Vicious Circle

3.The agreement begins

‘Hello Brie, how are you?’

He entered my home as he had entered my room when he sneaked in.

‘Wayne, get out of my home.’

He chuckled softly. He continued to pet my cat, who was in his lap. ‘This is not how you treat a guest, sweetheart. Didn't they teach you that?’

I didn't want to respond to his sarcastic remarks. ‘Please, Wayne, get out nicely. Otherwise, I'll call the police and you'll be humiliated.’

‘You could have done that the moment you walked in. But you didn't. You were waiting for me, Brie. Just like old times.’

I stood silently and watched him. He wasn't very muscular. That was because he was a Formula 1 driver. He was wearing a black T-shirt and his hair was messy as always. When he looked at me with his hazel eyes, he noticed that I was studying him and a mischievous smile appeared on his face.

‘Did you miss me?’

I rolled my eyes and looked at him. ‘What do you want?’

‘To get better,’ he said, putting the cat in his lap on the floor and standing up. “I don't want to count the nights I've spent awake.’

I crossed my arms over my chest and shrugged. ”Wayne, I don't think I'm good at this. I talked to Mateo, and I'll find someone better for you.’

When he approached me, I wanted to take a step back. But I held myself back. He didn't have the upper hand. I did.

‘Mateo said you were coming. I found out later that you didn't accept.’

I nodded in agreement and refused to answer him.

‘At first, I wanted to know why, sweetheart.’ As I said this, a strand of hair fell from my hairband and behind my ear. He leaned slowly towards my ear. “You have to help me, Brie.’

I swallowed hard and pulled away. ”No one can force me to do anything, Wayne. No one.’

‘Are you sure?’ he said with a smile. There was something hidden in his smile. I narrowed my eyes and watched him.

‘Wayne, what's on your mind?’

He took a step back. I looked up at him. ’Come to me of your own free will.’

‘We're here to heal you. Not to make you come to us. Don't forget that!’

He didn't react to my harsh tone. He looked me up and down with his eyes, doing it so shamelessly that I felt naked in front of him. When I moved involuntarily, he laughed shamelessly.

‘What's your final decision? The hard way or the easy way?’

I kept looking at him, holding my head high. As he walked past me, shaking his head from side to side, he said, ‘What a pity. Such a pity.’

I didn't move until I left my house. The moment I heard the door, I collapsed onto a nearby chair. My heart was beating wildly as my cat rubbed against my lucky legs. His power was still the same. The power he had over me was still the same. I hated standing there in front of him as much as I loved him.

Damn it!

I hated myself. The sound of my phone ended my fight with myself. It was Eloise calling.

‘Ell?’

‘Honey, how are you?’

‘I'm fine,’ I said, pausing. Ell could tell from my voice that I was upset and said, “I'm coming. I'll bring some wine,” and hung up.

I took a quick shower before she arrived. When I came out of the bathroom, Ell was at my door.

‘Brie?’

I just looked at her and hugged her so she wouldn't see my eyes welling up. She hugged me back immediately.

‘He's here, Ell,’ I said. I could feel her body stiffen. She slowly pulled away from me and asked, ’When?’

We stopped hugging at the door and went inside. She sat me down on the couch and brought two glasses from the kitchen. As I told her everything that had happened, she just listened with her mouth open.

‘You bastard! You shameless man!‘ she said, seemingly unable to contain her anger. Finally, she drank until the bottom of the bottle was visible.

‘What are you going to do?’

‘I don't know,’ I said, taking a sip of my wine. ‘He smiled slyly when he left. He's not the type to give up easily.’

He shook his head in disbelief. ‘He won't let you get away, will he?’

When I laughed involuntarily, he looked at me as if I were crazy. ’No, of course not, Ell.’

‘I don't know. He's a man who scares me. How could you have a relationship with him, for God's sake?’

‘I don't remember him being like that, Ell. It was a long time ago, and we were kids.’

She looked at me with wide eyes. ‘I could swear that man was like that when he was a child.’

He had finally come back after spending the summer training for competitions and with his coach. His family was going to throw a big party to celebrate his arrival. Almost everyone in our neighbourhood was invited. Except us...

I didn't know why, but I was aware of his family's attitude towards me and my family. But he didn't care. Despite his busy schedule and European tour, he kept in touch. When his name appeared in the newspapers, I was just starting university. Sometimes I was very surprised that our relationship continued despite the distance. Of course, there were times when it was difficult and I wanted him to be with me. We would end phone calls with arguments, our sleeping hours were different...

My brother knocked on the door and said, ‘I'm going out, Brie. Do you want to come?’

‘I'd rather stay home,’ I said. “Boring,” he said and closed the door. I threw the pillow right after him. But he was already gone. When I looked out the window, I could see Wayne's house. The lighting was so bright that it would have been ridiculous not to see him. I wanted to call him. I shouldn't have.

I immediately grabbed my phone when I saw a message. It was from my friend. He was asking why I didn't come to the party. Instead of replying, I went downstairs. My dad was getting coffee from the kitchen. When he saw me, he asked, ‘Aren't you going out?’

‘I want to stay home. I'm tired,’ I said, and he came over and kissed me on the forehead.

‘Get some rest. You'll be going to university soon.’

When my father left the kitchen, I took some cookies and coffee for myself and went to my room. I was about to choose a film when a message on my phone distracted me. It was from him.

Wayne.

‘Come down. I'm waiting for you.’

I didn't want to keep him waiting. I threw on a cardigan and ran out of the house. I knew he was waiting further down the street because he knew I didn't want to be seen. When I reached the quieter part of the street, I saw him. He was leaning against his car. He seemed taller than before. He was wearing dark jeans, a white T-shirt, and a leather jacket. When he noticed me approaching, he ran towards me and hugged me. I giggled as he spun me around in his arms.

‘I missed you so much,’ he said, stopping and putting me down. His eyes were locked on mine. He loved my hair and kept kissing my face. I didn't hold back from kissing him either.

Finally, he rested his forehead against mine and said, ’I love you, Brie. I love you so much that I want to take you away.’

His pupils seemed to grow larger. I wanted to respond to his desire. It was time. At least, that's what I thought.

‘Why not?’

He responded to my words with a frown at first. But I could tell he couldn't control himself. ‘Brie, don't.’

‘Wayne. I want you.’

He paused. I had said something I had never said before. It wasn't planned.

‘The lake house,’ I said. He didn't understand what I meant, “Let's go to your lake house.’

‘Brie—” she started to object, but I leaned closer to her ear. ’I want you to be my first.’

He got me into the car just as quickly. The lake house was a place Wayne and his family hadn't used in a long time. We used to play here when we were kids, go swimming in the lake. We learned to swim here.

Wayne was driving, but his mind seemed to be elsewhere. To distract him, I asked, ‘How did you get out of the party?’

‘The party was a disaster,’ he said in a troubled voice. “My dad and sister got into a fight. Also, I don't want to be somewhere you're not.’

‘Is your sister okay?’

I noticed he was gripping the steering wheel tightly. ”I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable.’

He put her hand on my leg and said, ‘No, of course not. They were just annoying things. My sister left the house too.’

I didn't want to continue the topic, so I listened to her talk about the places he had visited. He must have liked the change of conversation because he responded. Talking about new places seemed to cheer his up. However, he kept caressing my leg throughout the ride. When we arrived at the lake house, we both got out of the car.

As we entered the house holding hands, I pressed my lips against his. I wanted him desperately. It didn't take long for him to respond. When he pulled away slightly, he had taken off his leather jacket. As the kisses moved from my lips to my neck, I found myself moaning. Wayne's scent was intoxicating. As he moved from my neck to my chest, I didn't even notice when I took off my cardigan. As we continued kissing, we fell onto the only armchair in the living room, and he didn't stop us.

When I took off his shirt, I couldn't take my eyes off his toned body. When he unhooked my bra, he caressed my breasts one by one. When he took off his trousers, I did the same to him.

‘Condom?’ I asked. “No. I want to feel you, Brie. I need to feel you. I need to feel that you're mine,” he replied.

He was looking at me. The moonlight shining into the room showed us completely naked to each other in every sense. I remember swallowing hard. Because this was an important decision. He paused, waiting for my answer.

‘Brie?’

I felt him pull away. ‘Okay,’ I said.

After caressing me with his hand, he caressed his own p***s. We were both so excited we couldn't breathe.

‘Are you ready?’

I nodded in response. When he slowly pushed his p***s inside me, I felt a slight pain. But what followed was very different. It was as if I was complete. It hurt. But at the same time, it didn't hurt...

‘I may not be able to hold back.’

After saying that, Wayne pulled out and started entering me again. At first, the fullness felt strange, but over time it felt like it belonged there. Wayne didn't stop, kissing my face and breasts. All I could do was moan. I could feel my orgasm approaching.

‘You're mine, Brie. You're completely mine now. I used to be in your thoughts. Now you're mine physically. You'll never forget this!’

‘Hey, back to earth!’ Ell tried to bring me back to reality. “Sorry, I'm distracted,” I said.

When she touched my shoulder to support me, I said, ‘The first thing I noticed when I saw him was that he was still the same. It was as if he hadn't changed at all. It was as if he had been waiting for me. Of course, I know that's not true. These are just silly thoughts.’

Eloise looked at me with understanding. She suddenly sat up straight, as if she had an idea. ‘This could be a way for you to let go of the past, Brie. Accept this job.’

‘I'm afraid of him. I feel like he'll take me back to those days. Maybe you're right, I need to be brave.’

‘This is a sign, Brie. Accept it and get started. You know it's worse not to start at all.’

Deep down, I knew the truth. But it was very difficult to accept. Wayne had always frightened me. When I was a child, as a teenager, and as an adult...

He was a controlling person. He didn't like people he couldn't control. That's why he loved being a Formula 1 driver. Maybe that's why he was so good at it.

‘You're right,’ I said to myself. ’I have to accept it and move on.’

Things didn't go as I had expected. When I arrived at the academy, surprises were waiting for me. Wayne and his two-person team were in my room.

‘Good morning,’ I said as I entered the room. However, his team wasn't very talkative. Wayne was sitting in the chair in front of my desk.

‘What's going on, Wayne?’

He looked at me with a smirk. ‘Get out of the room.’

His team quietly left the room and closed the door behind them. When I sat down at my desk, he said, “Nice room.’

‘Tell me.’

‘Still the easy way or the hard way?” I sighed.

‘I accept,’ I said. He looked at me, raising his eyebrows. ’I thought you'd make it difficult. Like in the old days.’

At that moment, Scott opened the door and looked at Wayne and me. Wayne must have scared him because he backed out of the room and closed the door behind him.

‘Who is that?’

‘No one you need to know,‘ I said simply. “Where's the contract?’

He got up from the table and came over to me. He put his hands on my shoulders and leaned in. I could feel his breath on the back of my neck. ”Wayne, this is my workplace.’

‘You work for me now,’ he said, pushing the hair on my shoulder over to the other side.

‘Do you have a relationship with that man, Brie, or with someone else? Did you spread your legs for someone else?’

When I tried to answer, he stopped me. ‘Shut up!’

‘Tell me. Did you spread your legs for someone else, my darling?’

‘Let me go!’

He pressed me harder with his hands on my shoulders and said, ‘Answer me, Brie. Has another p***s been inside you?’

I hated his pressure. I wanted to give him a rude answer. But his hand on my right shoulder was out of control. It was sliding between my legs.

‘Don't.’

‘TELL ME!’

‘No,’ I said, now defeated. “No. Please let me go.’

He hadn't taken his hand away. It had slipped between my legs and reached the spot he wanted. First, he caressed me over my panties, making me listen to him.

When I held his hand, he said, ”Brie, you're still the same. A shy but naughty girl.’

When he put two of his fingers inside me, my reaction was to hold my breath. I was completely in his hands now.

‘This was going to be the hard way, Brie. I wish you had chosen the hard way.’ After saying that, he pulled his fingers out. He came in front of me and licked his fingers. I looked away because I was embarrassed.

‘Our agreement is completely legal, and nothing like this will happen.’

He laughed as he left the room. ‘Brie, I think you forgot. My goal is for you to come to me.’