Pregnant with the Bad Boy - Second Book

Chapter 34

I took a deep breath, hearing the tiny mews of Beau making small cries. My eyes were open, lying inside the arms of Travis, both semi-naked, with me just having my panties on and the same shirt I had gotten from the hospital.

Last night was… wow… I snickered, looking up at Travis's face when he was breathing slowly and looking relaxed now when his face wasn’t in a permanent scowl.

I leaned up, holding myself up on my elbows, and kissed him on the lips, slow and soft, just like we had been doing last night before getting too hot and slowing down; that was the best part, I think, not just f*****g each other so fast.

“Travis, hey…” I whispered when he grunted, but his eyes fluttered like he had heard me say his name to my smile, still being onto his body and ignoring that his hard-on was bumping my butt; that didn’t matter; just seeing his face waking up was great.

“Hey… what time is it…” he was blinking when I didn’t know and didn’t care; I was going to get up and feed Beau, that was crying, and then I was coming right back into his arms.

“4.37…. great….” I snickered, seeing that he didn’t seem so happy about me waking him up so early, but I didn’t care; I wanted to talk to him, and I didn’t even know about what?

“Yapp, that’s how it is dating a girl with a baby….” I snickered more, getting up fast and picking up my baby; that calmed down when he felt me lifting my shirt and starting to feed him, not caring if Travis saw me walking back to the bed with Beau roughhousing around my boob.

“Dating?” I turned my head when Travis was frowning, and I dropped my smile; what did he want to call it then? I didn’t know what to call kissing and sleeping together in a bed, friends with no benefits?

“Yeah, aren’t we?” I said it back cockier when he stared at me, still newly awakened and grumpy like that’s not what he wanted to hear when I woke him up so early.

“I don’t know, are we?” Travis challenged me back when I shrugged, maybe not…. I was biting my bottom lips, feeling bad again; I shouldn’t have said that… he wanted to go slow, and here I was going too fast as usual… s**t…

“No, no, we aren’t then… just…. something….” I said it back sadder than I had intended; I didn’t mean to make it weird; maybe it was just me being weird all over, unable to even have some sort of normal start of anything in my life.

“My head and hand are killing me, it’s not even morning, and you are talking about dating, and I can see your boobs…. You are something, that’s for sure, Jen….” I snorted, hearing him not sounding pissed off, at least when I was switching sides; Beau looked up at me with his big blue eyes; he was so beautiful. The most beautiful baby ever.

I got up again, Beau falling asleep in my arms. I had put him down the crib carefully and wanted to take another picture of him even if I already had about a thousand, and he wasn’t even two days old; he just looked so cute in his pajamas with cows on, and his feet were so small when I was still leaned over and just staring at him smiling, ignoring the guy on the bed staring at me just as much.

“I’m going to get my phone…” Travis was still just staring at me when I walked around the bed and was just about my way back to the crib feeling his warm hand around my wrist, pulling me back down. I stared at his smirk when I was lying on him again, and this time, I knew that the hard-on wasn’t from sleeping; it was me.

“You were taking forever to get back here…” I didn’t answer him and just stared right back into his eyes that were searching into mine, still smirking like an i***t when I felt his hands around my legs and making me inhale from the strong shiver that was coming down my back from his fingertips gracing my bare legs, that felt so good.

“Travis, don’t….” I was already feeling my core ache the slightest, and he was just messing with me, and I knew that seeing the teasing on his face, did he want me to suffer the same as him?

“I’m not saying that we can’t be something… but dating… yeah, that is more serious than we need to be, right?” I didn’t know what to say to that, feeling the lump in my throat getting close to tears, he was right, and technically, he was dating my mom in public. That felt bad when I wasn’t high on the strong feeling that took over my heart and body last night.

“Yeah…. I just…. Maybe we shouldn’t, you know?” I leaned back up, sitting and wiping my eyes, hating that I was so messed up that I wanted to date the first nice guy who helped me and even didn’t mind Beau. It was too good to be true, and I was starting to understand that.

“No… no, I don’t know….” Travis was answering me back way too cool for me to not feel like the biggest crybaby ever; why was he acting stupid when I knew that he was dating Mom!?

“Travis don’t play stupid; you are dating my mom and…. I don’t know if I can do that to her… even If I like you a lot….” I said it back nervously, not wanting to hear him conclude that I was right and just tell me that this, whatever it was between us, was just a one-time thing and not more.

“I am?” Travis was still lying down and looking up at me, sitting beside him on the bed and looking back sad; why was he acting like he hadn’t been kissing her right in this room? Making me feel worse; I didn’t think and just acted, but… I don’t know, Travis was so … different and… I didn’t stop myself from crying this time; let him see me go full-blown crazy again; that might make him stop liking me, at least.

“Yes… I saw you and her, and she kissed you, but you wanted her too, and don’t even try to act like you didn’t….” I said every word sniffling into my hands, feeling my chest hurt; it wasn’t supposed to upset me this much so early on; this was just as crazy as everything else in my life.

“Alright…. I did flirt with her, but… I’m not seeing her, and she kissed me, but I told her it couldn’t happen…” I didn’t believe him, moving away more from the bed, closer to my baby, and wanting to leave, hating that he was just lying so that he could keep doing this with me and maybe f**k Mom until I could? What the hell did I know!?

“… and she might have wanted to pay me to make sure that she was getting reports on how you were doing….” I gasped hearing the last part; she did what?? That was just… insulting!

I cried more when I felt his hand on my shoulder, wanting to shake it off when I couldn’t, not wanting to lose the small joy in my life that wasn’t tied to the boy moving around in his crib, probably from hearing my tears. I needed to stop.

“Jen, listen to me. I’m not lying; if I wanted to date your mom, I would have, but I helped you out, and sure, you are annoying as hell since you can't do anything to save your life, but we can fix that; it's not that hard….” Travis was speaking softer than ever when I looked back, my eyes still running down with heavy tears hating that I wanted to believe him; I really did.

“It’s hard; you just don’t get that…” I was still sniveling when he broke out into a big smile that made me feel weird again; why was he always looking so damn happy when something bad happened? He really was insane, wasn’t he?

“You have been spending way too much time in your head, and it's time to get out there….” He pointed at the crib when I felt terrible, hating that he was right; I had been alone inside my head for a long time.

“Fine, just don’t lie about this, please?” I was begging him not to tell me something and then just turn around and break my heart when I found out something he was hiding; I couldn’t handle that, not one more time.

“Lie? I have been saying nothing but the truth, and you haven’t liked it so far….” Travis had warmth in his eyes again when I made one last sob just to get it all out before returning to his arms, snuggling inside and closing my eyes, feeling better getting my hair stroked; this was nice.