Brendon is different. He doesn't seem like his old, heartless self. He's been smiling. And laughing, he made a couple of jokes tonight. Is it only because I can't help but see him as my Shadow now, too? Is it him who has changed, or me? Is my perception of him morphing past all the superficial high school BS? No. Not BS. I remember clearly why I avoided him for so long.
During my space out earlier, while Brendon was cleaning, I remembered a memory of him from when we were in elementary school. As he moved around the room, I could see his muscles flexing under his dress shirt. Taking me back to that day. No one used to talk to him back then because, even then, he was so big and scary. Same as he is now.
He didn't have Zane and his friends around back then. Wouldn't talk unless spoken t
