Rejected then Royally Loved

Regrets

Nathan POV

She left. I don’t know how that makes me feel.

Emma was my best friend. After her parents death I abandoned her. I felt guilty. I know what she said tonight. I was the one that directed her to the cave. It was my fault. I was a coward. I felt so guilty that I could not even look at her. We were so young that I could not process my emotions and feelings. How could I be her friend when I am the reasons her parents died.

I got to such a low point of guilt and shame. I wanted to go to her and comfort her and be her best friend again. My parents adopted her and that made everything so much harder. I saw her everyday. My parents doted on her. They always have. It was not new, Then her sister told me that pack members were saying that she wanted my position as alpha. Then she told me all the things she was saying about me.

That made me mad. That is when it started. For me anyways. Her sister had already been bullying her. I knew this. Then I joined in. Her brothers would not join at all. They never bullied or abuse her but they never stopped it. Well what they saw. We did the worse of the worse when no one was around. One time we cut her all over with silver. She did end up in the hospital and we got in trouble. That’s when we switched to just torturing her at school.

I always felt guilty afterwards. Then her sister would remind me of everything that she said and how she wanted my alpha position. A year ago I started sleeping around. Emma’s sister has tried to sleep with me many times but I just can’t. I don’t ever want to be with her. I only see her as a close friend and that’s it. Lately she has become a pain. She is so annoying and it frustrates me.

My dad was furious with me for rejected Emma. He was dumbfounded that I would reject my Goddess given mate but how could I accept her after everything I did to her. As soon as I saw her, touched her, and smelled her I knew she was mine. Yet I could not have her. My wolf even told me to reject her. He said it’s not right and not fair. It was the weirdest rejected. I still felt the pain, but the it was like a complete cut off from her. Even then I don’t think I would have been a good mate to her. Even after everything I have done, I still love her as my best friend.

Everything is just hitting me when I felt her connection with the pack break. I am in my room and I drop to the floor and just cry. Cry because I will never get to see her again. Cry for the mistakes that I made and the decisions I took. Her twin brother’s come to my room. They do not look happy.

They have stopped talking to Mila a year ago. I don’t know exactly what happened. But they don’t allow her anywhere near their family. I have seen the longing look they have when they see Emma. I don’t understand why they never were there for her.

“So you rejected our sister? How could you do that?” Matthew asked.

“You were supposed to love and care for her.” Marcus said.

“Don’t you think I know that. I couldn’t do it. I told you guys about my guilt about your parents. Then all the things she was saying about me. Why do you think I have been the way I have been with her all these years?” I respond.

“Are you talking about the lies that Mila has told you?” Marcus asked.

“What are you talking about?” I asked

“Ugh, Mila wanted to separate you and Emma at all cost. She knew that sooner or later you would return to being best friends with Emma. So she started spreading lies but no one believed her except for people around our ages. Also mostly because she slept with them. She told you lies. Emma never wanted to be alpha, and she never said anything bad about you to anyone, no matter how bad you were to her.” Matthew says

I am in shocked. I can’t believe I believed Mila over my best friend. What type of person am I.

“Is this why you guys stopped talking to Mila?” I asked

“No. When you guys started bullying Emma we thought she deserved it. Then you told us what really happened and we felt so much shame and guilt that we could not bring ourselves to even talked to her. When you guys hurt her to the point of her having to be in the hospital for a week, We actually stayed with her the whole time while she was in a coma, We left as soon as we saw that she was waking up but stayed close just in case. She never knew.” Marcus says

“Then last year, when our daughter turned 2, Mila pushed her down because she was in her way. She pushed her down with such ferocity that my daughter has a permanent scar on her shoulder and she had to be on bedrest for 2 weeks to be able to heal. I wanted to kill her right then and there. After that we refused anything having to do with Mila. She is no longer allowed to be anywhere near our family.” Matthew completes.

“I did not know she can be so obnoxious. I don’t know what to say. I am in shock. How could I have been so blind. How could I have done so many bad things to your sister without even listening to her. Will the moon goddess ever forgive me?” I say

“We feel even worse. We promised our parents that if anything ever happened to them we would look out for Emma and we failed miserably. We can’t even bring ourselves to talk to her and ask for forgiveness. Now we may never be able to. Our kids will never get to meet their aunt. And it’s all our fault.” Marcus says

I can hear the pain in their voices. I feel that pain myself. How could I have been so stupid. I hope I get to see her again one day.

Emma POV

I smiled as I sat down on my couch, bowl of pasta in my hands as I flipped through the movies on the tv. It has been a month since I left my old pack. I found this amazing house just inside rogue territory. I bought the property with the money the alpha gave me. I bought a fixer upper that has 50 acres of land and it is just 5 minutes outside of the Royal pack.

I bought the house a week after I left the pack. Then I spent a good chunk of money having the whole house remodeled and getting done within a week. I had secret passages, 4 safe rooms, a weapons vault. I also had 8 bedrooms, 9 bathrooms, a pool house as well as a pool, a huge kitchen, and a greenhouse. The whole property is gated and fenced in with a silver fence. The gate opens with biometrics of my eye and fingerprint. I also have a fob for the gate door. I made it into my dream house.

Since becoming a rogue, my life has been easier. But sometimes I needed supplies and couldn’t get to a*****e to buy them. Because they simply don’t sell stuff for werewolves. HA!

I gave up trying to watch tv and since nothing is catching my eye and took out my laptop. I go into the secret site meant only for supernaturals. Everyone who was a supernatural had a membership since the day they are born. Even rogues like me that still have their sanity in tact. I could not help but smile as the one blog kept staying the top.

“ICE STRIKES AGAIN” I read the title of the latest post out loud. There was a blurry picture of my wolf from but it just looked like a frozen ice running by. I smirked and read on, this time to myself.

ICE has been seen many times in the last couple of weeks in the Royal pack during the night and even during the day. Appearing and disappearing like the smoke of ice that vanishes into thin air. Many wolves cheer him on even though he is a rogue. Enjoying one rogue who seems to have their sanity and makes the number one pack look stupid. People that have seen ICE say how incredible he is.

I could not help but put my laptop down and literally fell off the couch cause I was laughing so much. Everyone things I am a guy. I mean with how fast I am, of course people are going to think that I am a man. I know that I should not loot the Royal pack but they are very close to my house so I have an easy escape. I feel bad that my friends are the Betas and Gammas. They are the ones usually chasing me since they dont have a head tracker at the moment. Its funny because at school they said they could beat me at my game. Even their pack members try to catch me.

I started reading a list of the stuff that I had stolen. Most of the items I have stolen have been medicine, herbs, and books. I sighed as I was reminded that I need to loot again. I need medicine again. Why? Well since I met my mate my heat comes every month until I mate. Then it will come every 6 months. If you don’t have a mate, a heat can be painful. I already went though it once. I am going to have to get more medicine for my next round as well as some herbs to plant in my greenhouse. If I can grow what I need in the greenhouse I can finally stop looting.

I get up and grab my duffel bag, slipping into my baggy hoody that hid my figure and walked out of the house, setting the alarms and traps on and locking the door.

With that I head to the Royal Pack. They were the ones I had more fun looting. My friends can never catch me.