I still couldn't believe I was going with
Brad. That guy, as far as I knew, he never
had been in a relationship. Sure, he had a fan
following, but he wasn't the type of guy to
sleep around with girls for fun.
And I obviously respected a guy like that.
But his attitude was what terrified me the
most. He was terrifying for a second, and then
he would be normal.
He was so confusing. What I had noticed, he
never looked genuinely happy. His dark eyes
held no emotion and he rarely laughed.
Sure, comforting people wasn't my forte,
but I certainly was observant. "I still can't
believe I agreed," I anxiously said, biting my
lip, something I did when I was nervous.
"You should consider yourself lucky, really.
Many girls would kill to be your spot right now.
Stop being so grouchy and have a zest for
life!" Pauline over enthusiastically said,
slapping my arm and I rolled my eyes.
"Many boys would too," Ethan quietly said,
still sad about James. "You're a lucky girl.
Could you give him my number sometime,
probably?" I couldn't help suppressing a smile,
Ethan always made me laugh even if he didn't
intend to.
"I don't really think he's gay, Ethan," I
said, smiling sympathetically.
"Well, screw him!" he huffed and stalked off,
being his usual grumpy self.
To be honest, riding unicorns on rainbows
would be much more believable than me going
to the event with him.
"Hey, do you think he's a virgin?" Pauline
asked, and I groaned, rolling my eyes and
stomping away--leaving Pauline laughing her
ass off behind me.
***
The first lecture was Math and I honestly
kind of liked Math, being the big nerd I am. And
that also meant I had to do everyone's
homework sometimes.
Jay ( and Brad too, unfortunately) was in my
Math class, so I really looked forward to it.
He hadn't arrived yet, and behold, I was early
again. The school s**t, Laura sauntered in,
with exaggerated hip swaying and hair tossing.
And why did she even bother wearing
clothes? She might as well as have come
naked, considering a number of clothes she
was wearing.
Honestly, I don't like s**t-shaming, but what
really can you say when you have slept with
the entire swimming and football team? By that
time, students had begun filing in the class.
Unexpectedly (note the sarcasm) her eyes
landed on me and narrowed. She came towards
at me, her heels clicking against the ground.
"Look, nerd, I don't know what the hell you're
doing with Brad, but stay away from him, he's
mine," she hissed, glowering.
To be honest, she didn't intimidate in the
slightest. Yeah, she did, at first. The hard part
was, she used to be my best friends. Yes, with
the n***d baby baths and all.
And you know, High School, and she turned
into the spawn of Satan. She was the type of
best friend I could call at 3:00 am, who would
help me revise for an exam the whole night
when I hadn't studied. She used to be the only
person with whom I shared my cookies and
chocolates--that was a great honor, to be
honest.
But that's the way of life. Everyone
changes. That's totally natural. But then I met
Pauline (we bonded over our mutual hatred for
Laura because she used to bully Pauline too)
and everything was pure fabulous since then.
"Are you like a famous place? 'Cause
everyone's been there, hon," I muttered under
my breath and because of my marvelous luck,
she heard me.
"Excuse me? Did you say something?" she
snarled and the class immediately became
quiet, and everyone was staring at us.
"Oh, actually, I said that I would slap you
but again, that would be animal a***e," I
grimaced, looking at her apologetically. There
were a few-- a lot-- of "burns" and "oohs".
Her mouth formed a wide "O". I grinned at
her, satisfied that she couldn't answer.
Okay, I was actually enjoying myself.
"You..you.." she desperately said, trying to
find words.
"Sorry to interrupt your very intelligent
words, but I'm just plain curious because I
think you must have been born on a highway,
that's where most accidents happen," I said
coolly, and the entire class began laughing.
Once I was triggered, it was hard to stop
me. Just because I was a nerd, didn't mean
that I would take s**t. I had finally come to
understand that-- in a hard way. But I didn't
want to delve into that.
I was just a girl high on insults copied from
the Internet. Laura looked like fume was going
to literally blow off from her ears any second
now.
My eyes caught Jay's gaze and he grinned,
flashing me a thumbs up. I smiled and felt my
cheeks growing warm.
Then I out of the blue saw Brad staring at
me intently. He had a slight green on his face,
which surprisingly made him look very innocent
and childlike, a feature rare in him and some
kind of emotion in his eyes which I couldn't
really understand.
I averted my gaze, feeling a tingling sensation
which I couldn't really understand.
***
Honestly, I couldn't understand why Pauline
and I as well as Ethan and I had only one
class together and I had both English and Math
with Brad.
I sighed and sat in my usual seat, at the
back of the class, so I could slip off in my
dreams.
But Mr. Janson had something else in store
for us. Some kind of a project. We just had to
pick up a random topic and work it. He told us
to choose partners--and I didn't know anyone
in the class--so it was really embarrassing.
Laura looked at me and snickered but
suddenly she looked horrified and her face fell.
A shadow hovered behind me and none other
than Brad sat beside me.
"Partners?" he asked and without even waiting
for an answer, said, "What do you want the
project to be about?"
"First of all, I don't want to be partners, " I
emphasized on "partners". "Secondly, get out
of here before someone notices us."
I glanced around and saw that Jay was
looking over at us, probably confused. He
raised his eyebrows quizzically but I just
shrugged. There was nothing to explain.
"I think everyone's already looking," he
smirked, sprawling his legs and getting
comfortable. "And sweetheart, you don't even
have a partner. You should thank me for
saving your pretty face from further
humiliation."
"Oh, thank you so much, my Prince Charming,
My Knight in Shining Armour, how long I've
waited for you!" I dramatically said, feigning
sorrow and placing a hand over my heart.
"You should be glad that I'm still here," he
chuckled. Oh, my God. He actually laughed. He
quickly tried to mask it up.
"Actually the girls here scare me," he
admitted, his fixed on the whiteboard ahead.
"They'll probably get all crazy if I told them I
wanted to make a project with them." I looked
at him with disbelief.
"You're scared of girls? And I'm a girl too,
for your information. Do I look like a guy to
you? And yes, there are still the guys with
whom you can make the project with," I
argued.
"Well, but again, I prefer girls. And at least
those who are." I sighed. He was going to be
the death of me.
***
School had ended and hordes of people
were swarming out of the entrance. I was
putting my books back in my locker when I
heard a faint giggle.
I sneaked a look and saw that Jay, whose
locker was just a couple lockers beside me,
was holding hands with a girl. He said
something which made her giggle--that
irritating, simpering, sickly-sweet sound.
It felt like my insides had turned to mush.
It was heart- wrenching to see this. "Oh, so,
lover boy is off limits now," a voice whispered
in my ear, making me jump.
"Piss off," I grumbled, blinking away a few
tears.
"Chill. I just wanted to tell you about the
dancing lessons. For the event," he stated, his
large hands in his pockets.
I nearly cried out. "Dancing lessons? You
never told me about that! I'm not going to
dance," I shrieked, horrified.
"It's just some stupid ballroom dancing.
The event is going to be pretty huge, so that's
the cause of all the fuss," he said, looking the
least bothered.
I sighed, leaning against the locker. The
love of my life and any possible relationship
had just gone down the drain.
And I was going to dance.
And I was messed up.
Jay Rush didn't love me. "So, huh, the itty
bitty love of your life not liking you back?"
"You don't understand anything about
love," I snapped. "I don't even think you're
capable of feeling any emotion."
His eyes immediately darkened. His fist
suddenly slammed into the locker, scaring the
wits out of me. His hands were pressed
against the locker, and I was between the
locker and his body.
There was no escape.
"Listen, nerd, I don't give a s**t about
you. But you don't tell me I don't understand
about love and the s**t about emotion," he
growled, his face inches apart from mine.
I sharply sucked in a breath. Glaring at me
for one last time, he left me there, both
frightened and curious. He surely was hiding
something....
was so screwed.
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