I will never be yours

Chapter 3

Kian pov

Walking out of the room, I get this feeling I need to go back to her to find out what's going on. Pushing the feeling aside and keep walking with my men behind me. Something is off with her and we need to get to the bottom of it.

"What did you pick up about her?" My beta Declan asks me the moment we step out of the interrogation room and into the hallway.

"That's just it. I didn't pick up anything, she has no scent at all." I tell him when we make our way down the hall. It shouldn't be possible to not have any scent, but I couldn't pick up anything with her.

"Strange. She came in with the rogues we caught, none of the guards picked up anything different about her." He says when we come to the end of the hall. Looking around, almost every cell down here is occupied with rogues we have been fighting off outside the kingdom for weeks. They have attacked our alliances, and everyone is trying to find out what's going on here and why they are attacking us.

"Find out who caught her and beat it out of her if you have to. I want to know the smallest detail," I say before walking up the stairs when he is right behind me.

"I will go and talk to the patrol who caught them." He says and walks the other way once we come upstairs.

I make my way over the yard and head to the castle with long strides. Coming inside, I get straight to my office and push the door open when I walk inside.

This rogue problem we have been facing lately none of us can get to the bottom of, we can't find the one who orders it, and most of the rogues won't talk. The little we have managed to get out hasn't gotten us any further to find the one behind it.

Looking through some files in my office when there is a knock on my door before my dad comes walking inside. Closing the door behind him when he walks closer to my office desk I'm sitting behind.

"Hey, son. I heard you caught some more rogues yesterday. Anything new?" He asks before he takes a seat in front of me. Placing my files on the table, I sit back in my chair and lift my head to look at him.

"No, there isn't. None of them say a word, even when they are beaten to death, they keep their mouths shut. " I tell him, he looks troubled at me.

"Something is off about all this. And you haven't found anything on the disappearances?" I drag a hand through my hair and look down at my files by his question. We have been missing several people over the last year and no pack has found any trace of them, just like they have vanished into thin air.

"Right now there is nothing new," I say when there is a knock on my office door. Declan opens the door and comes walking inside, taking a seat beside my father and greeting him before looking at me.

"Found anything?" I ask when he sits back in his seat.

"I found the guard that captured her, but none of them have anything to say about her, it all went down so fast. When they shot them with wolfsbane, they started to fight each other, and once they got them, most of them were already badly beaten up." He says with a frown on his face, and I already know there is something else.

"And what?" I say when he doesn't continue for a long moment.

"Well, several of our guards say they saw the white wolf in the fight." Looking at him, he looks as puzzled as I. A white wolf is extremely rare, and we haven't had any in several hundred years. That's how rare they are.

We have only read about them in books, and all it says is that every white wolf has different gifts, some have several and some only have one.

About three years ago we started to hear rumors about a white wolf being spotted. What has us more puzzled is there are reports from all over the country and not a specific place. They are too rare for me to believe there suddenly are several white wolves, but how can it explain that the wolf have been seen in different places and close in time to each other? It's impossible to travel that fast for anyone.

"How could it be, and where did it go?" I ask him.

"No one saw what happened to it," he sighs and leans forward while I see my father looking interested at him.

"Could it be their leader?" He asks the question I have been having on my mind for a while. But it would mean the threat against us could be harder if the white wolf has useful gifts.

"Could be," I just state. I will have to go down tomorrow myself and start interrogating everyone who has made it through the night to try and get some answers from them.

Several of them were in bad shape and might not make it through the night, but I only need one to tell me the answers I'm looking for.

"We are going out tonight! Why don’t you join us?" Declan asks and looks at me when I glance at him for a second before turning my attention back to the documents on my desk.

"I don't have the time." I just state while turning a paper.

"Son, I think you should. You don’t know, maybe you have a second chance mate out there and you won't find her in here." My dad says and I turn my head up to look at him for a brief moment.

I never told them I already found her three years ago at the cemetery when I had just buried my first mate. That's my deepest secret and I know none of them would agree to what I did.

I chased her out of my kingdom without thinking twice about it, I don't want a weak mate again, and that little girl in front of me was just like my first mate. I'd rather be without a mate than be mated to a weak one again, I have never regretted my decision.

"No, I don't have one, and I don't want one," I just tell them and start going through my files again.

"Well, think about it, we can just grab something to eat," Declan says before he rises from his chair and starts walking to the door. He opens it and walks out without another word, leaving me and my dad alone in my office.

"Son, you need to go outside of these walls, it has been three years since she died. It's time to move on." I just shrug my shoulders at his words. None of them will understand if I tell them about her, I guess my parents will have the hardest time understanding why I did it, and I don't want to get into an argument with them over it.

"Alright, I will let you do it your way," he says and rises from his seat. I give him a nod before he walks out of my office and closes the door after him. Listening to his footsteps walking away from my office before I sit back in my seat.

When I am sure he won't come back I reach down and open my drawer, taking out the file from the bottom I have stored. I haven't looked at it in ages, but I know it's still there.

Placing it on my desk, I look at it for a moment before I open it up. Her beautiful blue eyes are the first that meet me, she looks so fragile and innocent in the photo I have saved in the folder about her.

After I chased her out of my kingdom, I learned she was the daughter of my head warrior, and they searched for her day and night for almost six months before they gave up. She left without a trace once she stepped out of my kingdom. I even helped to search for her, a part of me just wanted to know where she went, but there was no trace of her.

This is my secret, and I better keep it that way, I know none of them would understand why I did it.

Closing her file I put it back further down in the drawer and turn off the lights in my office before walking out.