A forbidden affair

A secret kept

I’ve always thought of myself as straight. I dated boys in high school and even had a serious relationship with a guy I thought I loved. But there was always something missing, a nagging sense that my attraction wasn’t quite…whole.

It started with little things. A fleeting glance at a woman’s legs, the way her hips swayed when she walked, the curve of her neck when she laughed. I told myself it was just appreciation, that anyone with eyes would notice these things. But the truth was more complicated.

I loved women. I loved the way they looked, the way they moved, the way they made me feel. And I wasn’t just talking about their faces or their personalities. I was talking about the full, rounded curves of their bodies, the softness of their skin, the way they seemed to glow from within.

It was a strange, intoxicating thing, this attraction. And it terrified me.

Because what did it mean? Was I straight? Was I bi? Did it even matter?

My friends used to ask my sexuality,then I proved them wrong I dated my first boyfriend after our break up I dated another one but I never allowed them to break my virginity until I was sure about what I want,Until I met Wade his so perfect in everything he does he loves me so much.He even introduced me to his family his parents loves me and he has a twin sister she doesn't like me that much but I understand.I never slept with Wade but he have been patient with me for 2 years.We would cuddle and sleep at the same bed but never had s*x,he never pressurized me into doing things that I don't want.

We graduated from high school and went to college,I'm so happy because my boyfriend and I got accepted in the same college so we won't be far from each other

"This is the last box" Wade said that while put a box on top of my bed

I got closer to him and hugged him "Thank you my love,and I'm happy that you and I ended up in the same college we won't be like those couples we face chat only and see each other after a long time we are going to be with each other everyday,I wish you were my roommate unfortunately girls and boys can't share rooms"

He giggles and looked at me "As much as I want to be with you here but I have to go and unpack so this means I'll see you later"

"I wonder who's my roommate,I wish Jazz was here like we did in high school sharing rooms and all that I can't stay with a stranger,babe what if she is psycho?or worse a serial killer" I moved one box and sat down

My boyfriend sat near me and hold my hand "babe everything will be fine,stop stressing"

Wendy opened the door and got inside

"What are you guys doing in my room" sighs

"This is my room...anyways sister in law what are you doing here" I wouldn't share a room with a weirdo like her

Wade's parents walked in and hugged us

"Mom what is she doing here?I thought she was going to GAU" Wade walked towards her mother

"I changed my mind and I didn't know that I was sharing a room with this thing of yours I would have stayed at home"

I rolled my eyes and just looked at her I didn't want to cause drama in front if their parents

"Wendy!!stop calling her a thing we asked the management to place you in the same room because we know others won't want to be in the same room with you my dear you know your previous roommates never liked you,they always complained so Sky is used to you she won't feel otherwise" Wade's mother tried to explain but how can she make a decision like this alone and not ask me about how I felt staying with this weirdo,Wendy is not someone you would like or want to be around she was difficult to talk to

"Mother I'm not weirdo I'm bisexual some people should learn to mind their own business it's not a crime to like two genders at the same time and if you done with that family meeting call me I want to unpack my clothes" she walked out and everyone went silent,Wade's mother asked if I was okay with Wendy staying with me I said I was cool I couldn't say no they would think I'm a bad girlfriend or daughter in law.I wish my mother was here she would have told them where to gets off but there was no turning back I was going to share a room with that weirdo.They all left and I was left with Wendy she didn't pack her clothes but instead smoked weed while I did all the work her side was filled with clothes all over while mine was clean I felt bad then got up and cleaned her side

"Wow look at my little sweet sister in law cleaning for me"

"Wendy your a lady you should start acting like it" I continued cleaning

A week later I had already made friends in campus Jane and Rachel,they are roommate and have been friends since high school the good thing was they are also freshman and on the other hand my roommate was an ass,I had turned into her maid and that was tiring my boyfriend suggested that we tell his parents but I told him that I was fine with it I didn't want to cause unnecessary drama but what annoys me the most is that she already have many girlfriends we haven't been here for a month but already she had s*x with many girls and sometimes I would find them naked in my room I swear that this girl hates me but I don't care I had to be a good daughter in law.

My friends and I where preparing for our first party in college so I got ready,did my make up until Wendy walked into the room naked

"WENDY!!"I shouted "what the f*ck?" I covered my eyes

"What?we are all ladies or do you have a d**k?" She went to her side and applied body lotion.I know what you all are saying yeah I couldn't keep my eyes closed I turned and looked at her small bums going up and down.my jaw nearly dropped the way I was looking at her

"People think I'm weird but you are the worst why are you looking at me like that" I was lost in thoughts and her body was beautiful has hell even her skin color she's so beautiful,she snapped her fingers "Kataliya!!what's wrong with you"

"Uhm....I...I....what?" I looked away

"What wrong with you,why are you looking at me like that" she made a disgusted face

I took my bag and left her in there,I friends texted me location of the party and I went there.i found Jane alone in thr party

"Hey where's Rachel" I took a glass of champagne and took a sip

"She got herself someone to hook up with" she smiled

"OH,okay"

We had fun and I had lots of shots.i couldn't walk straight but luckily Wendy was there as well she helped me get back to our room

"Wendy...thank you..."I couldn't even stand straight

"Anyways why did you help me I thought you hated me"

"I don't love you either"she said that while lighting her weed

"But why?why are we never friends?" I sat on top of her bed next to her

"Just"

"I need more than that atleast,am I not good enough ir you just don't like me being your twin brother's girlfriend"

"Because all of you think that I'm a weirdo Kataliya!"

"But I don't" I looked at her with my drunk ass eyes

"You do everyone in my family thinks that,and they influenced you as well"

"Wendy I think your just a girl with a lot bottled in,your not a weirdo.Your a strong woman who knows her sexuality who was able to stand up against her family and tell them that she's bisexual so your a wonderful woman" I said that while playing with her hair

"I didn't know you saw me like that,thanks"

I giggled and looked at her "This is your first time saying something nice"

"Really" she leaned over and I couldn't stop myself we kissed and kissed and kissed then I stopped I ran to the bathroom and puked she brought me a glass of water I had it and went to bed a passed out.

Chapter three~

It's been a week after that family dinner I never told Wade what happened between me and her twin sister,I didn't want to make it awkward and Wendy and I haven't talked for a week,I'm giving her the space she wants I can't be with someone who treat me like trash.

I woke up early freshen up after that I went to Wade's room.I found Conrad half naked,I covered my eyes "What....hi...uhm...where..."I couldn't even say a word but I could feel his footsteps gets closer to me "Hey boo no need to cover your eyes I'm not naked" he removed my hands from covering my eyes "Hey Conrad...where is my boyfriend"

"I don't know sweetheart he went out with some chick named Lissa or Lizzy I don't remember" he moved back and wore his T-shirt, "Okay I'll wait for him"

I sat down on the couch then he sat next to me I couldn't breathe,I don't remember the last night I had butterflies after a guy got close to me because Wade doesn't give me any of that.We watched a movie together and I realized that his not a bad person and a bad boy as My friends say he is but what I know is that Rachel has a crush on him.He made space popcorn's we had them together by the time I was high my boyfriend came back "Kataliya what are you doing here with this one" I tried to stand up but I couldn't feel my legs that weed make you loose balance "Babe your back?I was waiting for you my love"

"Bro what the f*ck have you done to my girl"he got closer to Conrad

"Babe relax I'm the one who asked him to make space popcorn,it's not his fault"

He carried me up "let's go I'm taking you back to your res" he carried me to his car then dropped me off at my room.

"What happened to her" Wendy acted like she cares all of the sudden

"My roommate gave her weed so that she can get high and take advantage of her,she's innocent she doesn't know that guy" he was still furious

"Babe he wasn't going to hurt me I'm a big girl..."

"Twin please make sure she doesn't leave I have a test tomorrow I have to study" he walked out

"Let me get you some water you don't look too good"

"So all of the sudden you care about me?the next moment your cold the next....you know what f*ck you Wendy" I took off my shoes and slept she just looked at me then locked the door and slept.

The next morning I woke up late I had a headache "OH my head..."I checked the time and I was late "f*ck...Wendy why didn't you wake me up"

"Because your not my problem,I don't want to give you the wrong impression" she walked out

Sometimes I think this girl enjoy hurting me,I got up took a quick shower then on my way to campus I bought energy drink but it didn't work I was so f*cked up.I was late and when I got in my professor left everyone got up and left.Rachel and Jane walked to me

"Girl your late"Rachel said that while taking my energy drink "I need this more than you do"

"Girl what were you doing because we weren't partying last night"

"Jane...I...I had space popcorn with Conrad imagine"

Rachel turned quickly "Conrad?what were you doing with my man"

"His not your man yet"

"Jane shut the f*ck up,and you what about girl code"

"No I was waiting for my boyfriend you know that they share a room,So I waited too long then Conrad made space popcorn so I ended up having them"

"Okay girl bit just remember girl code okay"

"Rachel get over yourself you know that Conrad is a player,you know how many girls he have been with in the past so chill and he doesn't do relationships"

"His coming guys..." we kept quiet Waited for him to say something

"Hey...K can we talk" he said that staring at me then Rachel and Jane looked at me, I didn't know what was going on with me I knew that I had a crush on Wendy and I also had something for this boy so what does that make me.How can someone like two people at the same time and different genders

"Uhm...yeah sure talk" I didn't know what to say to him,

"In private please" Rachel and Jaane gave us a space butRachel gave me that I will kill you look and walked away

"Make it quick...sup"?

"Thank you for covering for me last night"he tried to hold my hand but I slapped his "it was nothing but don't touch me"

"Okay but your boyfriend still thinks that I wanted to take advantage of you I mean why do people think of me like that"

"Maybe your the one who makes them think that or say that what did you doing asked

"Nothing...all the girls I've been with they did it willingly I didn't force myself on them" Wade saw us and came to us he pulled me to the side

"What are you doing with this guy"he was furious,I also would have been furious I mean Conrad is the guy he thinks he is

"Babe what's wrong"

"Are you with this guy now?huh answer me is it because I'm a nerd I don't pressurize you to have s*x with me so you think I'm a nerd? Kataliya did you sleep with this guy?

"F*ck you...f*ck you Wade,what do you take me for,it's not my fault that you have insecurities and you think I would f**k with someone I just met that I hardly know?f*ck you Wade and go f*ck yourself nigga" I walked away he tried to stop me but I walked away.

When I got to my room I found Wendy with Jane having sex

"What the f*ck is going on here"

They turned and looked at me,Jane covered herself with a sheet "Friend it's not what you think is"

"I thought you where straight but this...after I told you how I felt about this girl?"

"Kataliya why are you making it a big deal you and I are not dating so I can date whoever I want,remember that your my brother's girlfriend chill"

Today was a lot it was too much to take in already "Wendy your the one who led me on all the time and you always push me away and say those brutal words to me,you know what f*ck you,f*ck your brother and f*ck you Jane" I walked out of that room with tears in my eyes.I went straight to Wade and Conrad's room when I got there Wade wasn't home

"Hey..."

"Wade is not here,he went out with that chick"

"I'm not here for Wade" I pushed him inside,closed the door then kissed him

"Wait...what are you doing"

"Can't you see?your not taking advantage of me I came willingly,yeah I like you so what?"

The room was dim, the only light spilling from a single lamp that cast soft shadows across the low‑sitting couch. Conrad leaned against the armrest, his tall frame relaxed, the muscles in his forearms flexing as he held a glass of water, his dark skin catching the amber glow. I stood by the window, the city’s night sounds drifting in through the cracked pane, my eyes fixed on him with a hunger that had been building all evening.

I moved first, stepping toward him with the quiet confidence of someone who knows exactly what she wants. The air between us seemed to tighten, the scent of my perfume something citrusy with a hint of jasmine mixing with the faint smell of the candle on the coffee table.

Conrad set the glass down, his fingers lingering on the cool surface before reaching for me. He brushed a strand of hair from my face, his thumb tracing the line of my jaw. My breath hitched, and I pressed my palm against his chest, feeling the steady beat of his heart under his shirt.

Our lips met in a slow, searching kiss soft at first, then deepening as the world narrowed to the taste of each other. Conrad’s hand slipped to the small of my back, pulling me closer, while my fingers tangled in his hair, tugging gently. The kiss turned urgent, tongues dancing, each breath a promise of what was to come.

I pulled back just enough to whisper, “Let’s take this to your room,” my voice husky with desire. Conrad nodded, his eyes darkening, and without a word he lifted me effortlessly, cradling me against his chest as he carried me to the bedroom, the night outside a silent witness to the heat building between us

"Are you still a virgin" his soft voice whispering in my ears

"I know it's embarrassing but yes"

"Are you sure you want to do this?"he asked

"I do" I was not sure but to spite Wendy I did it with him who would have thought.