The Luna To The Enemy -Book 1 Of The Luna Duet {COMPLETED}

Chapter 8: I Can Explain

*Piper’s POV*

I sat on the bed for a while after Jaxon had left the room. I had gotten caught up in the moment with him. I knew it was dangerous to be close to him and I slipped up. After he left I could feel the shame and regret develop inside of myself.

I felt dirty. All I wanted to do was talk and that didn’t happen. This was unacceptable behavior. I never acted on impulse like this, usually I had been able to really think things through. Of course back at Moon Stone I hadn’t been around my fated mate.

I could tell I was in over my head. Jaxon made my body feel things I’ve never experienced before. Things not even Matteo could make me feel. I had never just wanted to rip off his pants and just please him. With Jaxon though, at that moment it was the only thing I could think about and I was on a mission to make it happen.

I crawled out of the bed and grabbed a change of clothes. I could smell Jaxon all over me still. While it did help keep me calm about what we just did it also made me feel guilty. I needed to wash him off of me so I could clear my mind.

I stripped down and stepped inside of the shower. I let the warm water flow down my body. I looked down to where Jaxon had dug his claws into my thigh. The water had taken away the dried blood and the marks had already begun to heal.

I washed my hair and then my body. I scrubbed until I could only smell myself and not a single hint of Jaxon. I shut the water off and dried off before putting on my underwear and bra. Then I slipped on a pair of shorts and a tank top. I decided it was best to dress comfortably, it’s not like I was able to leave this room if I wanted to right now.

I walked out of the bathroom and sat down on the couch. The same couch Jaxon and I had sat on about an hour ago. I felt another pang of guilt wash over me as I thought back to the moment. If he hadn’t had to go take care of the pack it probably would’ve gone farther right then and there. That thought made me ashamed but also sent thrills of excitement through my body.

I shook my head to bring me back to reality. No, I can’t let myself get carried away anymore. There were still almost a full two months left of the deal and I could feel that it was going to be a long road ahead. Hopefully his pack would keep him busy. The longer he was away from me the less chance I had to slip up and I could keep my self control.

“I know what you did.” Matteo’s voice came through our mind link. I could tell he was angry with me. He had every right to be.

“I can explain.” I responded.

“Save it! I can’t believe you would be unfaithful yet again!” His tone was dark as he continued speaking through our link. “How could you do this to me? To us? You’re putting everything we worked towards at risk right now!”

I didn’t like being talked down to and he knew it. I wasn’t going to let him sit here and blame me for everything. I never asked for this! Maybe it was time that he found out exactly what he did when he sent me away with Jaxon.

“I can’t control it Matteo! You’re the one who willingly sent me away with my fated mate!” I shot back as I made my anger towards him clear. “I don’t purposely choose to have this happen, but when we’re in a room together sometimes the mate bond ends up over powering my decisions.”

He paused for a moment before he spoke any further through our link. “It was my father who chose to send you with Alpha Jaxon. I fought as hard as I could but ultimately I had no power. I’m not the alpha yet.” He paused. His tone was much calmer than before. “What do you mean I sent you off with your fated mate?”

I sighed to myself before I answered the question. “Jaxon is the mate the moon goddess put me with Matteo. That’s why I keep slipping up and that’s why he wanted me to leave with him so badly.”

He was silent again. “I can’t believe my father would do this! Just because you’re fated to him doesn’t mean you can go and w***e around Piper! I marked you, I f*****g own you!” The anger was back in his voice.

“Excuse me?!” He had no right to call me a w***e. I may not be acting like a saint right now but at least I owned up to the mistakes I had been making. On top of that when he marked me we made it clear we were a team, not that he owned me. His comment straight up pissed me off.

“You heard me.” His tone was dark as responded once more.

I had never seen Matteo act this way. He had always spoken to me kindly and respected me as an equal. It was like this situation had brought out another side of him that I didn’t know he had. A side of him that I can honestly say I didn’t care very much for.

“You don’t own me Matteo. I am my own person.” I made sure my irritation was clear as I spoke through the link.

“You’re mine.” He growled.

“I never said I wasn’t, but you’re being an asshole right now and I don’t like it very much.” I was calling him out on it. He was upset and I understood that but this was uncalled for.

“Do you think you can keep your legs closed long enough for me to talk with my father to figure out how to get you home now? Or is that too difficult for you?” I could sense the hints of animosity towards me.

“You know what Matteo?” I challenged him to answer.

“What?” His tone still was short and cold.

“I won’t make any promise to you. Especially if you keep being an asshole. All you’re going to do is push me away. With this attitude you might as well tell me to go ahead and f**k him. Is that what you want?” My anger and frustration was still being made very clear to him.

Matteo was finally quiet as he took in my words. Finally he answered. “You’re right. I’m sorry Piper, you didn’t deserve any of that.”

“I will accept the apology but it doesn’t mean that you’re forgiven.” I was stern with him as I responded.

“You need to be careful around Jaxon. Especially if you are truly fated mates Piper. He’s dangerous and clearly has used the mate thing against you.” Matteo warned.

“I know.” I responded. “I did make a deal with him though.”

“What kind of deal?” I could tell Matteo was not pleased with the information that I had provided.

“If he can’t find a way to remove your mark in two months he agreed he would return me back to Moon Stone.” I explained further.

I expected Matteo to be pleased but his silence made it clear that wasn’t the case. “Regardless I think it’s best you keep your distance from him. I would hate for you to come home and us not be in a good place with each other.”

“I understand.” I agreed.

“When did you know that you two were fated mates?” Matteo asked. Finally it seemed that maybe we could have an adult conversation about this.

“The same night Dark Moon attacked. That was the whole reason for him calling it off.” I explained.

“And you didn’t think to say anything sooner?” The irritation was back in his voice.

“I didn’t want you to worry. We both had enough on our plates with the whole situation. I thought I could handle it but it’s been tougher than I expected.” I felt my reasoning was good enough.

“You're keeping secrets Piper and I don’t like it.” His words were cold again. “You need to be honest and stop dropping your pants for him!”

“Matteo.” My tone was warning him to not go any further. I had thought maybe he could handle finding out about the mate thing but I could feel in my gut it had only pissed him off more, especially since I had known about it when I left our packhouse.

“What Piper?!” He snapped at me.

“I told you to stop talking to me that way.” I reminded him. I was trying to give him the benefit of the doubt here but he was just getting on my nerves at this point.

“And I told you days ago to not let him touch you again and yet here we are. No matter what I say you’ll probably do it again and blame it on this damn bond you claim to have!” Matteo’s anger had come back at full force. “You lied, how can I trust you aren’t just using this as a vacation to be a slut?!”

I clenched my fist as he was yet again putting me down and blaming the whole thing on me. “Fine Matteo, I’ll just go suck his d**k again! He sure as hell tastes a lot better than you!” I instantly closed the connection.

I was horrified at my words. My anger had taken the lead and I spoke before I could think. I couldn’t help it though, it felt like his words were a knife in my back. What I’ve done may not be right but he learned about the mate bond himself. He knew what it could do. For him to call me a w***e was completely uncalled for.

“Are you okay?” Jaxon’s voice startled me as he came through the mind link. “I can feel something has upset you. I can come back if you need me.”

I thought for a moment before answering. If Jaxon knew I had been mind linking with Matteo he might get pissed off at me. I wasn’t sure what he was like when he was angry but my gut told me I didn’t want to find out. The best thing I could do was keep it to myself.

“I’m fine.” I responded.

“No you’re not.” Jaxon didn’t buy it.

“I am. Just maybe it’s for the best if we actually have that conversation from earlier.” I suggested. “You know the one that got interrupted.”

Jaxon was silent for a moment. “I agree. I’ll make sure my schedule is clear after dinner.” 

I felt him close the connection. How was it the one I had always been told was heartless and evil was the one who actually asked about my feelings? I was starting to question everything. Jaxon knew things and tonight he had better be prepared to give me my answers.