Chapter 20 - Novak
ANGRY DID NOT BEGIN to cover what I was feeling in that moment. As I slammed the door to Maddie’s apartment behind me there was a sense of finality that shook my system to the core. The idea that somehow everything I had experienced with Maddie was a lie was almost too much for me to bear. Emotions swamped me until I wasn’t even sure what I was thinking.
Was I angry with her for lying to me? Or upset at the idea that the baby wasn’t mine? Should I feel relieved about the whole thing—or was this a moment to feel betrayed?
I wasn’t certain, but there was one little thing that I couldn’t quite put out of my head: what if Maddie was lying? Not then, not before when she told me she had been a virgin and that I had been her very first. No, instead, what if it was just now t
