Matched With Professor

13. A play boy? Was I fooled?

kate’s pov   

(At Nathan’s place)

‘Here I present you the one and the only cocktail created by Master Nathan’  He dramatically put a glass of drink on the bar in front of me.

‘Wow. Thank you Mr.Master.’ I try my best to control laughs when sipping the cocktail. It’s actually just mixed with whiskey, soda, and lime. So more like a kind of whiskey sour.

‘I give you the honor to name my homemade cocktail’ He puts on a serious look

‘hmmm… how about Santidote. Super antidote. Meaning it could cure everything  ’

‘Brilliant. Santidote sounds great! But I prefer to interpret it as Sans-antidote. No cure exists. To me, it’s exactly like how falling for you feels. ’

Every single day with Nathan is just like a picture of how my dream relationship ought to be. It feels like winning a lottery when the dream comes true. And Nathan is the lottery.

You know, crazy sexes cannot be left out for new lovers. We have tried various positions. We keep our secret dirty talks at midnight.  We have figured out how to turn on the other one in a minute.

But the relationship is more than amazing sexes.

I am not a fairytale believer. Maybe it’s because I’m not a princess. There is no prince I could meet and spend the rest of my life with. Let alone to say ‘being happily forever’.

So I never devote myself to a relationship. If you know it would not last permanently, why do you bother to devote? I know that sounds selfish. But to be honest, I prefer being selfish to being hurt.

Being with Nathan is a different story.

I don’t want to hang up the phone with him

I can’t control my smile when his messages pop up.

I keep nagging about Nathan when meeting with Emily.

I prepare surprises when we have dated for the first month.

I crave to see him as many times as I can.

I start to enjoy cheap love stories and films.

He makes me breakfast on weekends.

He waits for me in the office whenever I study late and drives me home.

He worries so much if I had a bad day

He plans various dating activities to keep me from boring.

He is always available for me if I call and want to talk.

He only falls asleep after I am already in a dream.

In a way, He has made me feel that I mean the world to him.

Everything seems perfect. He seems to be the one. Of course, we decided to keep quiet about our relationship especially when Nathan’s still teaching at the university. But we indeed enjoy our secret dating. Only Emily knows about him.

Sweet. Exciting. Happy from the bottom of my heart.

Is there anything I long for besides him? No. I don’t think so. I want nothing more.

‘Come to my place NOW!’ It’s Emily’s message

‘Why? Anything wrong? Alex’ s dramas again?  ’ She broke up with Alex since the gossip of Alex being with the stylist vlogger, although Alex keeps explaining and begging her back.

‘No. none of Alex’s business. ve u ever googled ur bf? ’

‘No. Why?’

‘Well. I did. You need to see something. Just come!’

‘He is a notorious playboy!!’ Emily basically shouts at me at the ‘moment I enter her apartment.

‘Well. He created an interesting career on his own and made a great achievement. Being listed as one of Forbes 30under30. I give him that. ’ Remember I said Emily always dislikes my bfs, being overprotective? Here it comes.

 ‘BUT! A huge but! He changes girls or maybe boys! who knows! almost frequently as the weather changes in the UK!’ She points at the screen of her laptop. ‘Look! He just broke up with someone 2 months before you met him!’ She is angrier than me. ‘How can you still believe what he said about falling for you at the first sight?’

I’m being silent. Honestly, I know nothing more about Nathan except what he’s told me.

‘And here! He paid $200 grand to one of his exes for breaking up. Men won’t pay anything to exes if they did nothing wrong. He must have got caught by that girl for what he did.’ Emily’s words are like a bomb.

‘It’s not the Nathan I know. And I believe what I feel.  I mean, I can feel that his feeling for me is real.’ I was shocked by the news on google. The truth that I barely know him hurts a lot. But I have to stand up for Nathan, for us.

‘Why you always see the good side of people?’ She is right about me, ‘You know why I was so determined to break up with Alex? Coz when people got caught, it does not mean that mistake only happened once. You need to keep that in mind.’ I understand what she is saying.

Her words are like a bomb. My heart is exploded into pieces.

I can’t believe that he is just playing me.

Girls always know whether a guy truly likes you or not. Guys would lie but they can’t pretend to love. It takes much effort to love someone. If a guy doesn’t love you, he would not bother to pretend or give you a feeling that you are on his No.1 priority. Right?!

So how would Nathan lie to me?

‘Where R U? I got sth to show to you.’ Nathan’s message pops up

Oh. Brilliant. I got sth bigger to show to you too! I’m thinking to myself ironically.

‘Home’

‘Busy? You don’t seem in the mood’

‘Maybe my mood changes quickly lie you change girlfriends.’ Then I shut off my phone without any desires to continue the talk.