Chapter 62
"Destructive"
It’s like I am trapped in a trance. Dark and cold. Matutulala ako at iiyak. Even in my sleep I cry. I have no hold of my emotions anymore. But above it all is the feeling of never ending sadness. Unti-unti ng gumagaling ang mga sugat at galos ko. But the hollow in my heart remains and I think it is getting bigger. I am a mess.
The heavens changed it’s mind. Siguro naisip nila na masyadong madali kung mamatay lang ako, so instead they let me live and suffer. I think I will lost my mind in guilt, sorrow, confusion and shame. A punishment for my greed and wickedness.
Parang dinudurog ang puso ko. Alam kong nandyan lang siya sa labas araw-araw. He never dared enter the room. He believed what the doctor said. May bodyguard din na nagbabantay sa labas. Ang hirap-hira
