Frightened, yet alive.
And he hasn't even touched me yet.
Sex hasn't been an enticing word for me in a damn long time. With Rune, and then...Alaric. The first had been an experience I had initiated, created. The second had been forced on me.
That isn't why I'm frightened though. I know Sinclair would never hurt me. It is what comes after s*x with Sinclair that frightens me. Will he stop being obsessed with me? Will he dump me and move on to the next?
I hate that I doubt everything. That I second guess everything. But then, I've been through enough to give my trust freely to anyone. I've been through enough to really let myself believe that I could have a happy ending.
It seems far-fetched. One good thing happens, it gets overshadowed by a ton of bad things. Damn, my life is full of
