There Were all The Signs

6. Letting Go

Miller

    After dinner Sam and Sarah head to the bathroom and everyone else heads outside. Marcus and John wait behind for the girls since they drove together.

    "Hey Marcus, can I talk to you for a second?" I ask

    "Sure man." He gets up from his seat and we walk over towards the bar.

    "Hey I just wanted to have a quick word with you about Sam."

    "Sure, what about her?"

    "Well I don't know if I am reading it wrong but it seems like you may like her. Like, like her in a way that isn't just about friendship."

    "And would that be a problem?"

    "No I just want to know."

    "Well it really isn't any of your business but since you are my cousin and her best friend, I guess it was only a matter of time before you give me the big brother talk. I do like her. She is the most intriguing girl I have ever met. She can be your best friend and share hobbies with you but then she can set your soul on fire when she lets that beauty out to shine for all to see. I am more than just interested in her I am ready to openly pursue her."

    "Look I understand the attraction but I am asking if you don't see a future with her please, just don't. This could get really awkward for me if it doesn't work out. I don't want to have to lose my best friend because her and my cousin have a really bad break up or you take advantage of her."    

    "Whoa! When have you known me to ever take advantage of a girl?"

    "Never but I am just saying.."

    "I get what you are saying but let me make this clear to you. Sam is an amazing person, I hardly know her and I am infatuated. She is everything I can think I would ever want in a wife and I don't know how you kept her in the friend zone all these years. I have no intentions on hurting her now, or ever. I plan on asking her out on a real date and we will see what she says and where it will go from there. You have my permission whether the relationship ends on good or bad terms to stay friends with her and cousin's with me. I won't put you in the middle of it. So...no problems with me asking her out."

    "You're right. No problems go ahead."

    "Hey since you are her best friend, can you tell me what her favorite flower is?"

    "Plumeria. You can't really get them here. She loves Jasmine and Gardenia for the smell and the next favorite she thinks is beautiful is Tiger Lillies."

    "Thanks man."

    "Hey, just so you know if she is going to end up with someone I am happy it is someone who will treat her as well as you." I pull him into a hug. I mean it, he is the best man I know and I know he will be so good to Sam. I still feel a little pang in my heart thinking of her in a relationship but I also know I can't be her big brother that scares off all the potential dates. 

    "When are you going to ask her out?"

    "Maybe tonight when we get back to the house."

    "Ok I will see you guys back there, I am going to go catch up with the rest."

Sam

    Sarah and I come out of the bathroom and I see Miller walking away from Marcus. 

    "Hi ladies. You ready to head home?"

    "Actually we are going to head out for a few more drinks. We can take an Uber from here," Sarah responded knowing I would probably chicken out.

    "Nonsense, John and I can escort you. I mean I am up for a few more drinks and I am sure that John would be too. What do you say? Want a few gentlemen to escort you?"

    "Well, I wouldn't say that we need or want an escort, but it is a free country and if you wish to tag along, who are we to say you can not," Sarah responded flirtatiously. 

    "I find it would make me most fortunate to spend my evening with two such beautiful and intelligent ladies," Marcus says to Sarah while smiling at me. He is good.

    John agrees to drinks as well. Twenty minutes later we are exiting the vehicle in front of a Jazz club downtown. If I was choosing a place I probably wouldn't have picked something so classy but it would do. The place reminds me of a 1920's Speakeasy. There was a live band, piano, checkered black and white floors, crystal chandeliers and a bar that was fully stocked. The crowd looked more sophisticated and older than the clubs I am used to. The atmosphere was surprisingly fitting for me. I am really liking the vibe.

    "What would you ladies like to drink?" John asks.

    "I will take a vodka, cranberry," Sarah responds.

    "And you?" Marcus asks leaning in to whisper in my ear. His breath sends tingles down my body. I feel like there was way more hidden under that question besides my drink selection.

    "I'll take a Jack and Coke," I whisper back. He just shakes his head slightly and smiles.

    Sarah and I chose a hightop table with four chairs by the band and dance floor but not too close that we won't be able to hear each other. There is actual dancers in flapper dresses and suites, dancing to the band in twenty's fashion. I find myself smiling and truly enjoying the show. I have found myself wishing I was born in a different era all the time and the Twenties is one of my top picks. 

    "I have never been to a place like this," Sarah says staring out at the dance floor in awe.

    "I know. I wouldn't have thought this was my type of place but I am really liking it."

    "Me too. Does that mean we are getting old?"

    "Maybe, but we are very much young," I say laughing.

    "I know, I think we are the youngest in here. By the way how old are the guys here with us? Do you know?"

    "Well John is about two years older than I am and Marcus is just a year older."

    "SO..is it Marcus then?"

    "What do you mean is it Marcus?"

    "Look I can tell he is in to you. Like really into you. If you would let him he would fall at his knees and kiss your feet and I know you see it too. So are you going to continue to play coy or are you going to step up to the plate with your big girl panties on and do something with that handsome hunk of meat?

    "Sarah you can be so crass sometimes."

    "I just call it like I see it and there is so much s****l tension between the two of you. Why don't you just give it a chance? What will it hurt?"

    "You know.."

    "Miller!"

    "Yes, Miller."

    "Girl he is married, you have to move on. I swear you have been waiting for him for as long as I have known you."

    "I know. But I can not lose him."

    "So just tell Marcus your fear. I am sure he will be ok with it."

    "I am sure too but, I am not sure that I will be."

    "Sam, it has been far too long. I know that secretly you have held off having relationships because you have always been waiting for Miller but he has moved on and so should you."

    "I know."

    "And Marcus seems like a great guy and he seems to really like you."

    "I know."

    "Well you better decide something soon because the boys are back with our drinks."

    "Here you go ladies," John says with a big smile on his face, setting our drinks in front of us.

    "Thanks, handsome. Would you like to dance?" Sarah asks him seductively, skimming her fingers over his hand before he can pull it away from her drink.

    "I would love to."

    Sarah leans into me and says, "It's that easy." She takes John's hand and they walk to the dance floor to join in.

    "Well I see trouble brewing between those two," Marcus says while taking the seat next to me.

    "Believe me Sarah can handle her own."

    "I have no doubt about that. How about you?"

    "What about me?" I turn to look him in the face.

    "Do you handle your own? You going to finally tell me what it is that you do with boys now?"

    "Well it is a secret so I'll have to whisper it in your ear," I lean in to his ear, I can smell his cologne and he smells like temptation. I can hear his breath catch a bit and I let my lips come in contact with his ear and I whisper, "I give them pleasure and I allow them to give me pleasure too," and then I bravely lick the outside of his ear.

    Before I know what has happened I am pulled to him and his mouth is on mine. He is aggressive. His right hand is tangled in my hair and his left is gripping my hip. My lips will be swollen, my hip will be bruised but I will remember that I was wanted. It's been two years and I am ready to devour him.

    Marcus breaks the kiss and whispers, "God, I have never felt this much desire for someone. You are driving me crazy."

    I just smile and recapture his lips. I am throwing caution to the wind, I like him and he likes me and I am attracted to him, as of this moment that is all I care about.

    Our kiss deepens, I can feel my heart rate picking up and I feel myself getting turned on. I want him but we need to have our talk. I pull away this time and he groans.

    "Before you take me home, I need to talk to you."

    "Ok?"

    "Look remember when you asked me to forget that you are Miller's cousin and give you a chance?"

    "Yes?"

    "Well you being Miller's cousin, I realized is the only reason why I haven't given in to you. I am attracted to you there is no doubt about that and you are sweet. The thing is I worry about losing Miller as a friend if we don't work out. If he is forced to chose a side he will for sure chose family."

    "I like to think of both of us being more mature than that. We don't need to let anything that happens between us determine our relationships with our friends. I won't deny that I want you, I want you more than anything but I also care about you. I don't want to see you hurt. Wether this is a one night thing or something more I promise I won't let it come between you and Miller."

    "Then take me back to the cabin," I say looking up through my lashes at him. I am nervous but over all I am wanton.

    Marcus runs off to tell John we are leaving. He and Sarah decide to stay but she comes over to let me know that she plans on hooking up with John as well. We both seem to be forgoing our room to occupy our suitors rooms for the night. We end up taking the car and they are going to Uber back later, since they are enjoying dancing. 

    We arrived back at the cabin and I feel myself getting more nervous. We quietly make it up to Marcus's room with no run ins with other residents. I walk in after him and shut the door behind me, leaning my back against it. Marcus takes off his suit jacket and lays it across a chair and then turns around and looks at me while undoing his tie. I slip off my heels, losing four inches of height, and kick them to the side. 

    "You ok?"

    "Yeah, a little nervous."

    "Why would you be nervous?"

    "To tell the truth I haven't done this very much and it has been awhile."

    "How long is awhile?" He asks stalking towards me.

    "Two years," I reply blushing and then telling myself I shouldn't be embarrassed that I don't sleep around and I lift my head higher, daring him to make fun of me. But his eyes only darken further with desire.

    He reaches me and pulls his tie off. He kisses my neck and reaches behind me locking the door. Then his left hand skims up the side of my body until he reaches my neck and he caresses me there. His lips take mine and he whispers across them, "You want me to help?"

    I am breathy, my heart rate is erratic, I am so turned on and so nervous. "Help me what?"

    "Relax," he says and then bites my bottom lip. He releases my lip and then licks where he just bit. "f**k, you are so f*****g enchanting."

    "Help me," I say my desire out living my fear.

    He raises his right hand that hasn't been in action and I see his tie still in it. He takes the tie and covers my eyes with it, while he is tying it around my head he whispers, "Just feel. You don't have to see what is happening, you don't have to think. You can imagine whatever you want to, just let me make you feel good."

    I have never done this before but some how as soon as I can no longer see I feel less nervous. His lips trail down my jawline and neck, to my collarbone and I can't help the moan that escapes me. He kisses over my shoulder and then I feel the strap of my dress fall off my shoulder and then he kisses to my other shoulder and the same happens with that strap. With the fall of the second strap the top of my dress falls and my chest is free. With a little push from Marcus the dress falls to the floor and puddles at my feet leaving me only in my panties. Usually I would be trying to hide under the covers by now, because while I am brave in most aspects of my life I am shy when it comes to these things, but with the blindfold I don't see myself or him to be worried about his reaction or how I look.

    "You are so gorgeous," he whispers across my skin. His hands cup my breasts and then I feel his warm mouth cover one and suck, causing my panties to pool. I let out another moan. "I am falling in love with that sound. Let me make you do it some more." Before I know what is happening, he lifts me off the floor in cradle position and then I was being laid on clouds of softness. Must be the bed.

    There is a void, I don't feel him and I can't see so I rely on another sense and I can hear some sounds. I realize the sound is him taking his clothes off. I am panting with want. I feel the bed dip and then I feel his breath on me. Light kisses flow across my skin. I feel a feather touch skim down my stomach to my panty line and then under. His fingers skimmed across my lips ever so lightly and I gasp. 

    "Do you like that?"

    "Yes!"

    I feel his fingers touch my bundle and my whole body comes alive. My legs twitch, from a single stroke. I want him inside me now.

    "Marcus, please."

    "Don't rush it babe. It's been too long for you, you need to remember how to enjoy this," he whispers against my stomach, making his way down kiss by kiss. 

    His hands come out of my panties and then I feel them being pulled off my hips and down my legs. I am fully exposed and again I feel less shy not seeing that I am laid bare. His hands knead up my legs and then when he reaches my thighs he lifts them up and apart, spreading me. I feel his breath against me and then I hear him take a deep breath.

    "You smell like honey. You are so wet baby." I feel a kiss on my inner thigh, one then the other. After the second kiss he nips the flesh he just kissed and his fingers penetrate me. 

    "Ahh," I gasp scream.

       He stops moving, "You ok?"

    "Yeah just been awhile go slow."

    "I plan on it. I plan on taking all night." 

    With those words he starts a slow rhythm with his fingers and then I again feel his breath on my core. All my senses seem to intensify again and then I feel his warm mouth finally connect with my c**t. First it's a few licks and then it is a small kiss and finally he sucks me into his mouth having me scream out again. I don't think I have ever felt like this before. I don't remember s*x ever being this way, or a guy spending so much time trying to please me. 

    "Marcus!"

    "Ummm, my name falling from your lips has made me even harder than I already am. Say it again," he said and returned to what he was doing while picking up his speed. I feel like my head is spinning. I can't catch my breath and my body starts to jerk.

    "Marcus, what's...oh God, what's happening?" I let go of what I am holding back relaxing my muscles and then I am soaring, my body is shaking and I have euphoria coursing through me. I have never felt this but I don't want it to stop.

    "That's right Sam, ride it out baby. So sexy, keep coming for me." He keeps his pace but then he pulls his fingers out and I feel his tongue swipe lower and I feel it enter where his fingers just came from. I have never had anyone do that before but I can't imagine anything feeling better. I grab for anything around me, trying to hold myself to the ground as I feel like I was going to float away.

    "Marcus..so good."

    "You taste like honey too. So sweet. You ready for me now?"

    "Yes, please."

    I feel the bed move again and then I feel a presence hovering over me and then Marcus moves my legs so they are around his waist. "Hold on to me."

    I reach up and take the blindfold off, meeting his eyes, my arms circling his neck and I pull him towards me locking our lips. "I want to see you."

    We stare into each others eyes and I feel him at my entrance and then he breaches it. There is a bit of sharpness like before, it has been awhile and I feel like he might be bigger than the boys I had in the past. Once he is fully in he stops.

    "You ok?"

    I take a big gulp and nod my head yes. He just stares at me and then I realize he is waiting for verbal verification.

    "Marcus, move."

    He doesn't wait for anything else he starts his slow retreat and stretches and pulls all my muscles inside. He is hitting everything and I have never felt anything this amazing.

    "You are so tight. God I don't know how long I can last."

    "You're so big, I can feel you touching me everywhere."

    I tighten my grip around his neck and waist and he starts to pick up speed. I realize that I am going to c*m again. I also realize earlier that I slipped and told him I hadn't ever done that before but I am not sure he noticed. 

    "Sam, let me please you. Let go! I can't much longer."

    At his words I feel a streak of light cross my vision and I throw my head back screaming his name as I fall apart again, in his arms. Then I hear him say my name, while inside me to the hilt. I feel his release inside me as he kisses me again.

    We are both drenched. My limps are dead to the world and it doesn't take long for my mind to follow and pull me into a deep sleep. I feel the bed shift but am unable to wake or open my eyes. I also feel a cold cloth between my legs and then covers draped over me and lastly arms pulling me into a hard chest. I feel safe and I sleep.