Prologue.
666 Words
They say physical death is a violent thing.
They say jumping off a cliff, feeling the wind tear at your clothes before the impact, is a terrifying way to go. They say plunging into a tub, letting the water fill your lungs until everything goes black, or feeling the cold bite of steel against skin are the ultimate forms of suffering.
But they are wrong.
Those are easy.
Those are just quick, desperate exits out of a burning room.
If there is one thing in this universe that can truly kill you, slice you open from the inside out and leave you completely hollowed, it is being forced to stay alive. It is the agonizing curse of drawing breath, standing under the bright, blinding studio lights of reality, and being forced to watch.
Watch her be happy with someone else.
Watch her rest her head on someone else’s shoulder. Watch her feel safe, cherished, and whole in someone else’s arms. Nothing is more painful than that.
Over the last five years, I have lived like a ghost, observing the world from the shadows and dissecting the anatomy of love. I’ve seen it all.
I’ve seen Selfish Love— the kind that claws and tears, doing whatever it takes to keep a person close, completely blind to right or wrong, driven entirely by possession.
I’ve seen Manipulative Love— the kind that wraps around your throat with sweet words and grand promises of a golden future, making you believe that the entire world is empty except for them, rewriting your truths with beautiful, calculated lies until everyone else is pushed away.
I’ve seen Obsession— the terrifying, feral kind of love that demands total submission, where "no" is treated as a declaration of war, and people lose their minds, or worse, end lives just to keep what they claim is theirs.
And then, there is Selfless Love.
The most brutal, devastating type of all.
How does a person survive it?
How do you manage to look at the center of your universe and willingly step away, simply because you know someone else can give them a better future?
Someone with a higher status, a cleaner slate. Someone who can love them better, treat them better, and give them the life you never could.
I thought I was being noble when I left Bangkok. I thought loving someone who was entirely out of my league meant that being hurt was worth it, so long as she was protected.
“I love you so much that it hurts me to let you go," I had told myself in the silence of my mind, "but if that’s the only right thing I can do for you, then the pain is mine to bear.”
I believed five years of disappearance would bury the ashes. I believed time would rewrite the script.
I was wrong.
The exact moment our eyes met on set, the heavy, suffocating weight of everything I thought I had laid to rest came roaring back to life. It terrified me.
It paralyzed me.
Because the girl from the convenience store isn't a student anymore. She is a woman. She is a co-star. And worst of all... she is married.
This is wrong. I shouldn’t have come back. I shouldn’t have signed the contract, accepted the job, or let myself look into those familiar eyes again.
Years ago, we used to sit under the dim fluorescent lights of a late-night shift, whispering about the future like we were co-authors of a beautiful, unwritten book. But looking at her now, standing next to the person who holds her hand when the cameras stop rolling, the crushing truth finally settles in.
I am no longer the main character of our story.
I am the villain, barging into a chapter where I don't belong, forcing my way into a book that I thought we were writing together—only to realize she has been writing it with someone else all along.
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