The Doctor

Wander….

While she was away from the storage room, and able to suppress her desire, the guilty feeling hits her once again….

She still feeling guilty for being unable to get rid of the doctor’s charisma…

And that guilt deepened as her memory takes her to the early years of the pandemic, where the health protocol was so stretch, they can even return to their homes for quite some times, even the hospital she served, add a double gate system…

And from afar, she saw a little girl, escorted by her mother, walked towards the outer gat, carrying a brown paper bag, with its top folded neatly, and passed her hand through the gate and put it on the floor….

“I miss you, daddy… When will you come home…?” Ask the little girl, while the mother keep silent, with her dark colored glasses, and an umbrella to block the sun….

“I will be home soon, Mia…. I’ll be home soon…” Said doctor Harris, who only removing his mask, without removing his hazmat suit, as he smiles to his daughter who obviously look sad to the fact that she can’t even give her father a hug, but tries to understand and turn to her mother, waving her father goodbye, who then passes the inner gate to take the brown paper bag, left by his daughter, that now has returned home…

And reminding that moment, feels like an ice pick being stabbed to her heart….

I should never get tempted… I should have been stronger than that…. It’s a big mistake… She thought, as she wanders aimlessly, with her eye gazing to the tip of her slip-on shoes and the floor of the hospital, which look older, full of skid marks from the medical bed that been pushed through it….

Three times…! Why…? Why do I let it happened…? She thought, remembering how many times has the senior doctor manages to make her surrenders to his charm, gentleness, kindness….

No more…. I’m not fall to an affair again…. I’m not going to ruin someone’s family… She thought, while her memory returned to the face of doctor Harris’ wife, who was stern like a granite as she takes her daughter to the hospital…

The face who seems to know what adultery her husband did…

The face that looked at her expressionless…