The Key To My Heart

Chapter 4 Dylan

 Dylan

Once in the car, I shut my eyes tightly and breathe out the air I didn't even know I was holding in.

‘’You ok?’’ A worried Eddie asks me.

‘’No, f**k me but this was f*****g hell.’’  I sighed, still with my eyes shut.

‘’I take it that was him?’’ Eddie says to me, I open my eyes to find him staring at the diner.

I look at the diner myself, and saw Ash still standing there my heart started pumping faster just at the sight of him, with his blue eyes, a small mustache with a matching goatee and dark brown hair. Very nicely build chest, not a hint of fat in his body.

Why the hell couldn’t he gotten fat and gone bald?

‘’Wow dude, you still got it bad.’’ Eddie chirps, snapping me out of my thoughts.

I frowned Eddie was right, I have it bad for Ash and I needed to stop it.

‘’Yeah, but nothing's change we’re still going to the High school reunion and then we go back to our life.’’ I finish croon and avoided Eddie’s gaze.

I put my seat belt on and started the engine, I kept going around and around in my head thinking back to outside the diner, the way he looked at me, the way he was glaring at Eddie when I hugged him.

Why was he acting like a jealous boyfriend?

Why did my heart jump every time I remember the way he acted?

'Because you love him and deep down you want him to love you back'.

A little voice in the back of my head said this.

I sigh yeah it was true; I wish it wasn’t, but it was.

But it wasn’t going to happen, he dumped me and got married, he made his choice.

‘’D, are you going to be ok?’’ Eddie whispers loud enough for me to hear, as if it was taboo to speak loudly, I turned to make eye contact with him, and found that he was looking at me, with compassion in his eyes.

‘’Yeah I'll be ok, tomorrow is the reunion and Sunday all day we go have fun and on Monday we go back to reality.’’ I tried to sound happy, but I couldn’t, as I parked the car in my parents driveway, Shut off the engine and went inside, without speaking to anyone, I just wanted to be alone, so I continue to go up to my room and on to my bed, sleep took me and I let it.

I had no energy left; today's event took what was left of it.

For years I fought these feelings towards Ash and wanted to hate him, but I couldn't.

I loved that boy back in high school, just like I love the man now. And it hurts like a b***h that I can't f*****g have him.