Forgiving the Alpha

Alpha Daxton

Since the Rogue attack everything has changed, but Alexis my wolf has really stepped up. We don't have time to grieve we have to take care of the pack. My dad was ready to retire and is so grief stricken from the death of our Alpha that he does not want to step in. I never saw this for my future, I imagined other things even though some would never happen, but I am Alpha Daxton Titan of the Crescent Moon Pack.

I want to maintain as much normalcy as possible while we plan the Alphas funeral and other pack members killed during the attack. Given how much anger and sadness I can feel through the pack link I have maintained the regular training routine. One thing I am changing is that all pack members should be trained to protect themselves, that was something me and Grayson disagreed on.

Our new ally from the shadows moon pack sent supplies and a group of warriors to aid, even though I don’t care for the Alpha it has been a good partnership. They were also joining us for our morning warrior training while some helped with the border patrol to relieve some of our warriors that were healing.

Warrior Hartwell was our lead warrior and trainer, he also wanted to maintain the schedule, I think for his own sanity. Even though it was awkward being around him at times he was very professional and never brought up Camie, the one decision I regret the most.

The first training group started at 8, I arrived early to greet pack members and make sure everyone was getting what they needed. Just before we started I over heard a pack member mention Camie and I started listening in on the conversation.

“Yeah Delilah told me she found her beating his ass for attaching her or something but it was the Shadow Moon Alpha, I don’t know if I believe she kicked his ass” before he could continue a growl amplified across the field from Warrior Hartwell to get them to start training.

I could barely focus the whole training round, I couldn’t stop thinking about Camie and if she really beat up an ally Alpha, if that was true this could be very bad if they know she is from our pack. As training wrapped up I paid close attention to Warrior Hartwell because he was very angry and I was not sure if it was about the attack or Camie.

“Warrior Hartwell I just wanted to tell you thank you for your hard work, I know what happened is unexpected but I want to continue working with you and make sure more of your ideas about training and patrol are incorporated”

He gave me a nod “Thank you Alpha Daxton, I know you will honor or past Alphas and continue to keep our pack strong but I am afraid I have to go I need to make a phone call”

“Is there anything I can help with”, he shock his head “Nothing to worry about Alpha if there is anything to report I will let you know” and then he walked away from the training grounds.

Camie

After my dad called me

I jumped out of bed and checked the class schedule for the boxing gym, great there is a class I can go to at 11:30. As I am getting ready dad keeps calling my phone but I do not answer and put my phone on do not disturb. I showered to help wash away my stained tears and changed into my blue leggings and matching sports bra with crop top. I forced by self to eat a granola bar even though I had no appetite.

I also packed a change of clothes and my school bag so I could study after.

The boxing class is always really easy but I am able to spar with individuals after the work out and go hard on the bag by myself. I teach a few classes a week as well to help pay for the membership and extra time outside of classes.

When Bia needs to run we hike into the foothills from the trails but have to be really careful not to be seen and can’t do it often.

After my individual sparring Delilah was waiting for me (‘go easy on her, she loves you and didn’t know telling someone would turn out the way it did’)

“Camie are you okay, your phone is not ringing through and the pack and your Dad keeps calling me to see if I can check in on you” I sat down next to her and looked down at the floor

“I am not okay, I can’t believe that they see me as the problem again when its other peoples choices that force me to protect myself” She grabs my hand and holds it for a few minutes, sitting in silence with me while a few tears fall.

(‘We are both here for you, don’t treat us like them, You know I will always be here’ I am trying Bia I really am)

Delilah breaks the silence “well whatever you said to your dad he is worried about your safety and wants you back at the pack so they can keep you safe” (‘ha they wont keep us safe, you should tell her what happened’ No it doesn’t matter anymore ‘it matters more now than ever’)

“I can’t return not knowing what they think of me, I am going to shower and change. Do you want to go to the coffee shop with me?” She smiles and nods

The water falls down my back, shooting my muscles when I start to go into the fog again.