Falling for Him

Broken Pieces

I stand looking between Allison and Ben. Ben leans against the bathroom door frame and stares at me up and down as if waiting for a reaction; his devious smile still lingering. Allison has tears streaming down her face; she takes a step toward me but I raise my hand to her making her stop dead in her tracks. The pain I feel makes me start to shiver where I stand and I feel tears building in my eyes but I try to fight them down. My eyes blink rapidly; hoping this wasn’t real and this image before me would disappear. My best friend.. and the person I loved; the image is revolting.

“How..” my voice cracks; I try to keep myself together.

“How could you?” My gaze on Allison, and my eyebrows furrowed.

“E.. I-I” Allison’s voice only irritates my ears and I can no longer bear to be here taking this in. I turn on my heels and head to the door, I hear Allison calling after me but I just can’t do this right now. I leave without looking back, I get in my car and start driving. I’m driving and my mind races on. How could she? How could they.. do that to me? I’m trying to hold myself together; then it dawns on me, I don’t have anywhere to go. I rack my brain for what must be minutes until I decide to go to the hospital. My hands are gripping the steering wheel tightly as a million questions come into my mind. How long has this been going on? What if I didn’t just catch them? Why why why.

I get to the hospital; I am unable to get out of the car. My head is swirling and my hands are still glued to the steering wheel. I try to take deep breaths in an attempt to clear my mind so I’m able to move but it’s no use. Tears begin to flood my eyes and I feel my self slipping away. Just make it inside Elise. I say to myself in my head. I stumble out of the car and make my way to the entrance. My head hangs low and my arms wrap around my body in an effort to hold myself up. I’m almost there, I feel myself beginning to crumble as the tears are not willing to wait until I am behind closed doors. Someone approaches from the opposite direction and I pick up my pace; hoping to go unnoticed and reach my office.

“Elise?” The person’s voice rings in my ears. I hold my head up and see Russell’s blue eyes full of question.

“Are you okay?” He asks walking closer to me with his eyebrow raised. I’m unable to maintain eye contact, my fingernails dig into my skin as I’m trying to hold my pieces together but I fail. Tears begin to pour out of my eyes and I cry out in pain. Russell runs to me and holds my face in his hands forcing me to meet his eyes.

“Hey.. I’ve got you” his thumbs try to wipe away my tears but his efforts are in vain as they continue to pour out.

“I’ll take you home” he searches my eyes but I vigorously shake my head.

“No!” My lips begin to tremble. I am cracking, my knees get weak. One of his hands leave my face and wrap around my waist holding me against his body as I cry into his chest.

“Let’s get you out of here” he whispers into my ear. He takes off his jacket and places it on me. He lifts me effortlessly and carries me bridal style to his car. He rests me down gently and buckles me in. We begin to drive and I see Russell looks in my direction every now and then from the corner of my eye. We don’t speak and just sit in silence as I try to sob quietly. We arrive at a building and enter an underground car park, Russell comes around to open the door for me; I lift myself out and he closes the door. He goes to lift me like he did before but I push him gently on his shoulder.

“I can walk..” I mutter as I wipe my tears and nose with the back of my hand.

“This way” he directs me with his hand to the elevator. He takes the lead and I follow closely behind him. The elevator doors close and I keep my eyes directed to the floor to avoid his gaze. We ride the elevator and the only sound I can hear is our breathing, I think Russell is about to say something when the doors open. He holds out his hand for me to take, and I do. He leads me into a luxurious condo; I don’t have time to take in the beautiful space as he leads me up the stairs and into a bedroom.

“There’s the bathroom” he points to the door in the corner of the room. I walk over to the floor length windows and take in the amazing view of the city lights.

“I’ll bring something for you to sleep in.. tomorrow I’ll get you some clothes” he says behind me and I hear the door close shortly after. I turn and see he has left. I make my way to the bathroom, it’s large and beautifully decorated with white and green tiles and a large shower. I undress and head to the shower, avoiding my reflection in the mirror not wanting to meet my vulnerability. I stand under the stream of water cold water, wanting to feel numb to everything, letting it run from my head to my feet. I feel my eyes fill with tears once again but fighting them is useless. I wash myself like I had been covered in mud trying to wash away the pain I felt. I step out and grab one of the towels folded by the sink and dry myself before wrapping it around my frame. As I exit the bathroom I see Russell fixing something on the bed, he freezes as I close the door behind me. He hesitantly turns to my direction, as his eyes fall on me I see them get darker as they run down my body before they come up to meet mine.

I want him to numb my pain. I saunter over to him never breaking my gaze. I stop when I have to look up at him and I hear his breath hitch as I place my arms around his neck. I pull his head down so that his lips brush against mine. He shudders as I place a gentle kiss on his soft lips. I move back a little to see his face before I dart my eyes back to his lips and I place another; he reciprocates, his hand comes around my waist pulling me closer to him and his other hand rests on my face as his thumb runs along my jaw. He tilts his head deepening our kiss, I gasp at the action and his tongue invades my mouth. His grip tightens around my waist as he kisses me harder and my fingers trail the nape of his neck before running through his hair. Suddenly, he stops and pulls himself away from me; I immediately miss his touch. I bite my lip and I watch his eyes become even darker at the action.

“No..” his voice husky with lust.

“You’re hurting El..” his eyebrows furrow and I can see him trying to restrain himself. I meet his eyes and slowly unwrap the towel from around me and let it fall to my feet, revealing my bare skin to him, while maintaining my gaze. He tries to keep his eyes on mine but I watch him fail miserably. His eyes run down my naked form slowly like he was touching me with his eyes and I hear him curse under his breath. He tears his eyes away from me, turning his back to me and runs his fingers through his hair in frustration. I walk towards him and place my hand on his shoulder.

“Look at me” I whisper to him as I run my hand from his shoulder to his fingertips, intertwining my fingers with his. He doesn’t move, I walk around him still holding his hand. When I am face to face with him once again I press his hand against my thigh and he releases a deep sigh. He stands still with his eyes intently on mine, I place my hand over his and guide it upwards to touch my a** and I press his fingers down for him to squeeze it and he does. I continue to guide his hand up to my waist and bring it up to cup my breast, his breathing is shaky and it is only a matter of time before he gives in to my torture. I place my free hand around his neck and pull him to me making my breasts crash against his chest. In a swift movement he lifts me up and I instinctively wrap my legs around his waist and both my arms around his neck. He walks us over to the bed and his eyes never leave mine. He lays me down gently and my head rests on the soft pillow, he comes to hover above me taking me in before crashing his lips against mine. He bites and pulls my lip eliciting a moan from me and he groans in satisfaction. Our kiss is intense and takes my breath away, I fist my hands into his shirt and pull him close to me, feeling his bulge press against my nakedness and we both groan at the contact. My hands come up and begin to unbutton his shirt, I get through two buttons before he grabs my wrists and breaks our kiss.