The Key To My Heart

Chapter 10

Ash

I was currently working as a photographer for some magazines. And I have to say I love it. Never in my life have I felt so free, only one thing missing though, as I look around my little studio apartment I wished Dylan was here with me, of course that was ridiculous since Dylan has money he probably owns a f*****g mansion, when I’m in this little apartment, it was a whole room with a love seat, in front of it was a flat screen on the wall, behind the couch a few feet away was the stove and fridge and a small section of a counter, and off to the side was my queen size bed, the only place that has a door besides the front door to get in and out was the small bathroom and it only had the toilet, sink and a stand up shower, yeah nothing extravagant.

But it was mine, I was happy and when I got my divorce papers already sign and processed it made me beyond happy.

Until I remember that I had lost Dylan. Then I felt sad again, he's probably already married and in his honeymoon.

I sigh and grab my coat to go to a bar to drink my sorrows away, like I've been doing for the last couple of months.

Later at the club, I was minding my own business, I order a drink and took a seat on an empty booth away from people it was a gay bar called ‘‘Triangle’’ (totally made the name up).

They were guys dancing, well more like rubbing each other, and so did girls.

I usually get a few offers some for dancing, a few to take me home and others to just take me behind an alley and f**k my brains out, their words not mine.

I sigh, I guess I was meant to die a virgin, yes me Ash Washington was still a virgin, and I’ve never slept with Maddie, and never slept with man.

‘’Ash?’’ I tense lightly when I heard that voice, I turn slowly to the source of that voice and it shock me to find Conner staring at me.

‘’Conner, what are you doing here?’’ I question him.

‘’I’m here for the wedding, you've been here? In New York all this time?’’ He asks me and narrow his eyes at me, I of course stop caring after he mention the wedding, wait does that mean they're here too.

‘’Are you alone?’’ I panic looking at him, he raises his eyebrow in amusement.

‘’Yeah, me and some friends, so hey what have you been up to?’’ He responds.

‘’Not much, I’m a photographer now for the magazine vogue.'' I pipe proudly.

‘’Wow man that’s awesome, I guess congratulations to you bro, so you got a man in your life?’’  He questions me, and my smile drops.

‘’No.’’ I answer sadly.

‘’Good, then I guess you can make it to the wedding.’’ Is he f*****g crazy, I couldn't, I mean s**t I'll be tempted to stop the f*****g wedding.

‘’I don’t think that’s a good idea, Conner.’’ I said sadly, feeling defeated.

‘’Oh, dear lord, you don't know do you?’’ He looks at me and I look back at him confuse.

‘’What are you talking about?’’ I felt as if me and Conner were talking about two different things.

For a bit he stayed quiet staring at me, then he smiles and shook his head, he then connects his gaze with mine and smiles.

‘’I think that you my dear Ash, should show up to the wedding. Before the 'bride' says I do, and you should yell how much you love him, I think Dylan loves you too, in fact I know it, dude he went after you but you were gone already, so here is the address, show up be the romantic, be the hero and get the man of your life, back.’’ He told me and grinned widely at me.

‘’When is the wedding?’’ I whisper while looking at the paper with the address.

‘’In a week, don’t be a coward, show up and claimed Dylan, so that HE can be happy too.’’ He chirps and turn around to walk away, I glance at the paper with the address for the wedding once again, and Conner's cellphone number, drained of energy I got up and went back to my place.

All these questions were running through my mind.

Should I try and get Dylan back?

Should I stop the wedding?

Is Dylan not happy with Eddie?

And why is Conner here? I didn’t think he and Dylan were that close for him to be invited to the wedding. I guess I was wrong.

Only one answer made me happy in my mind, Yes, I should try and get my Dylan back, what could I lose? If he turns me down at least I tried.

Dear gods please don’t let him turn me down.