PROLOGUE
585 Words
July
There was a peculiar kind of loneliness that arrived after midnight.
It wasn’t the loneliness of an empty room.
It was the loneliness of finally realizing that the life you’d imagined no longer existed.
By July, Evelyn Hart was already twenty-four years old.
Old enough to know that healing wasn’t something that arrived one ordinary morning and announced itself at the door.
Old enough to understand that people could leave long before they physically walked away.
Old enough to recognize the woman staring back at her in the mirror—and yet still feel like she was searching for the girl she used to be.
People often told her she had a beautiful smile.
She had perfected it over the years.
It appeared in photographs.
It greeted strangers.
It reassured family members who asked if she was doing alright.
It concealed more than it revealed.
But these days,those smiles were hard to find.
Most of the time,she was gloomy,happy for some days,but sunken in sadness and loneliness,
searching for pieces of herself she lost while giving herself away too much.
Outside her apartment window, rain gathered against the glass in slow, uneven trails, blurring the city lights into soft streaks of gold.
Summer storms always arrived without warning.
She liked that about them.
People expected rain to announce itself.
It never did.
Perhaps heartbreak was the same.
Her phone lay face down on the bed beside her.
It hadn’t buzzed in hours.
She had promised herself she would stop checking it.
She failed every few minutes.
Not because she expected a message anymore.
But because hope had become a habit.
And habits are stubborn and often the last things we learn to let go.
She reached for the phone anyway.
The screen remained dark.
She laughed under her breath.
A quiet, almost embarrassed laugh.
“You really need to stop doing that.”
No one answered.
She felt mostly alone now.
The silence had become familiar enough that it no longer startled her, yet unfamiliar enough that it still hurt.
Sometimes she wondered when exactly she’d begun measuring her worth by whether someone stayed.
It certainly hadn’t happened overnight.
No one wakes up one morning believing they must earn love.
That belief grows slowly.
One disappointment at a time.
One unanswered message.
One broken promise.
One goodbye after another.
By twenty-four, Evelyn wasn’t healed.
She wasn’t broken either.
She existed somewhere in between.
Still learning where she ended and everyone she had ever loved began.
Still trying to remember who she had been before she started confusing devotion with self-sacrifice.
She often imagined healing as reaching the top of a mountain.
Instead, it felt like wandering through a forest with no map.
Some mornings she could see sunlight through the trees.
Other mornings she wasn’t even sure she was moving.
She closed her eyes.
Rain tapped gently against the window.
Somewhere downstairs, a couple laughed as they hurried through the storm beneath the same umbrella.
Once, she would have imagined herself there.
Now she simply watched.
People assumed heartbreak came from losing someone.
They were wrong.
The deepest heartbreak came from losing pieces of yourself while trying to convince someone else not to leave.
She had done that more times than she cared to admit.
It had started years ago.
Long before she knew the names of the men who would reshape her life.
Long before she learned that being chosen wasn’t the same as being cherished.
Long before she mistook waiting for love.
- Writer
