so sweet and all and the next she is so distant. She even cancelled our date today. she never does that. She always agrees to what I say or do. I mean I don’t have any issue if she does what she wants. but she is changing all of a sudden. She started morning jogs, she is out of the house most of the time… and I don’t know what is she doing... she is.. she is….” I was out of breath but before I could say more, he said.

“I think she is having an affair.”

“whatttttttt….”