The notebook slips out of my hand in shock. As soon as I'm done reading the sixteenth entry on Justice's memoirs, I just completely lose it. My hands are shaking in fear and anger. I don't even dare try to pick up the notebook from the ground like I'm disgusted with it.
What did I just read?
What the f*ck did I just read?
I'm not yet done reading every entry, but I don't think I can read it all through tonight. This is just too much for me that I already have cold sweats.
Tears fall like heavy rain on my cheeks, and my eyes serve as storm clouds. I feel my heart tighten as an intense feeling of guilt eats me up. There's also this anger building up inside me towards Justin, but the wrath that I have for myself overpowers every emotion inside me.
I can't bring myself to believe what I r
