Trusting the alpha- ON HOLD

Chapter 4

I'm finally leaving the pack hospital today and thank f**k for that. After spending 4 years in a cage I'm itching to get out into open spaces.

I intend to leave as soon as I can, but when I told Xander of my plans he looked so hurt and broken and pleaded for me to stay with him. I agreed but really I'm going to sneak out of the territory and take off into the woods. 

There's nothing here for me except an overprotective alpha and empty promises. Even if it means leaving my friends.

I walk into the bathroom and wince at my reflection. It's still pretty weird seeing myself after so long and I'm still not over how malnourished and weak I look. I used to be strong and toned, now I'm skin and bones. Although I smile at my bum which has grown a bit with all the food Xander has been making me eat.

Xander stands waiting for me as I walk back out and I eye his outstretched hand before slipping my small hand in his large calloused one. He leads me out the room gently and we walk out the hospital into the bright sunlight. I smile as I feel the Sun on my skin but don't pause for too long.

We walk up to a mansion which I guess is the pack house and I take a deep breath as we walk in. Pack members crowd the ground floor and all heads turn to me as we enter. 

People greet Xander and bow their heads in respect and a few address me as Luna but are shut down by a growl from Xander. 

We walk through the group, Xander not letting go of my hand protectively and walk up the stairs to the top floor where we pause outside a door. It's a very large room with the biggest bed I've ever seen and big windows letting in tonnes of sunlight. I gasp and walk in, throwing myself onto the bed and giggling at how soft it is. Xander leans against the doorframe chuckling at my amazement. 

"This room is yours from now on. You can do whatever you want with it just let the omegas know. My room is just down the hall and my office is the big door at the end of the hall so if you ever need me you can just come and find me. I'll leave you to settle in" he scratches the back of his neck. "I'll be back at 7 to get you for dinner, is that ok?"

I can't help but smile at how cute he's being. I do wish he wouldn't be so sweet to me, it makes me feel kinda bad for wanting to leave. But still, I'm sure all this can't last.

"Ok" I smile and turns to leave. "Xander... thank you" I whisper and he grins like a kid at Christmas.

"I would do anything for you Daisy" he stares at me adoringly before clearing his throat and turning to leave.

A whole room to myself. And 3 hours to spend in it. I stand up, walking to a door and find it's a bathroom. It's huge, with a glorious walk in shower and a big deep bathtub in the center of the room. I practically drool over it before turning on the water. If I'm leaving tonight I may as well make the most of my time here.

When it's done, I pick up some weird bottles of stuff that read 'Rose-scented bath oils' and put some in. I then climb in and groan as my muscles instantly relax in the silky warm water.

I don't know when I drop off but I'm abruptly awoken by the sound of knocking on the door. I sit up, feeling the water has gone cold around me and clamber out, wrapping a fluffy white towel around myself. I open the door to Xander and frown.

He smiles before his eyes fall down my body and when they reach my eyes again they're black and his chest is rising and falling much quicker then before. 

"Are you ok?" 

"Um, yeah" he gulps and looks away. "I came to get you for dinner but if you need a minute-"

"Oh crap!" I look at the clock on the wall to see it's 6 already. "Sorry I must have lost track of time. I'll just be a minute." I shut the door and dry myself off before throwing my clothes back on me and walking out to Xander.

"I'm sorry I interrupted you" he looks away embarrassed and I suddenly realise what he just saw. I try to hide my face to cover the blush that's fighting it's way onto my cheeks. He probably thought how ugly I was and saw me for ugly broken girl I am. As if he can read my mind, he reaches to take my hand.

"You have nothing to be embarrassed about" he chuckles. "You're beautiful. I'm just sorry I made you feel uncomfortable."

Oh Goddess, stop being so nice.

We sit down at the large table in the dining room with other members of the pack. Xander sits at the head and I sit beside him, with his beta Alex and gamma Lucas. They great me with a smile and I awkwardly nod back. They know what happened to me I'm sure so they don't try and talk to me too much probably at Xander's command.

I smile at the omega that puts a bowl of pasta in front of me and close my eyes at the taste of it. Maybe I should stay for the food. If they attack me in my sleep then at least I'll die with a full stomach. 

Xander continuously looks over to make sure I'm ok as he talks to Alex and Lucas and I smile reassuringly at him when he does.

When we finish eating he walks me back upstairs to my room and makes sure I have everything I need before wishing me goodnight.

"Xander?" He spins back with concern and I smile walking over to him. I lean up and kiss he cheek, looking up at his shocked expression. He reaches up to touch where I kissed him as he stares at me with his honey eyes. "Goodnight" I whisper and turn around shutting the door.

I kissed him because I'm grateful for everything he's done. But it ends now. I'm leaving tonight when everyone's asleep so he doesn't come chasing after me. I thought I was going to die in those cells but now I'm free, I'm doing it alone and I'm definitely not sticking around so I catch feelings for him.  

I'm officially becoming the lone wolf I want to be.