Four years later *Amelie* "Tim what on earth have you bought a pregnancy test for ?" I am unpacking the commodities after he has been out shopping and am now looking confused at the package. He sticks his head out into the kitchen, a 6-month baby on his arms pulling his hair. "I think you should take it darling…I have a feeling. Gabriel stop pulling on daddys hair". "But no, I can't be ... I mean after all you are sterilised". After four children, two of them twins in 4 years, plus of course Réne. I had chosen to say stop and Tim had agreed to get sterilised. He carefully removes the little boy's hand from his hair and looks almost apologetic at me. "I know, but I have an inkling that my sperm may have missed the message... sorry but you are showing all the signs of being pregna

